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the brief backstory of raocow (Patreon)

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WARNING

as with all things I tend to do, this somewhat more serious video is completely unscripted, and so I kinda veered where I... guess I wasn't prepared for. I wouldn't call it a 'sadcow' warning, but, uhm, it's something.


it's funny though because it feels like I left out so much, too.


thank you for indulging me.

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the brief backstory of raocow

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PizzaPony

Yah, you didn't make it quite clear that there would be no questions. I understood it as the 1st half would be the backstory, and the 2nd would be our questions. But I guess it is hard to fit a life into 30-ish minutes.

Mibz

(Please ignore the previous set of questions there was a BIG misunderstanding. It was in all the papers.) Dear raocow, now back to our regularly scheduled programming. men who ride youtube.com/watch?v=XgfDFzvAA_M 1. A hypothetical wizard is perhaps the most powerful of powerful wizards. By drawing energy from the hypothetical realms like the imaginary violence between Goku and Superman you can accomplish anything. But there is a catch! The more hypothetical power you draw in, the more hypothetical you become and that's it! But anyway, if you had hypothetical power, how much would you use it, and what would you do with it? 2. What do you imagine is the goofiest musical instrument? I've narrowed this down slightly, and this is just my opinion and all, but I believe that the kazoo, vuvuzela, triangle and banjo are prime candidates for the goof king. 3. What is your favourite die? 4. Are you in danger of going bald, and do you fear such a fate? 5. A powerful wizard appears and asks you for a cool name for his new band or else you will surely get menaced upon. What are going to do? 6. Is there anything you do in video games that you do if you're playing the game purely for yourself that you wouldn't do if your intentions were to make an internet video using the footage? 7. What's the word of the day?

That Guy If

To Meatball Rider and Pizza Pony: This video was published approximately a half-hour ago. It's over an hour long. Really guys? Really?

Wymar Sane
>>1467353

Ah, the Heavenly Keep. Home to insta-kill plants, homing missiles, the "screw you I can kill you even if I double your attack strength" Juggernaut, bats that summon postgame FOEs (Do they still do that in the remake I never left them alive for long enough to find out), and of course the monster-creating mad scientist Overlord. Fun place.

Anonymous

Don't normally type out stuff, cause the internet is a weird place, but this hit me a bit. Dude, you're like my French Canadian clone. The description of your friend groups and schooling was spot on mine. Kinda creepy almost. Only difference, I suppose, is I'm a couple years older, did engineering vice fine arts (I liked building vs. drawing), and I joined the military instead of freelancing after college. I feel ya on the inability to maintain friendships...I just cannot. I always get along well with folks, but when whatever the focussing activity fades away (whether work, school, whatever) no longer exists they rather rapidly fade to nothing. It's a bummer, but I've just had to file it under 'tis what it is'. There's a ton of research out there on male's difficulty in establishing and maintaining meaningful long-term platonic bonds if you're bored. Since I'm also an armchair psych guy (was one of my majors before I settled, again creepy, heh) I found it fascinating though not particularly helpful. Feel free to hit me up if you want to chat, and always thanks for the years of work and the joy it's brought me...it is fully and truly appreciated.

Anonymous

How are you feeling now, after recording this? It takes so much courage to speak out loud about raw feelings close to your heart. The magic of what you've done today, which is in essence a form of talking therapy, is that you may have learned new things about yourself and about how you really feel about the past. Some ideas you had about yourself might now be re-evaluated, while others might be understood with more clarity. Regarding friendships that come and go, I think it's a part of the bittersweet adventure of life. There were people who were very important to me in primary and secondary school that I've lost touch with. And for my closest friends and colleagues from university, I'd be lucky to see some of them once or twice a year. There were people I tried to cling onto when life took us separate ways, and others who I let go of without much emotion, in spite of a close friendship. I've learned that what's important is to appreciate what you have right now, in this moment, and make memories to cherish. Self esteem issues are hard to overcome alone, and don't go away overnight. Low self esteem usually means that we do our best to hide as much of ourselves away as possible so we aren't judged and hurt (like leading a hermit lifestyle because of appearance, or being quiet for fear of sounding stupid to one's peers). But consider this: you decided to publicly display your personality for all to see, to air your random thoughts and feelings about things in your videos, and the response to that has been overwhelmingly positive, to the point that people support you financially so you can continue to share your personality full-time, and others even get together to send you Christmas and birthday presents, with thank you letters. I think that says that your low self esteem might be a little unwarranted, haha! So yeah, try to appreciate yourself more, you're an alright dude! So again, my question is, how do you feel now, after this retrospection of yourself? *insert funny sound effect here to loosen the serious nature of this post*

