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Update! Sorry for this long post tho 😭 (Patreon)

Published:
2018-10-21 06:36:22
Imported:
2026-06

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Hi guys! Sorry for been MIA all day. My mom had a doctor's appointment today and I had to go with her. Thankfully the psychiatrist is very happy with her progress, and everything is slowly getting back to normal. I'm happy about it because I knew my mom was strong and with our support she is getting better.

Thank you all for your best wishes. I read all the comments on the previous post and decided to listen to all of you and just relax. I for some reason can't sleep the entire night and I wake up several times during the night and the next day I'm tire AF! And with terrible headaches that just seem to not stop!


I hate taking pills but I think I need them bc I just can't sleep normally, and when I wake up I'm more tired than before.

I think I need to actually go and see a doctor because this is getting worse. I can't even take a nap because my brain keeps working and I keep thinking and I don't sleep.


Anyways, I hope I can sleep better tonight. Right now is 1:30am and even though I am tired my brain just won't shut up.


Well, the reason for this post is to let you guys know that tomorrow afternoon I will post the Captain America: Civil War reaction and that will be it. I just can't think beyond that right now. Maybe that's why I am so stressed out. Who knows.


On top of that, I will edit HTGAWM 504. And in a few minutes I will post the UNCUT version for that episode and I will also post the AOS S4 Blooper reaction I did yesterday.


I really hope you guys understand and I apologise deeply for this. You guys know I hate missing uploads but I have no energy to do more right now. Please forgive me but taking care of Joshua's needs, my mom's problems and also been her rock without me having any other emotional support it's too much for me but there's nothing I can do to change that, I'm the one who stays at home and I need to take care of both. I do it gladly, don't get me wrong, but maybe that's also affecting me. IDK.


Sorry for dumping all of this here, sometimes this is the only place for me to rant and I am really sorry I can't give you more.


Maybe next week I should take it slow and not post too much until I feel like I have the energy to do more.


Also, Pilot request shows will take priority for me next week and I will plan them better from now on.


Anyways guys, sorry for this inconvenience. But reacting right now will suck, not only for me because I will force myself and won't have fun while watching my shows, but also for you guys bc the reactions will suck since I won't be myself while doing them rn. And this is supposed to be fun for all of us.


Thank you to everyone who will understand, if someone feels like I am making excuses or I'm lazy, I'm deeply sorry for that but I rather tell you guys the truth than pretend that I'm ok when I'm not.


Thank you for all! I love you guys so much! 😘😘😘

Comments

Dominique Eugene

I hope you get way and take care of yourself😘 I suggest you don’t do any reactions until you get better. It would suck if you do reactions and you don’t enjoy it because then we won’t enjoy them. Everyone here on Paetron supports you and we will understand if you need to take some time to get better mentally and psychically.

JuliDG
>>16483947

Thank you! I hate letting you guys down. I feel like crap for not posting 😭

Dan Guisinger

Take your time, I don’t think we are that demanding of a group. Your health and family comes first.

Ritchie

Of course taking care of others takes a toll on people, so please don't feel ashamed that you need to look out for yourself. If this has been an ongoing thing then a doctor's visit sounds like it will really benefit you. Truly hope that you feel better soon because you deserve to be happy and healthy. You are a strong, amazing person--do not forget that and do not feel like you are letting others down. You need to come first, too.

Brian Jones

You should hold off on reactions until you’re fully rested and ready. We love your reactions but part of the enjoyment is knowing your enjoying them too. You can’t do that if your exhausted. Take care of your family and yourself first. We can wait. I’m glad to hear your Mom is doing better! 😌

Just Jamie

Drink some chamomile tea it will help you sleep and be relaxed. Take a week off, we will be here waiting

MrGreg89

Juli, lazy is the last word I'd ever use to describe you. Taking care of your mom the way you do, while raising a child at the same time, that's not lazy, that's amazing, you are amazing.

JuliDG
>>16483963

Ik you guys will understand and that's why I don't want to force myself to do more but I also want to let you guys know what's happening. Thank you for your kind support!

JuliDG
>>16483971

Thank you Ritchie. It really does take a toll on you and I am normally not good at taking care at myself, I can be good to others but I don't treat myself good or prioritize anything that has to do with me. Thank you for been so kind and understanding 😘

JuliDG
>>16484054

Yes Brian, she is doing a lot better and that gives me some peace. And you are absolutely right, If I don't enjoy the reaction or try to force it you guys will be able to tell and it will suck. I have so much fun reacting and interacting with all of you but rn I need to breath for a little while. Thank you for understanding. You are too kind 😘

JuliDG
>>16484102

Thank you Jamie. I will try that too. But will ppl don't think a week it's too much? I honestly do think I need something like that to fully charge my batteries again but I'm too afraid to do it. I will hate to let you guys down.

