Where have I been...? (Patreon)

Hello guys.

Four years is a long long time. My need to leave and pursue other things, I have my reasons of course. But I also accept the consequences of that.

Consequences mean accepting that people will lose interest, people will feel anger or resentment because of how I just disappeared.

I don't want to make excuses for it, and want to say that if you do feel this way, it is valid.

Will I lose most of my followers because of my hiatus? If the answer is yes, it is for me to accept and carry. I believe that I have no right to feel entitled or righteous. I want to be accountable for the choices I've made.

I finally pursued a different career, but that doesn't mean my love for anime, music, and sharing has disappeared.

I can now afford to not focus on views, subs, algorithm... I've come to hate how YouTube has developed. It's now about how to gain as much views by gaming the algorithm, thumbnails, title, content...

I definitely understand that this is reality, I completely understand and accept that. I do not reject it because that would be delusional. But of course, I wanted to have the choice to be able to be free from that, and I think I've done that.

I'll only now play, arrange, transcribe, and upload things that truly matter to me. I wish to only upload when I truly feel connected to the music, and that I want to share with you all. I want to focus on shared experiences where you guys and I can relive emotions.

I always prefer a win-win, rather than get swept by the "zero sum" of our culture today. I always think, "can the other person benefit too, and not just me?"

I'll be uploading something soon, and I hope that it can reignite some of the lost experiences we've had from these past years.