PizzaPony
>>1467343

raocow explained in the first few minutes how the video was actually going to, thus I just wanted to make that small note.

Bellmoore

Hei raocow! That was an interesting peek into your inner workings and I must say that there were suprisingly many things I could relate with. As someone who is very uneasy with sharing personal details of my life and generally socially awkward, I find this kind of opening up amazing. No new questions, if last week's stuff will be handled next time and I've never been very good with with the "If you have any questions..." line (this also applies to everyone I've ever been to school with). If you feel you have more to say, go for it.

BobisOnlyBob

You are shaped like a friend. This is a fundamental fact. Connecting to other consciousnesses housed in meat is fleeting and difficult. I believe I share your feelings on this matter. I wish you the best of luck and will always be here, listening and watching, supporting and hoping for the best for you - you have brought great positivity into my life most every single day. My monetary patronage is unfortunately quite a base return for such positivity; I hope you are able to turn our support for you into things and friendships that fulfill and delight you. beep boop I'm a robot Simple question for you - how is your controller holding up? You cursed at it a week or two ago in VIP2, has it been troublesome since or were you just blaming your Immense Skill At Platformers on it?

Fusion Warrior

Thank you . Thank you for sharing. You aren't alone, similarities, differences, thank you for sharing it all. You are also welcome. I promise I'll be here for the ride as long as I'm still around, and for as long as you decide to do this. Hopefully a long time. I know I'm relatively new, and often disappear for a while, but you got a fan in me. Happy birthday, Samuel.

Anonymous

I know you don't feel like you're very special or unique, raocow, but you really do mean a lot to the people you've interacted with in your life. You've helped shape everyone you've ever known, and they've helped shape who you are now. And you mean a lot to thousands of people all around the world, which is something amazing that not many people can say. I really appreciate you telling a bit of your story to us. So don't be too down on yourself, or your past, or how you've turned out, or how you're going to be in the future. I guess this is just a bunch of mushy sentiments, but it's true. Even if you're modest about your life and your content, you'll still always be my favorite famous internet guy.

Willhart

You are important.

PizzaPony

I wrote up alittle something for you, raocow, and anyone else to read if they want. Don't include this in next video. But do read it. <a href="https://docs.google.com/document/d/1WSr-gXsBpBJm9ZoYGocwakxWr9MkrtoN8pAOg4TcICY/edit?usp=sharing" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">https://docs.google.com/document/d/1WSr-gXsBpBJm9ZoYGocwakxWr9MkrtoN8pAOg4TcICY/edit?usp=sharing</a> (included is a talk about what raocow said this video, and my little 'backstory', if someone want to hear about some rando's life. I encourage others the write one too.)

Lomion Jones

This isn't really a 'read out on the video' comment I don't thnk, just fyi. I had no idea you studied psychology! Have you ever learned about EMDR? <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eye_movement_desensitization_and_reprocessing" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eye_movement_desensitization_and_reprocessing</a> It's something that I learned about through an anime, of all things, but it's sheds some very interesting light on trauma and how our brains handle it, so it was the first thing I thought of when you were talking about the subject. Anyway, I've met a number of people who have done it, and even tried it myself. I guess my brain problems weren't trauma-related enough to really benefit from it, though. But it's a fascinating subject. Thanks again for all you do, and for this latest video.

