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And it's right HERE!Please note that if you struggle to read a chapter, scroll to the bottom of the comics post to find more informations!To access the latest update, make sure to click on “LATEST PAGES”. These new pages are not included in Chapter 15!There are two reasons for this: first, this update overlaps between Chapter 15 and 16, I'll manage that later, and second:

I’m honestly not happy with this update ;_; I kind of messed it up. It’s not a disaster, but it’s not exactly what I was aiming for, so it’s very likely I’ll rework it in the next update.This connection between them is super important, and I feel like it lacks density here, in the pacing, but it was too late when I realized. I really struggled with these last 2–3 pages (which is also why the very last one isn’t complete). I even restarted them twice, rearranged things over and over again just two days before the release date lol-

There was another wide shot of their position at the end, but something felt off, so I cut it off for now. Tera’s pose didn’t carry the nuance I wanted, and I realized this subtlety is really hard to capture. Honestly, it took a lot of time that went nowhere.

Now, to give you a bit more insight into the intent behind this scene, I want to share what was in my head while creating it, and why it matters so much to me to get it right:

I love the moment where Tera rests his head gently against the Boy. Just that. He doesn’t go any further because their relationship doesn’t allow it yet, and above all, because he’s not familiar with this tenderness. So it comes off a little awkward, a little unusual.

As for why he does this, I want readers to form their own interpretation, but for me there are two reasons (can be one, can be both, can be something else, it's up to you):

Tera is coming back from a complicated, chaotic, murderous night. He’s injured. It’s exhaustion speaking. Through all of this story, the Boy is the only source of tenderness and affection for Tera (or will become so). Tera knows this, and he allows himself to lean on him. He’s simply tired, looking for a little bit of that thing the Boy carries with him: tenderness.

In that moment, Tera suddenly realizes the impact he now has on the Boy. Someone is waiting for him. He doesn’t like the idea that the Boy worried, that he was scared, that he had to "endure" those fears. That feels like a weight Tera didn’t want to put on his shoulders. So he apologizes. And we know Tera doesn’t apologize easily. These are genuine apologies, he really feels guilty. He’s not used to causing worry: his group doesn’t show tenderness to each other, and above all, they trust each other: nothing can happen to them. So seeing this Boy consumed with worry unsettles him deeply. You know, that feeling when your loved ones worried for you and you just feel sorry!

I hope all of this makes sense! It feels strange to introduce some of these new behaviors, which is why I don’t want to get them wrong haha.

Anyway, I hope you still enjoyed these pages!!!Thank you for your patience and all your support 💖LOVE YOU