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HEY GUYS!!

So sorry for the long wait and that I you for all your patience! 😭 The episode ended up being super big and I was already a bit behind schedule so yeah…🥹✨

Hope you like how it turned out!❤️

I didn’t put any disclaimer at the beginning of the episode, but as per usual, reader discretion is advised with this storyline

Super curious to hear your thoughts 💭

Btw

Axel’s + Kai’s turn isn’t over yet, next week the chaos will resume 😌✨

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Keiji Akaashi

Axel dear.. its okay to be confused.. I wanna hug him.. 🥺♥️

NaybaySunshine

HOW ARE WE GONNA SURVIVE TILL NEXT WEEK ??? HOW AM I GOING TOO

peachita

Not axel's tears... FIGHT OR FLIGHT I RATHER DIE THAN HAVE TO CRY IN FRONT OF YOU😭

Saelune

And now I feel like crying 😞 Axel, you poor thing…😥

sinnamoroll

need more Kai and Axel and need them to JUST BE IN LOVE ALREADY 🥺

Nugget

Their blushing is KILLING ME

NaybaySunshine

A sad cinnamon roll 😭😭😭😭

Saelune

OMG, Pasta just edited the post! It’s still Axel’s and Kai’s POV next week!

BaBa

AHHHH

Sydney

I have way too many things to say... Oh, my baby Axel! No! I can't handle you crying right now! And especially not when you look like you loathe yourself! 😭😭😭 Let Kai hold you if you're gonna cry! You're allowed to be turned on if you know someone else is turned on by you! I promise, it doesn't change who you are! If Kai wasn't already at least a little bit in love with him, he sure as fuck is now. He's unequivocally in lust with him for sure. Also poor Kai said goodbye to his brain when he realized Axel came too.

BaBa

bro i didnt even notice those tears

𝔪𝔦𝔯𝔞 🎼

not kai touching his face with the same hand that touched axel’s fluids just moments prior

Shana

TFF GUYSS JUST FUCK ALREADY! 🧘‍♀️

NaybaySunshine

I don’t think I can sleep after this episode…. I’ll just be in bed wrapped up like a burrito… till next week

liahisaliar

now we wait for another chapter AHHHHHHGGGGGGGHHHH

Oooooooooooo

Axel has flashbacks about time when his father had molested him. Also if body reacts with arousal during rape, it doesn't mean this person wants it, it is a body reaction.

Skibidi Bonnet

Kai looks so heartbroken on that panel after thinking about Axel crying 😭 His tears broke my heart and it looks like they broke Kai's too and he feels guilty, and clearly wants to comfort him 😭😭 Axel's shame was palpable, I wanna hug him, but I wouldn't because he would hate it. I hate that Axel has so much self loathing and hatred. I really want him to love himself. I hope Kai helps to do that 🥺 Do we think Axel was actually touching himself? I thought so because of his hand placement tbh. Then I thought hmm maybe he didn't and just came from being so turned on? If he touched himself I would be SOO happy because it would mean it wasn't involuntary and he actually wanted to cum and 'join in'. Axel telling Kai what to do and him just obeying AND giving a serious, non sarcastic reply, not shaming him, teasing him or touching him? WHAT A DYNAMIC SHIFT AHHH! Kai don't worry, one day you will be the one he runs to for comfort and safety. It might take a while but you'll get there 🥰💖 I could literally speak about Kaxel for hours. I saw Onxy and was like 'please no, I don't even care about them atp' 💀 Also, Kai loves him so deeply I can't with his facial expressions 😭😭

M

No worries on the schedule. I’m always surprised how quick you get these done. I write stories but you publish faster than me, and I don’t have to draw anything!

ChaosKekzz

I totally traped in the dark, can't find out whether Axel has flashbacks cause of SA or if he has gay panic... I not sure about his dad. Hope something clears up next Episode 🙏

Himitsu

I believe my previous theories are correct in the sense that Axel is closeted and the reason je was being a huge jerk back in high school was him projecting. He’s crying now because of how ashamed he feels with himself (or maybe im totally wrong and he’s just not fuckin with Kai💀)

Rosie Kay

Oh noooo sweetie nooo This is a turning point, I can feel it. Either Axel is actually going to speak up (which get it, king) or Kai is going to instill healthier boundaries (that face is giving so much heartbreak). Or something else. No matter what tho, it's not staying like this

Nico DiFrico

yall i stayed up so late for this my vision is blurry. i had to squint so lhard for so lomg at those panels LMAO

Nico DiFrico

and onyx i love you and im so sorry for this but FUCK OFF RN. my first reaction to seeing him was literally “NOOOO WE BETTER NOT HAVE JUST SWITCHED POVS RN NO NONON PLS NO I NEED KAXEL BACK IMMEDIATELY”

Davon Brown

Omgg nooo I wanted Kai to immediately comfort him!! But ig this leads to axel’s back story and them getting even closer so ig I’m fine with this cliffhanger. lol and no offense to onyx but when I saw him i immediately screamed noo!!!

Andrea

How the turns have tabled! Poor baby, i want to hug axel.... confused little sandwich

Nicki

I need more of this chaos! I excited/nervous to find out Axel's backstory and how it will change their relationship

Ifi <3

Wait did he came or pee?

