Dear friends (Patreon)

Dear friends. I want to start be apologizing for not posting everything on the schedule this week. I had every intention of doing it but my mom's situation forced me to stay by her side.My mom is not a healthy person, there's a lot going on with her that I never shared with anyone because it's hard to do it. But what I can share right now is the terrible panic attack she suffered yesterday and again today.She has suffered from depression since my grandfather died many years ago and this is the first time something like this happened. At the moment it happened I was by myself with Josh, I had to call my brother to get out of work so he can help me out, Josh also had a breakdown because of it and I didn't know what to do at that moment. The ambulance took for ever to arrive but she got better once we got to the hospital and was able to come home.Today we went to get an appointment for her psychiatrist but before we got there she got another panic attack and we couldn't make it. So I hope by tomorrow she can get the proper care she needs.Mental illness it's so hard and devastating. Seeing my mom paralyze in fear was a terrible thing. And I hope she gets better once she is on a better medication and therapy.Thank you so much for your kind messages. They mean everything to me right now. I feel mentally exhausted right now. Not been able to cry because I don't want to upset my mom or Josh is hurting me so much right now but I feel like if I break everything would be even worst.I will do my best to record some reactions but I just don't have the energy to do it right now. Please forgive me for not been strong enough and not give you guys what I promise but I feel numb right now and I don't think I could make a good reaction.I'm sorry for writing all this here, I don't have friends who I would trust with anything without feeling judge but you guys always listen and never judge so I hope this doesn't upset anyone. If it does I apologise.Thank you for reading. I will be back don't worry about that, maybe I'll feel better tomorrow.Love you all! 😘