Mikkofier

Every ride has its high and low points. Keep being you, because that's why you're important! It's why we watch/listen to you, why we've stayed and why we are now paying you. Never become “just another let's player”, because there's plenty of those already, but there's just one raocow. Accept no substitutes! I think my serious-time questions from the previous week serve the ”any questions?” part, so let's return to silly times! Sorry about getting your birthday wrong by a day, by the way. MUSIC IS HERE AGAIN: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHQmDqlv5Rc" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHQmDqlv5Rc</a> QUESTIONS THAT ARE DUMB: 1) What video game would be most nutritious? 2) What planet would you name your town after? 3) Oh hey, it's a new month! Have you read any good books lately? ;) 4) What would need to happen in order for you to eat cheese? 5) Have you considered taking part in a game of Mafia on the forum? 6) A powerful hive mind offers you a belated birthday present: The power of astral projection. How do you use this power? ART REQUEST IS HERE TOO: A giant turtle with a small nuclear reactor on its back. FOREIGN WORDS THAT ARE UNINTENTIONALLY FUNNY IN FINNISH: The Japanese writing system Kana (chicken) and the dice game baccarat (pakarat = buttocks). I am a very clever person.

Anonymous

Hey there, raocow. You won't recognise me because I hardly ever comment on stuff on the internet (incidentally due to social anxiety and avoidance), but I've been watching your videos for several years now. Funny thing is, I'm one of those people who can say that your videos have helped them through difficult times: when I discovered them I was getting my ass kicked by mental illness and there were moments when your LPs were the only thing that made me feel a little less horrible. I was also devastatingly lonely back then, so much that it made me want to scream, having recently realised my utter inability to keep friendships going and watching more and more relationships with others fall to pieces and being unable to do anything about it. Things are better now. Far from ideal, sure, but better. I'm in this weird, very 2016 situation where all my closest friends are people I know through the internet, and sometimes it feels a little too much like just screaming into the void, but friendship is friendship, and it's rewarding even if you can't hang out physically in the same space. Some people begrudge us millennials for always looking at screens instead of having what they believe to be real human contact, but without those screens I probably still wouldn't have a single person I can call my friend. So what changed? Part of it was meeting the right people, sure, and that's not something you can really arrange; but perhaps more importantly, I changed. Therapy helped a little — it's not for everyone, but it helped me understand much more about myself and my relationships with others. I also understood and redefined what I wanted my friendships to be; I needed to separate what I actually wanted from what I was expected to want, if that makes sense. I still miss some friends I've lost contact with, and I still feel lonely sometimes, but I have people in my life I love and trust and who I feel understand me. A few of them watch your videos, too. I don't think any of us really comment on them or are active on the Talkhaus, but they still bring a little joy into our lives. Well, this is getting long and I have no idea whether it's going to be helpful in any way or even interesting to read, but here it is. I know sometimes it can mean a lot to know you're not the only one who feels a certain way. Either way, thank you for sharing all of this, and thank you for all these years of being a video game playing man on the internet. You've touched more people's lives than you probably realise, and your work is very important to me and to many others. Perhaps you'll enjoy looking at this adorable octopus: <a href="http://6abc.com/science/scientists-possible-new-octopus-species-found-near-hawaii/1232478/" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">http://6abc.com/science/scientists-possible-new-octopus-species-found-near-hawaii/1232478/</a>

Anonymous

It is my fervant belief that every single person has the right to share their story and that others should respect that right and listen with respect. I, too, have many similar experiences with things you described in your own life. Seriously, the parallels are impeccable. Of course there are some differences, I actually went through with the teaching thing being a huge one I think, the similarities are huge and striking. You're just barely under 3 years older than me, so we basically grew up in a similar world, although I didn't move around so much, our interests were much the same it appears. Anyway, I don't mean to go on so long here, but just please know that there are those of your fans that appreciate and respect you for more than what you do on YouTube and stuff. Maybe this is my own vanity or just wishing, but I sincerely think that had we met growing up we would have become good friends. Anyway, I am incredibly grateful for the hours of joy you have bestowed upon me, and no words nor monatary return can ever begin to repay to you what you have given to me. I know you don't really know me, and that you feel uncomfortable around people, but just know that if you ever DID want to talk about anything I'm more than willing to listen or to give feedback from my perspective. Sure, I know I say a lot of silly random crap in my questions here, but I know when and how to be serious as well. Here's hoping you have the most glorious of days and weeks and months and years to come! :D

