What the FUCK is Happening??? (Update) (Patreon)

G'day mates, welcome back! I'll open with a huge apology for the radio silence lately. My excuse is simply wanting to wait for all the shit in my life to be sorted out before posting any kind of update, given everything was twisting and turning around me at such a rapid pace. Even I've had trouble keeping up. Will probably take me a little bit of time to re-adjust but I'm hoping to get the regular update blogs back up and running here now that I sort of know where I am. Maybe not weekly yet... but more frequent than every 6 weeks or whatever.

This is gonna be a huge info dump but I'll try to keep it as concise as possible. If you have additional questions afterwards, please don't be shy! 🙂

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Where the FUCK have I been?) It shouldn't be news at this point that I've had an absolute cunt of a year up until this point. Moving back home, unable to secure a new rental, mental health and whatnot. Well everything blew up in my face about a month ago in August.
Without airing too much personal laundry, I'm not shy to point out that where I was living back home quickly turned into a toxic environment almost as soon as I moved back. In fact, it was significantly worse than when I left due to the fact that I felt like I was going backwards. Going back created more hostility and ultimately, I lived there a good 4 months too long unfortunately.

It reached a point of legal proceedings and police involvement, which despite me being on the receiving end of homophobic death threats which ultimately led to NO OUTCOME... so I was simply left no choice but to move out!

What the FUCK does that mean?) It means I'm officially couch surfing full time! Between sleeping on my Mum's couch and travelling to visit my boyfriend on the other side of the state and staying with a few friends, it is my ONLY option for the foreseeable future unfortunately. I'm still struggling securing a home, Covid has royally fucked the entire market here. I'm in one of the safest places in the entire world so people from other places are buying up real estate to say "I have a home address in this safe place so therefore, you have to let me travel away from my danger zone to where it's safe" which is FUCKED! I'm waiting on a few different solutions currently, I may have some options in the near future in regards to housing, but it's all just one big waiting game currently. So in the meantime... I'm just drifting around I guess.

What's the GOOD fucking news?) GOOD NEWS is that despite not being able to stay on my mothers couch for extended periods of time simply due to circumstances and logistics given it's a very small little place. The good news is that I have my equipment setup: my computer, my game capture gear and all my filming kit... which means that content production WILL CONTINUE to the best of my ability!
It's not ideal of course but we can make it work for the time being until shit figures itself out. So yes... expect to see Hawktober 2021 dropping very soon along with hopefully some more videos to follow! I can't guarantee you'll see a higher upload frequency or anything, videos will most likely still be quite sparse but hey, the fact I can still be productive is a HUGE win for all of us!

I mentioned it a few months back but I always felt that as long as I was still working on producing videos for you guys, that I was justified in keeping the Patreon up and running which is what I've done. Despite all the shit I've been going through behind the scenes, I have still been using my every waking moment to work on videos even if uploads may not show that too well. Now as long as I can keep up a little momentum, I'll also be able to start offering up promised Patreon rewards consistently as well.

How the FUCK am I still standing?) The family I have left who support me fully, my loyal caring friends and my amazing boyfriend who has helped me to maintain sanity throughout this entire process. I have some healing and a lot of mental stuff to figure out now that I've escaped that toxic environment again but right now... I'm probably in the best place I've been since losing my apartment back in April. So no sympathy please, I'm just a man. A man doing a lot better, taking it one day at a time! 😊

Now let's talk about Hawk-FUCKING-tober!) The week special is going to be smaller this year by design. This was the plan I made in 2020 so it's unrelated to everything I've had going on this year just to be clear.

• You can expect to see 4 videos!
• 2 of those are FULLY FILMED and ready to be edited!
• I will have everything mostly completed by the end of this month based on how I'm currently handling the work load.

I'm very excited to have projects in the works, I've also made plans for a review following Hawktober that I can film on location where I'm currently staying. That is one I've wanted to make for a very long time now so I can't wait to begin production.

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Closing Thoughts) so tl;dr: I have moved house again and life has been fucking mental... but the bottom line is that I am in a much better place now so I'm going to take advantage of that by working hard, like always!
Thank you all SO SO much for staying committed to supporting the channel and ultimately myself during this year. Hopefully soon enough we'll be back on a winning streak again once I can secure a new place to live hopefully by the New Year is what I'm aiming for.

Anyway, thanks for reading and I hope you guys have a great fucking day. Cheers!
Mad love people! 💜