Vee_Breeze

NOOOO MY BABY DONT CRY ITS NATURAL

Giyuu Tomioka

IM REALLY CURIOUS ABOUT AXEL’S BACKSTORYYYYYY

Noemi Camerano

This was such an amazing episode! I loved how Kai handled the situation not being his usual self but actually being considerate of Axel’s feelings Honestly I think they would make such a perfect couple, like TRULY perfect. Cause Axel could teach Kai how to care about others and how to be a decent human being who understands respect, while Kai could help Axel love and accept himself more and make him realize he deserves to be loved and happy 🥺

Becshlec

I… don’t even have words right now. I’ll be back when I can collect my thoughts but all yall need to know is I LOVED THIS SHIT

Kelly klarkson

I can honestly imagine axel internal struggle from the moment Kai undressed to now. He didn’t like that Kai was getting undressed because it made him feel funny but he didn’t want to seem like he was overreacting or being silly by keeping on wet clothes. He was conflicted with the relief of feeling Kai’s warmth when he held him. His brain started trying to shut off when Kai was breathing in his ear (imagine his brain telling him “shhh let this happen!”). From then he was struggling with being intensely turned on by kai being so turned on and having a hard time resisting. Which was likely really frustrating. I feel bad for him.

Phoenixx

As soon as he told him to stop breathing in his ear I thought oh that got him hot and it’s why he’s telling him to stop.

Lyssa4b

Knew it… And now to add the other boys back in. 😁

MiamorM

AXEL COCK YOOO!!

MiamorM

Bro I feel so immature these comments are so serious and I’m focused on the fact we’ve seen his cock now 💀

artsy_amusing

Kudos to Kai for not trying to push things further, even if Axel was turned on. Despite being aroused, there was clear discomfort (probably fear, too) in Axel's eyes due to him likely feeling embarrassed/ashamed of his natural reaction. Kai is a guy, and in Axel's mind, it's "wrong" to feel this way, and I'm almost certain it's from his upbringing. I always thought Axel had internalized homophobia from what was probably an abusive and bigoted household. His constant bullying of Onyx was him projecting big time, and likely from his father (maybe even both parents) instilling homophobia and hatred in him towards being gay. I'd even guess he was showing early signs of liking boys from a young age and his father likely tried to "beat the gay away" every chance he got, and from the slightest sign of his son being/acting queer. I feel like this is definitely the beginning of Axel's journey to self-acceptance (which will be rough for him for sure), and I think Kai will slowly help Axel to open up about his feelings, not to mention accept who he is.

Steph

THIS! I agree with everything you said! A lot of people have been speculating SA, but I don’t think it’s that. I think it’s internalized homophobia. And I think that he actually had a thing for Onyx too but was bullying him because he was projecting his feelings. When he saw Lynx and was attracted to “her”, he probably felt relief that he liked someone who was female and can be considered ‘normal’ which is why he was so aggressive in trying to get ‘her’ to like him, and then later freaked when he found out it was Onyx all along. Oof, my heart hurts for Axel. He must have had a really rough childhood 🥺

Renée

What I really want is for Kai to tell Axel he’s never wanted to do anything with another guy until he met Axel, to help him see there’s nothing wrong with it. 🥺

Kelly klarkson

Well that wouldn’t be true. I thought kai already mentioned from his thoughts that he already has been with guys but he’s just never been ROMANTICALLY interested

t

i was looking for your comment because ahhhhhh!!!!!

t

hehe long comment. okay but i’ve never believed axel just “hated” onyx. it’s too intentional. he doesn’t ignore him, he fixates on him. he’s always in his space, always provoking him. that’s not indifference, that’s emotional investment. and when the basketball arc dropped? that’s when it clicked for me. axel’s whole identity is dominance and perception. so imagine catching feelings for someone in that environment, especially someone like onyx. that’s ego vs desire. that’s internal crisis. plus people forget axel, keane, and onyx have known each other since they were kids. that’s formative attachment. if he grew up watching keane and onyx gravitate toward each other, of course there’d be comparison. envy doesn’t always start romantic, but it can turn into it. the high school kiss feels like the rupture point. jealousy only burns like that when there’s something underneath it. if he spread the photo, that’s repression lashing out. but part of me wonders if he didn’t, and just took the blame as self-sabotage because confronting his own feelings would’ve been worse. idk, i just feel like axel’s first boy crush being onyx would explain SO much about his behavior. envy → attraction → shame → chaos = kai is going to work overtime for his loverboy just my journal theory that’s been collecting dust, thought i share it finally lol

Poppy Jasper

What up with those two... Axel's erection it looks like....

Kelly klarkson

Axel always respected keane though. Which has been interesting. It is at least apparent that Axel found onyx attractive though. He knew that “lynx” looked just like him and he was very fixated on “her”.

Axel

R WE GETTN SNEAK PEAK TMR OR THE DAY AFTER COS THE FULL EP DELAYS

Bitter.Süße.Reue

I started reading this last night. I started at 10 PM and read straight through until 3 AM, and I'm now on the last chapter for now, and I love it! You're so great!

dazai's bandage😏😋

Omfg I can't wait until we get the new chapter i need it noww the curiosity is literally eating me alive😫

Scar

It turned him on too?! Careful now Axel looks like you might be one of us homos too if you keep that up 😉

Soraya Carranza

I love you Onyx, but Kai amd Axel are none of your business.

Grace Still

Me thinks Axel has some internalized homophobia

damnit

When i open pdf, Why the document damaged or corrupt?

damnit

What the password for this document?