Allen Leland

It is incredibly moving and touching to hear more about your lives tale-- your content has been a part of a major chunk of my life, and I think because I’ve listened to your commentary for so long, my brain has a really easy time, sort of, picking up on your manner of explaining things and as such, I am amazed by how you are able to both recount a chunk of your life, all the while identifying themes patterns and influences throughout the course of your conscious existence. I really enjoyed hearing your voyage into yourself~! In kind of a tangent to that; Do you ever talk about those sorts of, self-reflectionary connections and influences to people in person? Do you feel it is easier to speak of them alone to a microphone?

Anonymous

Thanks for make, raocow. I don't watch every patapon video but the title for this one caught my eye and I was not disappointed. Like many of your other fans I can relate with you on a lot of this stuff. That said, what makes a person unique is a complicated combination of traits and experiences. Maybe not everything about you is unique, but the sum of the whole absolutely is, and I think that's a huge part of why you have such a strong, caring community. As for the thing with moving on from groups of people, that's unfortunately another thing I can relate with. I wouldn't say it's a totally bad thing, though. People grow and move on, and that doesn't cheapen the experiences you already have. Beyond that, it's okay to directly relate and connect with smaller numbers of people. You just gotta make those relationships count, and know that there's several billion more people that you've never met, each one having the potential for that kind of connection. You said you feel like you left out a lot. I think we're totally willing to keep listening if you ever decide to do another one of these.

Mibz
>>1467313

In case my hyperspeed question submission offended anyone, I should mention that I am a very finicky person. As I live in a particular time zone, the paté vid will usually arrive before I must retire to bed and normally I feel compelled to seek out the responses to my questions and then reply before I can rest. Without going into detail (partially because I'm not a good storyteller), I don't like getting close to people and I've rarely had more than a few friends at any one time, so I can relate to this. I find there is a certain bravery in opening up, and thus you have my respect.

Anonymous

This resonated pretty hard with me. Thanks for everything you do raocow!

S1nZ

Hey there raocow, thanks for sharing that.... *hugs* Music link: youtube.com/watch?v=e-eensMhO_k A bit of a solemn one today. The part about the studying thing, i think i'm somewhat the same, not wanting to actually do homework but still interested in studying. However, i wasn't an A student like you, and got in trouble a lot, coupled with the bullying, which, i heard from my mom, lead to my attempted suicide, in primary school, no less... Then later in tertiary education i couldn't do the projects give properly due to my lack of organisational skills... I don't mind that you decided to share this with us, must have been hard letting some of that off your chest, but it makes you more relatable, not just a voice in a video. In any case, you can start from here if you don't want to read the upper part. I don't mind either way. Question: If say you found out one of your old friends watches your stuff, how would you feel?

Anonymous

Looks like you've got a lot of textwalls to read so I'll keep this relatively brief. I understand where you're coming from, and most of your Patreon subscribers probably do, too. I suffer from terrible social anxiety - there's like maybe 5 people I can talk to without feeling varies degrees of hesitation. I flinch at the very thought of someone rejecting a contact request, and can break down and get depressed if someone who I think I have a connection with ignores me. Our problems are probably different, but it all comes down to the same thing - other people are pretty damn scary and sometimes it's easier to just be by yourself. As far as receiving this content goes, this was leagues more interesting than an average Patreon video. I'm sure I'm not only speaking for myself when I say that I'm very thankful that you opened up to us. There was nothing conceited about it. It's especially difficult to make friends as you grow older, but a part of me wishes (and again, I'm sure others feel this way, too) that we had grown up together and become friends. If you ever have a hard time believing in yourself, look to your supporters and remember our genuine interest and affection for you (and then try to twist that so it's not creepy). We'll do the believing for you. Thanks for being great. I'll continue to support you. Oh, and happy birthday! (oops that wasn't brief at all)

