Update 04/11: PROGRESS!! (Patreon)

fantastic news y'all: i've finally filmed my sections of The Matrix Sequels Are Good Actually, a video that eric sophia mcallister and i have been collaborating on for MONTHS. i'm so excited about this video. we haven't 100% locked in the final runtime yet, but it's definitely gonna be well over an hour long.

we're currently on track to have it out to their patrons in a week or so, and then it'll go public on their channel a month after that. which maybe isn't the unbridled good news you were hoping for as someone who wants to see a new video from me, like, now. i want to talk about that for a second.

the last... month? two months? who even knows anymore... have been really tough for me. maybe as tough as when the pandemic started? although this time around it's less world events that are killing me and more the many unplugged holes in my brain that take finite resources like time and energy and just sorta dump them out onto the floor.

i really thought i'd be medicated by now y'all, and it's starting to get downright inconvenient. filming this one was like pulling teeth! don't get me wrong, once i got in front of the camera i had a great time. but it's just unfortunately true that, where i live right now, i have an extremely narrow window of time from about midnight to 4am when i can film without the constant hum of traffic. and in order to film at all, well...

let's just say, it's a process. and look, it's not a particularly complicated process? but it is a lot to do for a trans woman with umedicated adhd and bipolar II who also has tremendous self-esteem issues all by herself. it's been so long since i've really, properly gotten in front of the camera like this i honestly wasn't sure if i even could.

i think this is at least partially what's to blame for my inability to produce videos consistently for the last year and change.

but the good news is, i did it anyway and i loved it! better news still, i realized how much i missed being in front of the camera, how much i missed really truly doing this job. and if i'm capable of getting it done while unmedicated and depressed, then i can definitely do it again.

okay, enough introspecting! let's talk logistics.

around the same time this video goes live on soph's channel in may, i'm gonna release my own Matrix vid on my channel that covers the extended media of the franchise as part of my Wachowski Sisters series.

in the meantime, i'm gonna try to cobble something together in time for the end of April. there are a couple solid candidates on the roster right now, but it's still a bit early to make any predictions because (i mean come on, you know this by now) my mood can turn on a dime and make me lose interest in everything i'm currently working on. i'll hopefully have news for you on that front next week.

ok, i think i've taken up enough of y'all's time for now. thank you so much, as always, for your support, and thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday last week and donated to my piano fund!!!! as you can see, it's being put to good use.

take care of yourselves!