There’s always someone behind the scenes (Patreon)
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I think the more we stay on social media, the less we realize there’s a person behind the content that is posted.
I’ve been dealing with a lot this week in my personal life. Feeling invalidated by my own family and friends. Reaching out for help was the right move but in the process of doing that I thought it was a good idea to log onto my YouTube account and read some of my latest comments and all I saw was ppl calling me disgusting for shipping a non canon ship! Saying that bc of ppl like me the LGBT+ community can’t have good representation. So basically invalidating my feelings once again!
It’s annoying! I am up for a conversation! I enjoy ppl who disagree with me I have the best conversations when that happens bc it allows me to see outside of my POV and really understand what others might think!
I can’t tell you how many times I have chatted with my friend Maria and we sometimes disagree completely about characters or shows or situations and we can go on for hours just trying to see each other’s POV but always been respectful and not trying to just change each other’s perspective but rather take something from our POV!
Those are the types of conversations I like! Those are the conversations I have with a lot of you here as well! And all of it it’s based on respect!
That’s all I ask! But no, today Twitter decided once again that I am not allowed to think differently. I’m not cool bc I don’t follow what everyone else does. Twitter and that fandom has a beloved character and I happen to like the character they hate the most! So… I’ve been called disgusting! That I over sexualize characters! It was honestly a lot!
BUT I might not know yet how to make myself believe that I am worthy on respect in my personal life but YouTube and social media is suppose to be a safe space for me! So I’m not going to allow them to take that from me! Maybe this is a first step!
I don’t feel 100% like myself yet. This past few days have helped a lot. And I even think this awful moment on Twitter has helped me as well! I need to stop feeling like I am not worthy of respect for my opinions! Specially when I am not hurting anyone for shipping a couple of a tv show!
My voice matter. My opinion matters. This is my safe space! I’m not going to censor myself in order to make them like me! I’m not going to say a nice thing about a character when I don’t like them! I’m not going to try to please everyone bc that’s literally impossible! I just have to be me and Ik most of you who are here joined this place bc of that! Bc I am who I am! You guys saw something that made you support me both on Yotutube and Patreon. So I have to honor that!
With all my flaws and my annoying voice! My screams! My OCD! My awful jokes and everything else... This is me! ❤️