AsbyEternal

I don't want to go for a massive ramble about myself here, because I know me, haha, and I know I'd go on forever and I don't want to make a gigantic post all about me because I'll never get anything else done all day, so I'll keep this as brief as I am able. There's a lot in here that resonates with my own life experience; moving home midway through childhood, disliking school despite being good at it (much to the surprise of others), and being inable to continue relationships after moving on through stages in life. On a nuanced level, our experiences are vastly different, but the similar core allowed this whole thing to kind of speak to me. I know my move affected me quite a bit. I went from being a fairly popular quirky kid in a nice environment, to moving to a rougher area (comparatively speaking) where people just didn't care that I was around for the most part. A lot of the friends I had since then were ones I felt like I couldn't connect with, and as a result, I only ever had a handful of friends during the latter half of primary school and the entirety of secondary school, only one of which I keep in contact with, and even then that's just once or twice a year. Part of me always kinda blamed it on my name. Being a 'Daniel' in a school year with 7 or 8 other Daniels and having almost all classes with 2 other Daniels for the duration of highschool made my lack of presence feel all the more apparent, like I was just part of the background. (I think that's why I've stuck with this silly nickname of mine since I was seven haha) As a result, I tried to fit in more by hiding my interests, to an extent where it's taken me years to be able to properly express myself again. I don't really fit into a social box either, I can get quite tired talking to people I'm unfamiliar with or being out in public in general, but when I'm with my circle of close friends I feel more alive and expressive than in any other situation. These days I spend almost all of my time at home. I'm 21 and do freelance programming work for a company I used to work at full-time until about 18 months ago, and the rest of the time I lead a team of three other close internet friends on a game design project. In many ways I'm blessed with my current situation. Game development is something I've always wanted to do since I could form conscious thought, I've always been writing stories for games, drawing diagrams, and from my teenage years, I picked up programming. As a result I never went to uni, I looked at various games programming courses here in the UK but nothing I found ever seemed to be high above my current abilities, so I got a job nearby for a year whilst I continued to practice and before I started a project with my friends. I'm also pretty blessed that I still live at home so I'm still financially able to take this risk. As a result of all of this though, many of the people I'm closest to and spend the most time with are countries away, and as someone who prefers closer relationships, I can go through periods of strong loneliness as a result. This is not helped by the fact that my desire to spend time in closer relationships alongside my current life situation also means that it's very difficult for me to establish new friendships, so I tend to be pretty inactive in places where I'm less familiar. So to tie this back to this video, I think why raocow's stuff is important to me is because of its constant presence. Whilst we don't know each other personally, the fact that I know that videos will be up at the same point every single day can kinda help give my life some sort of routine and stability. Well, I imagine it's probably a little less dramatic than that in truth, but I suppose it's also something that I don't ever make a conscious thought about since his content has been a constant part of my life for the last seven years. And I suppose that's why raocow's important to all of us, and us to him. Ultimately, we may never know each other well enough personally, but I believe the value in this whole situation is in the fact that we're always around; to an extent, in our interactions as a whole, we keep each other going. And I think that's why, in this crazy mass of people, from different ages, situations and backgrounds, we all matter - even if you're just watching from the sidelines. See, I knew I'd ramble, haha.

Anonymous

questions were on last weeks video because i am one of the dumbs that didnt do what they were told so instead here's some commentary on your commentary WHOA i wish i had been taught more of another language when i was a kid. we learned like a tiiiiiiiiiiny bit of Japanese and now that I've grown into a giant turbo-weeb, I really wish we'd've done more. to be fair, our teacher was kind of terrible. all we did was make origami and eat sushi (which was really gross and still is) rather than actually learn the language. hey raoman, i hope you dont feel like you HAVE to talk about tough things, i mean, if you WANT to thats fine, but dont feel like we're pressuring you into things. im perfectly fine picturing you as this floating cardboard box with a cat face drawn on it. that said, it was nice learning a bit more background around the loose facts and trivia that i'd built up over the years, fleshing it out into a more cohesive 'tragic and emotional backstory that a big evil villain man with a robot limb is going to use to put you into a season long session of angst' (the above may or may not be hyperbole YOU DECIDE)

Duker

I too had it really easy in school, I just shut up and listened to the teachers and easily got top 5 overall grades... which sounds nice on paper but it screwed me big time, I don't know how to put effort into anything. I can unconsciously do it for short periods if it's something I'm extra-super into at the moment, but once that interest fades I can't get myself to continue.

