I am almost at my breaking point (Patreon)

Hi everyone in this community. 

As I am writing this, I do not feel well. This might come as a surprise for some of you as I am creating relaxing content. It is getting harder and harder for me to be relaxed myself.

I usually don't bring personal problems to the public; however, I think it is fair for you to know as you are the community that has supported me for a long time. 

My long-term partner has been feeling ill for longer than we actually have been together and all doctors kept telling him he was just fine and the tests were negative on everything. He progressively kept getting worse and worse. It gets to the point he is not able to function normally - he got long time untreated Lyme disease that doctors did not detect in the beginning and it has been causing nerve damage for more than 5 years. 

As he reached out to a private doctor (we were not able to afford one), the doctor found out he had this illness (which we actually had suspicion for about 1 year). He has been on his treatment for about a quarter of a year (still not getting better) but it is still a long journey ahead. We are dealing with moving again on top of everything so I will be moving again soon. 

The whole issue is not excessively hard only for him but also for me as I see both of our mental health deteriorate, even though we try to stay positive throughout this whole process. Honestly, I do not even know if it ever will be good with his health again but I "pray" that it will. The inability to help someone you love is indescribable. 

With that said... I just needed to vent. I might delete this later.