Ughhh I hate listening to my own ASMR while editing (Patreon)

Like did I breathe too harshly there? Was that mouth sound too gross/loud/quiet/harsh/suggestive? Are sounds being picked up as audibly with the new mic as they were with the old? Or are they too loud? Am I falling into repetitive habits with the triggers I use, making my videos less effective than before? Have I lost my touch? Does any of this actually sound good? Should I scrap the whole thing??