That Guy If

Something I was thinking about while I was on the train to work. I know you said you've been doing this for about, what, a year now? But let's stop for a second. How long's the Talkhaus been going for? 5 years? Maybe 6? ASMT was released late 2010 if I'm not mistaken. So you may think you've only been doing this for a year, but it's based on a community that's been around for far longer. It's important to remember that they're still there for you. I mean, even if this Patreon fails to work out, or you move on to something else, that community will still be there. There will be several members that just come and go, some by choice and others not. But many will stick throughout. At the end of the day, even if Patreon screws everyone over by getting bought out by PayPal or some stupid company that will throw out all the weirdos, you still have those peeps. Things will constantly change, no matter what. I learned this in my years as a college student, transient, and other lesser titles in my life, where the one question on my mind was "will I have a place to sleep x amount of time from now?" It's good to have an anchor in your life, and you have that in the Talkhaus. It's just something to keep in mind.

ruiizu

I don't really keep up with the patreon videos due to sheer lack of time vs. their length, but I'm glad I watched this one. Just know, as we've all said, even if you can't always see, feel, or hear it, rest assured. You are not alone.

Present Day, Present Time

I hope this was helpful for you. Everyone knows its difficult to put yourself out there and kind of say "hey this is why I'm they way I am now." I hope this wasn't just drudging up a lot of things you don't like to think about. I just want to say what you were talking about at 57:40 is something I can relate with. It seems like there is just this thing people can connect on that I never got. Its really meaningful to hear someone else in a similar situation. I don't want to be all "oh man were totally alike so don't worry about it!". I just am personally happy to know that I have a few more things in common with someone I admittedly idolize. Thanks for sharing.

cayiika

Nevermind, scratch my questions from last week. I saw that some other people were posting serious questions too and mistakenly figured you were asking for them. About the video; man, that was unexpectedly intimate, I'm not even sure what to write. Maybe I don't even need to, I've experienced firsthand that just getting what you want to say out of your system can be a big relief on its own. I do realize though that although your videos have become a consistent part of a lot of our daily routines and we're probably all real people for the most part, there's hardly any interaction beyond that. So if you need to take a break from pumping out two daily videos as raocow to spend some time with friends as Samuel, I'm sure none of us would take genuine offense by that. And to lighten the mood, here's a gif of a cat on a roomba: <a href="http://i.imgur.com/TJCoh.gif" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">http://i.imgur.com/TJCoh.gif</a>

Bellmoore
>>1467994

Which anime might that be? I discovered it through the Kurosagi Corpse Delivery Service manga.

Willhart

I wonder if this episode will be the longest one yet? You are getting a ton of questions again.

Philos555

I can say......I was quite the same regarding school and stuff, and have a bad habit of kind of just fading off from people (hell, has been months since I've commented on here, even though I still watch the normal videos every day), so I can kinda say I get it, at least from my own perspective, anyway. I moved to a different state right before starting high school, and from then on, I think I was permanently changed from it, though, of course, didn't realize it at the time. Anyway, not to ramble on all about ME, but just saying, I, and it would seem plenty of others in the comments can empathize in some way or another, and we're all glad to be part of the wacky, zany, occasionally janky (in the best ways) community you've built around yourself :) I know I'm not going anywhere, even if I don't do much besides watch the videos, and that actually leads me to my question.... As somebody who makes YouTube videos, do you think they will always be the #1 go to site for user-created internet videos, or do you think it's feasible that another site/service will come along and "dethrone" it, so to speak? In particular, the #WTFU (where's the fair use) YouTube thing that's been going on recently is what prompts me to ask this question specifically.