JuliDG
>>16484131

Wow. Thank you so much. I sometimes feel like such a failure bc I can't post more and your words just made my night. Thank you for been so kind and understanding 😘

Calculatus Eliminatus

Hi Juli. Having your sleep disrupted is very hard to deal with. You have such a strong sense of responsibility and desire to take care of your family. Of course, that includes your son and your mom but you also extend that to include your patreon family. My daughter went through a similar issue with her sleep. Unable to get her mind to shut down, headaches from not sleeping, feeling beaten down and like you are stuck in the mud. The first thing you have to know is that you are NOT letting us down or in any way disappointing us. We support you because we enjoy you, we like you. You are right that you need to take a break from the responsibilities you feel. You deliver more content in a couple days than many of the reactors who have many more people and you do it all on your own. You're a rock star, you are amazing, Second, please don't hesitate to get a bit a help in getting your sleep and rest schedule back on track. While a sleeping pill will help you get started, the big progress will come when you actually get some rest. What we found was that the lack of sleep and the feelings of responsibility caused her to get stuck in a loop. The lack of sleep affects brain chemistry, which then gets you stuck thinking and your mind always racing, which stops you from sleeping, which makes your mind race, .... It's like being stuck in the Framework. Instead of worrying about what you aren't doing or how much you need to do or who needs what from you, try to remember that you have a community of people from around the world that care about you. You give us happiness and joy but there is not one of us who want you to being unhealthy about it. We care, we want YOU happy too. Happy Juli is what makes us happy. If you played football (as an american I wanted to write soccer) and you had a sprained ankle, no one would question why you weren't playing. We would want you to take care of it and get better. You brain is just like any other part of you. Sometimes it gets sprained. And how would you treat a sprained ankle? Stay off of it, rest and protect it. Do that for your brain, do that for us, do that for your mom and most important for your son.

Anonymous

Juli, i don't want to alarm you but it seems you are very close to your breaking point and no one wants that. So, you either get help(an editor) immediately to cut down your work load or you need to take a serious step back and have a full week or more with no reactions at all. And i mean you not reacting to anything not just not editing and posting. Seriously, you need to look at this as a breaking point, sleep deprivation is no joke.

Marie

Juli, you are anything but lazy. You work so hard you've earned yourself a break. You don't have to worry about us, what's most important is you taking care of yourself, we can and will wait for you to get better.

Aaron Thorpe

Sending out good vibes and best wishes for you and your family, Juli. Everyone here is right, taking care of yourself, and them, is the most important thing. We can wait. Don’t burn yourself out. Don’t push too hard. Take the time you need and I hope you get better soon. Sleeping troubles are the worst - I’ve been there myself.

Bria Bey

Juli, I wish you would give yourself a break. You are the best reactor that I watch and you also are the fastest. You put more effort into uploading multiple videos on multiple shows than anyone else I watch. If anyone says your lazy they are either blind to how much you post or ignorant to the fact of how long it takes to edit and post videos. I know when I'm not feeling well, I don't feel like doing anything, so I wouldn't want you to expect your audience to want to force you to put out reactions. I'm glad to hear your mom is doing better. As always most of us inderstand family comes first and we have no problem if you need to delay reactions because of it. I hope soon you will be able to find a way to get more sleep because I know when I don't get my sleep I become sluggish and cranky.

Bria Bey

Juli, I wish you would give yourself a break. You are the best reactor that I watch and you also are the fastest. You put more effort into uploading multiple videos on multiple shows than anyone else I watch. If anyone says your lazy they are either blind to how much you post or ignorant to the fact of how long it takes to edit and post videos. I know when I'm not feeling well, I don't feel like doing anything, so I wouldn't want you to expect your audience to want to force you to put out reactions. I'm glad to hear your mom is doing better. As always most of us inderstand family comes first and we have no problem if you need to delay reactions because of it. I hope soon you will be able to find a way to get more sleep because I know when I don't get my sleep I become sluggish and cranky.

Christopher simeon

Juli maybe Adjust your schedule so that you have one day maybe just for relaxing. Just like with any job you have to have down time so that you’re not too stressed out. We love you and your reactions but would rather have less reactions and you at 100% then you struggling to get through the day just for us.

WillAlwaysLoveClark

Julie you do more than these people out there that don't have half the responsibilities you have....I have a few that only go to school and can't do what you do!!! Give yourself a break lady!!!!

Kenny

You're the best Juli. Your Shameless reactions make my week and we all appreciate the effort and hard work you put into it. Thank you! And take care of yourself!

Rob Flynn

Juli, we all have to take care of ourselves. A week sounds good. I, like you, have trouble staying asleep at night... waking up all the time. Mine ended up being sleep apnea related, but I also just have trouble with the racing thoughts keeping me up. Anyway, my point is, I did not take some down time/relaxation time for myself and sort of had a bit of a breakdown and totally separated from everyone. I just kind of locked myself up in my house and barely did anything -- It took every bit of energy I had to even go to work and I love my job. My mental health went next and I ended up spiraling into a depression/anxiety thing that lasted for several months and I'm only just now climbing out of that hell and I don't want to see you go through the same thing. We love you and your reactions and we all look forward to them, but taking care of yourself should be the #1 priority. There's only one of you. I bet every single one of us here would agree. Disclaimer: I just woke up a few minutes ago and my eyesight is still a little blurry, so I hope this makes sense. lol

Bridget b

I know how it can be, I have a lot of trouble sleeping too. I also know how important family is so you do whatever you need to do. We will still be here when you come back 💗💗