update 107. (Patreon)

june 10th-16th.

hi hi!! how is everyone?

i had such a good writing session last night and i'm so so happy about it. i don't think i've had that happen for a few months now; i'm really hoping i can keep the streak. i think a large part of it had to do with me going through my itch.io comments earlier in the day. reading various theories and thoughts on characters had me realizing how much i love this world.

i've spoken a lot about how i've felt that, sometimes, when the pressure gets to me, this feels less like a passion project and more like something i'm obligated to do. but if that really were the case, i would've quit ages ago. of course, i don't actually think this way, but when i'm feeling down about my work or am reminded of how long ago i last opened my word document, it hits me. it's why i appreciate your kind words so much. once in a while, i just need that little reminder of how this came to be and why i'm still here, and boy, did i get it last night.

so yeah, that's my little rant. on the topic of chapter eleven, i'm hoping to have K's and Rylan's scene completely finished by the next update. or, at the very least, i want to have everything outlined. occasionally, i'll do this thing where i write in the scene with one choice out of five filled in, and then go back and write in the flavour text for the other four. it's just quicker for me, especially if i have a good flow; writing five different variants of the same response tends to kill that. if i can at least have that done, i'll practically have finished what i need to. considering how much writer's block this has given me, it's a huge win. cross your fingers everyone.

after that, i have the choice of moving onto Blane's scene or A/N's, which closes out the chapter. i still haven't figured out what i'm doing yet, but i'll decide when i get there. logically, Blane's makes the most sense because it ties into K's and Rylan's, but that's also the scene that made me stop writing for a month so... do i really want to risk that? i'll see how i feel.

that's all i got for you this week! take care of yourselves <3

(oh, and i'm also adding stats back into my updates. they were gone for a while as i reconfigured my old chapter eleven document with the new one, but i think i've got my bearings enough that i can have them in without getting confused now. a little optimistic, but i'm hoping to get to 20k words by next week. wish me luck!)

stats.

• chapter total: 13,453 words

• game total: ~485,450 words

sneak peek.

The image of Sebastian holding us together, a glue bottle in hand as he tries to fix all the cracks, comes to mind.