Post Hawktober Sickness (Blog) (Patreon)

G'day people, I hope everyone is doing well this month of November. I'd like to give everyone a quick update about what's been going on with myself and the channel since Hawktober aired a few weeks ago.

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Annual Nose Dive) History has proven that once Hawktober is completed, my work ethic and motivation takes a bit of a hit. It's a lot of work to get the special completed and in years where I've been more on top of life, I've managed to prep for that effectively. However this year much like in 2020, it just hit me like a brick wall. Pure lack of motivation for creativity. I have had some ideas floating around, quite a few in fact but just nothing that leapt out at me to get me hooked on a project just yet. The few plans I've had have also been kinda snuffed out by new ideas or a lack of interest for whatever reason. So to be completely honest with you... I have no fucking clue what I'm doing now.

Down With the Sickness) Unfortunately about two weeks ago, I fell ill with a cold/flu/chest infection, I'm still not entirely sure. But it's legit the most sick I've ever been in my life. Just couldn't seem to shake the damn thing. Despite no active cases where I live, I still went for a Covid test just to ease my anxiety and that of course, came back negative so it wasn't that. But I was coughing and I could barely breathe, my sinuses were so stuffed and all of this played on my mental health resulting in a handful of my seizures on top of that... which certainly didn't help at all. It's a damn shame because I feel like I've lost 2 weeks for absolutely no reason. I got sick right before I was supposed to go visit my partner on the other side of the state and spend two weeks with them so only now that I'm feeling better, is that going to take up the majority of November for me. What that means for videos... well I don't really know.

Video Plans) I'd like one more review episode up this year but at this point I just don't see where I'm gonna have time to get it done. With November filled up mostly with my actual time off, I'll only get a solid 2 weeks at the start of December to really work before life is just far too busy to focus on work. So I'm going to at the very least get another Game Testing episode up before the year is over because I've received some mail recently. As for all of my review ideas, I'm thinking it might just be best for me to focus on prep work for those heading into 2022 and try to get ahead.

I'm incredibly sorry that this year has just been such a fucking disaster on the channel and I plan to address that with some kind of update before the year is up. I also plan on doing a final Podcast/Q&A for Patrons before the year is over so stay tuned for more info on that!

Internet Dramas) My final issue just holding me back from functioning the way I normally would is a sheer lack of internet. Where I'm currently staying, we have been waiting 6 WEEKS for it to be connected, it was supposed to be done last week but now we've still got at least another 10-14 days to wait. So that's why I'm still going ahead with my holiday plans just to fill the void in my life until that's completed because without net... I've been really struggling to be productive or finding the motivation for anything really. All aspects of my life just revolve around needing net in some way so it's understatement to say that I've not really been myself without it.

Other Life Stuff) I can't recall if I've mentioned this previously but I'm a few steps closer to getting a new house. It's really just waiting around for various things to be processed but at this stage, early 2022 is looking good on that hopefully! 🤞 I'm also currently awaiting some medication and final diagnosis on my seizure condition which will really help me get on top of that. Once all of that is finalized... I do actually really want to just do a doco flick about all of it: tell my story, provide a strong education on the topic and put myself out there a bit just to show what living with a condition like this is really like, in the hopes that maybe anyone else who is struggling can find some helpful information. Mental health education is a subject that I'm really passionate about so if I can contribute to that in a positive way, then my suffering with this condition will be worth it I guess.

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Closing Thoughts) so tl;dr: life is still a fucking mess... honestly what's new?

No idea what you can expect for videos the rest of 2021 but I do plan to work every chance I can get now that I'm feeling healthy again. I've got lots of things brewing in my mind and once the pieces of life start to come together for me again, then we'll surely get on top of it and look forward to a better year ahead of us all.

Thank you all for the incredible patience and support as always, it is very much appreciated! Hawktober BTS posts will be written and posted now that I'm able too again, so look forward to those very soon. Until next time people, I hope you all have a great fucking day. Cheers guys! 😄