LIFE UPDATE + REFUNDS + PAUSING THE PATREON (Patreon)

Good day everyone, hope y'all have  been doing well

By now you must have seen that you got a refund for this month's payment. Tell ya the truth I was planning on pausing the patreon for February, but February started without me even realizing what day it was so now I had to refund each of you individually lol

Anyway, you folks must have realized by now that I'm a more reserved person. I'm not much of an online guy, so I have a bit of difficulty opening up in virtual spaces, even though I try sometimes (specially in the discord (at least before all this stuff started happening)). That being said, you guys are such an important pillar of my life, and I've been bothered for a while for not really opening up about what is happening with me right  now, so here it goes. It's some heavy stuff so content warning I guess.

I mentioned my mom was going through some health issues before. Actually, ever since September she has been fighting with a cancer in the meninges (the brain's membrane). After undergoing a surgery in the beginning of October, she lost the movement of the left side of her body. After 43 days in the hospital, the cancer receded and she was able to go back home. Her left arm got well again, but she still didn't have control over her left leg, so I had to temporarily move back in with my folks to help out, since I was the only one back home strong enough to carry her out of her bed into the wheelchair (getting into fitness last year was such a blessing btw. everything would be so much harder otherwise).

After exactly one month, she had to go back to the hospital due to some head aches she was having, and she's been there ever since. After that we've been through many twists and turns, including a second surgery she had to go through which was fortunately successful. However it was only effective in alleviating a few symptoms, and truth of the matter is that the cancer continued spreading, and a couple of weeks ago we learned that there was nothing more we could do about it.

Just some surreal stuff... absolutely unbelievable. She's now in a sort of comatose state, peaceful, serene. So in a sense I'm glad she can rest and be tranquil after so much pain and struggle.

So yeah, you guys can see the picture of how insane things have been over the past few months. Of course it has been super difficult to work over all this time (you can't imagine what it took to get that y2k techno mix outta the door), so that's why I decided to pause the patreon. I've been chipping away at the new mix ever since I posted the y2k techno one, but the truth is that like last month i think there were only like 3 or 4 days where I touched it, and if you've seen the last two streams I made, you know how much work these videos take.

I know the vast majority of you wouldn't mind keeping supporting me despite that, and I deeply appreciate it from the bottom of my heart, but the fact is that I've been slowly losing pledges over the last few months, and honestly I'm scared. This patreon is how I make a living, so I'm choosing to do this thinking it's the best for the long term. I have a safety net here so don't worry about me, I'll be fine money-wise!

I guess that's all I have to say. Again thank you all so, so much for the continued support! I love you all and owe you so much <3 <3 <3 <3