GenesisJames

I found this very interesting, and even sort of inspiring in a strange way. As a pretty reserved person myself, I can definitely relate to a lot of things that you talked about, so even though you don't need someone to say it, you're not alone in what you feel and felt in the past. It's awesome that you powered through it all and are now able to make a living on something that you like doing; I'm working on that, myself. Through your videos and the talkhaus and whatnot (I'm louiejub on there), I feel like I'm more able to connect with people, especially now that I'm soon leaving my teenage years and heading into my 20's. Sorry for being a lurker for so long; it's not really my style to be so upfront. I'm pretty shy, in all honesty. Never having very permanent friends until recently, it's nice to have a community to fall back to. I found myself late in life (junior year of high school), so... I experiment with behaviors and things that may not always be the best, so I can appreciate the talk on how people are changing constantly. To avoid the risk of making a wall of text, I just wanna say thank you for being a great source of entertainment over the years for whatever life throws at me. I know I said it in the advent thing with the CD and whatever, but you truly do make my life better. I can't imagine it without you/what you do, as cheesy as it sounds. Thanks again, man.

hydrochloric

Wow, man, thanks for sharing! I know there's not a whole lot we fans can do about real life things, but I and probably almost all of us here care about you a lot in our own ways, and I'd like to take this opportunity to communicate it to you, since you took the time to open up in this video. I'd also like to thank you, though not for the first time (this is the Patreon thing, after all), for the countless hours of enjoyable Let's Plays you've posted for us. I'm so happy you get to do this full-time, and I hope it's treating you well. I'm well aware that fandom isn't friendship, but at the risk of sounding perhaps a little weird, I've listened to your voice enough over the years that I find myself caring inordinately about your wellbeing. Do take care, raocow. (I feel really foolish right now.)

Anonymous

I think a lot of us can relate to at least some of the things you talked about. It's good you were able to get out some things you needed to talk about, and it's helpful for other people dealing with similar things to hear about those experiences from someone they trust. I guess it's been a while since this was recorded, but I once heard that there's nothing sadder than a silent raocow, so if you (or anyone else) still need a pick-me-up, you'll be happy to hear there are in fact cities named after planets, or at least there is one in Florida: <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jupiter,_Florida" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jupiter,_Florida</a>

Xirix

This was nice raocow, thanks for sharing this with us. It's kinda neat to know other peeps drew videogames on paper, I used to draw stupidly sadistic Mario Lost Levels kind of levels when I was a kid. Real talk though, you've been an important source of fun in my life for quite some time, and as a guy prone to depression, having a funny guy to watch every single day can make quite an impact, having him be a super nice lovable dolt is a bonus. :P

Sebby19

Wow, thanks for pouring your soul out here. I couldn't do that, except for maybe my significant other, whenever I meet her. Those moments of silence felt especially powerful. Thanks for make, mate.

Anonymous

&lt;333 raocow (idk if this has been said before this comment because i'm super late and stuff but) have you ever considered getting therapy? i don't think there is anything wrong with that... if you have troubles and feel you need an outlet i can tel you from experience that it is SUPER helpful.

Anonymous

Hey Raocow, thanks for sharing your thoughts with us. There isn't much I can say that hasn't already been said a million times better by everyone else, just know you're always an incredible inspiration and uplifting friend to a countless number of people. Feel free to ignore my streaming question from last week, I've come to find out its something you've already discussed pretty heavily.

Anonymous

Ya know, your statement 'when you're doing well at something, people tend to think you enjoy doing that thing,' really hit home with me. I wouldn't say our academic life was line for line the same, but there are quite a few similarities. Like I was pretty well-to-do in the Math/Geometry, Science/Chemistry world of things. and sure the calculating out of particular problems was easily doable, and the lab-work was sometimes fun to fool around with, I never had much interest in it. Though my teacher types and adult peers had so much they were looking forward to for/from me as a laboratory chemist, or engineer of some sort later on. I sometimes feel as if I've let them down... but it just wasn't what I looked forward to for myself as a career. Granted I'm still in that "what do I want to do?" phase, I've at least landed a steady job to hold me above flood waters for a good while. (I'll continue watching the last 20ish minutes now)

Anonymous

Thank you for sharing raocow, as someone with social issues (even if you are an important person on the interwebs =P ), I know that took a lot. But I'm glad to see you try something new. P.S. Sorry for the multi-commenting.