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G'day guys, been a while I know. The weekly updates have devolved into monthly posts and I'm really sorry about that. Patreon Podcast for April still running late! Life is just a fucking nightmare lately and it's been next to impossible to remain consistent with anything, work or otherwise. So lemme just clear the air on a few things real quick!

Please excuse any telling you what's up without really telling you because the specifics are on a need to know basis yeah. Cheers! 😊

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Simpsons Road Rage) It was really nice to get this video out finally, I'll have a Making-of post coming hopefully soon for BTS Patrons! But I'll just say that it was a real tough one to get finished. Originally planned as a collab in 2020, it was continuously dropped for other projects or other reasons and ultimately, was decided that I would just make the video by myself. I'm happy with the result, though it was brutal to complete the actual work parts under my current circumstances.

June - July) So June was heavily occupied with some travels around the state, staying with my partner and such. After the Spyro ELR, I knew that I would need a break to regroup and the month essentially slipped through my fingers without me even noticing which is... kinda scary. Moving into July however, life shit the bed massively.

If you've seen the channel update I posted back in May and kept up with my updates here, you may be able to piece some things together...

  • Struggling to find a new place to live
  • Mental Health taking a complete NOSE DIVE
  • Unable to live in my own fucking house 🙃

It's been a nightmare to say the least. Over the last 3 weeks, I've only been able to spend roughly 10 days at my own house. Whenever I leave, it's always abrupt which doesn't do my head any good. The unpredictability of all this has led my seizures to grow much more freakish and unstable, which then only makes things worse. It's a very dark spiral I'm caught in, I'll save you the details.

tl;dr: my back is fully against the wall

Slight Positive Injection) Since I've been away from home a whole lot, my Switch has been getting some extensive use in portable mode with Breath of the Wild... I fucking LOVE this game, holy shit guys! Taking my time to sink in and enjoy it but I've reached a point now where I wanna sit and just capture all the Devine Beasts I'm up too on the Elgato so I can show off how much I'm loving it. It has kept me sane too which is a bonus! 👍

Plans Moving Forward) As of writing this, I am back at home once again and I'm confident I'll have a little bit of time to focus on work which right now... is playing games for Hawktober. This is a job that should have already been completed but unfortunately, I had to leave abruptly right at the moment I started the first game... and that was 3 weeks ago! So yeah hopefully you can understand why uploads are scarce. I'm still doing my best to get done what I can and in the meantime, I've been researching and doing early concepts on a whole bunch of videos that I'm really REALLY excited to work on. But if Hawktober is to happen this year at all... my work days need to be fully invested in the few games I'm covering. So August is gonna be shaky with uploads too!

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Closing Thoughts) So in short: fuck the universe right now!

I'm really hoping that I can land a suitable place to live within the next month because the toll this has taken on me mentally and physically is gross and I hate it. But I've been taking serious steps in the last few weeks to regain some control on the situation and give myself the best chance to at the very least... function... until I'm able to secure a new home. But until then, spirits as of writing this are better than usual so now I'm gonna go make a start playing more skater shit for you rad lads!

Thank you for your ongoing patience, peep my social medias below to keep up with my life stuff and ensure notifications on new episodes. Until next time, I hope you have a great fucking day. Cheers! 🤗

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Comments

Ryan Kowalkowski

Damn.. Sorry all this is happening Jak. I think a lot of us can relate, and let me just say I have mad respect for your honesty and willingness to speak openly about how your mental health is affected. I was stuck in a toxic home environment after graduation 2 years ago; sleeping in my car, crashing at my girlfriend's house for months on end, not speaking to anyone... It can be hard to keep your head up especially when there's no way to escape that situation. But I know that you know it won't last forever, and everything will work out eventually. In the meantime, I think I speak for all us patrons in saying that we support you no matter what. Even the fact that you're powering through and are able to create content despite the current situation, speaks volumes about your character. The Road Rage review is fantastic, and the next video will be too! It just takes as long as it takes. Long gaps between uploads may seem inconsistent to you, but one thing I can always count on is that SEJ content is CONSISTENTLY QUALITY CONTENT. We recognize the talent and effort you put in to the channel, and that's way more important than an upload schedule. Stay strong man, and have a great fucking day.

SquareEyedJak

Thanks mate, you make a strong point about my perception of consistency. Think I needed reminding of that. Cheers! 💜