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G'day horsemen of apocalypse, hope you're all doing well! Not much has been up for me lately to be quite honest, which is actually a really bad thing because it means we're in for some absolute FUCK these upcoming weeks!

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Recent Setbacks) Most likely due to burnout from the abrupt apartment shift or for some other unknown reason, I've just been struggling to get my arse into gear lately. It sucks and my method for this has always been to power through but I dunno, just doesn't seem to be working out this year. Fun fact if you didn't know: I'm ASD (Autism) and OCD diagnosed  which is fun!
I've managed quite well just with that knowledge in the past without the need for any medication. Never ever been a fan of that personally, in fact, it's actually one of my specific quirks. BUT I'm thinking it might finally be time to investigate something minor, just to take the edge off. Just to help keep me focussed and hopefully motivate me on the days when I need it. No idea what's going to come of that, I don't see my doctor until next week. But I'm hoping for the sake of content and more importantly, the sake of me being happy and fulfilled, it's something that I just can't do on my own anymore.

I still love this but something just stopped working and I can't figure out what specifically that is.

Production Flow)  This is the real kicker... by this point in the year, Hawktober is typically ready to begin filming which I almost am at that stage right now. Problem is my radically different script writing method this year means that I've not actually completed a single script. The majority of 4/6 are laid out as the bulk of each video, but that said, I am still behind. The hope is that I'll be able to acquire the THPS remake AND Crash 4 prior to release so that I can buy some time for Hawktober and plan my shit better. But even if that does happen, shit's about to hit the fan for me like every other year so sUpEr kEEn FoR tHat!!! 😅

Current Plan for Videos) Here is the current plan for what's coming up on the channel:

  • This Week: Square Eyed Jak review!!! Had some real positive feedback from the Early Access crowd and it's a video I'm very happy with. Excited for everyone to see it!
  • Next Week: "Where Are My Games?" a brief collection/life update just showing where my collection is right now, talking about having to move again. It's basically just a super quick thing to help break up the relentless domination of game testing this year.
  • Early September: THPS Remake review... yes I'm doing it as close to release as possible because it deserves it's own month in the spotlight!
  • The Rest of September: 😂😂😂 yeah good luck with that, I'm going to be wrecked!

As for October, it will really depend on IF and how early, I can potentially get a Crash 4 episode completed. Ideally, I'll cover that first, THEN have Hawktober towards the end of the month giving me time to complete it. This is really up in the air right now!

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Closing Thoughts) So that's where we're at people, let's just hope Hawktober kicks my arse into gear in the next week or we're in serious trouble! As for quick Patreon updates, next week you'll get the BTS Making-of blog for the upcoming review. Currently waiting on merch samples so as soon as I'm happy with those, they will become available! finally, I'd like to say thank you as always for reading and supporting the channel and I hope you have a great fucking day. Cheers! 😄

Comments

Zac

As someone who has struggled with attention deficit disorder (ADD) for most of my life I can fully relate to the lack of motivation, I was on medication (Ritalin) up until I left high school and while i'm not suggesting anything that strong I found it made a significant difference when staying on task. I have been meaning to go back to my doctor too and see what I can get to help me now that i'm 23, as I've heard getting that medication can be a pain to gain access to as you get older. Wishing all the best for you.

SquareEyedJak

Hopefully there is something light that can just be a kick in the ass because honestly, if I get stuck in early, then I'm golden all day long. But the days where it's just a struggle to even get started are the ones that are brutal. Worse is being a creative person, when I'm not doing something, it only makes me worse so it's a vicious cycle.

Zac

It's those moments when you realise you've spent your entire day not doing much of anything and it's too 'late' to make a start, so tomorrow is 'definitely' gonna be the day. I find that to be my biggest crux. But surely they'll be able to help, we're lucky to have half decent health care here.