Silent Hill 2 Ending and "An Update" (Patreon)

And that’s the end of Silent Hill 2, I think it may have broken me hahaha. What gorgeous voice acting and story telling. Thank you for recommending this game to me. I'd love to hear about theories or parts of the story I misinterpreted or may have missed? Please feel free to share below! The plan is to play 3 and 4 but I think I need a little bit of a break. The next section of this post is A LOT, maybe read it after a long break after the video lol, its an update and not an extensive review of Silent Hill 2 or anything. I don't know how much is healthy to share but there are a couple of things on my mind. I had a bit of a bad time publishing part 1 of Silent Hill 1. It was a reaction to skipping the cutscene before the title screen, the likes of which I could not find on any other channel covering the game on YouTube lol (I say lol but I am gutted as to why I had such a different reaction), followed by the worst watch times and stats on videos… ever. If you saw the comment section of that video, I apologise, I am ashamed that I did not remove some of those comments sooner. I've got really in my head about it which I know is silly but I can't help it. I loved the game and editing those parts so much and I found that I didn't have that same enthusiasm for editing Silent Hill 2, which I feel bad about now. I want to play something different to just reset. I don't want this to read like I am a victim of anything terrible, I know these things do not matter really in the long run, but I am only human and sensitive at that! Thanks for the support through everything this year. Having a solid space here has helped me to make content so much, I think that I would have closed the Channel a long time ago without it. There has been such a negative feedback loop on the public youtube community all year and it's been very disheartening and confusing! I need to work out what I want to do going forward, but I want to reiterate that I am so grateful and thankful and lucky to have this space. I have made videos far longer than I ever thought I would have because of you!

There's upcoming life changes for me which may result in me no longer having space nor the privacy to make content like this going forward. Long story short I cannot afford to live where I currently do any longer and I'm heartbroken about it. I don’t want people to feel like they need to donate any more or anything, this Patreon has helped me stay here far longer than I would have done without it - I am so so grateful for how much your contribution and these videos have helped my life. I've met the most amazing people through them and I just want to reiterate how thankful I am. I have signed up to do my first sponsorship in a very long time, I wanted to give you all the heads up on that. I may need to start trying to aim for a regular sponsor every once in a while. People have very strong opinions on this, I know, all I can say is please don't judge me, I am trying to live and continue with videos!

But on top of that, I am really struggling to find joy in publicly posting videos to YouTube lately. I am leaning more heavily towards the decision to slowly detach myself from it all. I am still trying my best, I am excited to play the games on my to-do list. But, things may take a turn for the worst and I may need to divert the energy I spend on videos into a new life path for me to better be able to support myself. I've done this for a really long time, and a lot in my life has fallen by the wayside. I am considering returning to school to study something new. I am considering a career change, etc. I have a couple of months to work things out so I am going to try to play as much of the to-do list as possible!It's a bit of a sad post, I am very nervous and embarrassed to talk about it… feeling like a bit of a failure all round but I felt it was important to share where my head is at and so things that may happen don't come as a surprise later down the line. I also really appreciate it when I see other people share when they're vulnerable and find that I feel far less alone when they do. Anyway, final thoughts: loved silent hill 1 & 2, so I shall return!