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Over heeeere!Thank you so much for your comments about the latest update <3 God, it felt wonderful to read haha.They made me incredibly happy, it's so motivating, it really reassures me that I am heading in the right direction.

I create this comic based only on what resonates with me, on what tenderness looks like in my imagination, on the gestures that express love without words. I never know if it will resonate with anyone else, and realizing that it does, that it touches so many of you, feels incredible. Sometimes it’s almost like I don’t fully realize the intensity of what I’m creating lol?

Thank you all for your comments. They mean so much to me, you have no idea.----The only thing I had in mind throughout this whole scene was how I wanted Tera to be captivated by the Boy haha. I wanted him so absorbed that he is no longer fully in control of himself. You can see it in the way he tilts his head, something he does when he slips into deep inner thoughts. It's unconscious. And then the way he lifts his head at the same time as the Boy: he just follows the movement without thinking, he is startled by the sudden gesture, pulled out of his thoughts. And then the way he leans against his fist. What's going on in his head?

It is as if he already knows his character is irresistibly drawn to the Boy, like a magnet. Something pulls at both of them.

I put a lot of effort into writing the dialogue! I try to be mindful of how each of them expresses themselves, and Tera is always a challenge because he is quiet, very silent but intensely present. He is clumsy in his attempts to help, more gestures than words. He expresses love from the side, never head on.

"To chase your nightmares away for you" was originally "with you". But that collaborative feeling did not fit Tera well. He has this protective, dominant nature. And it's more romantic haha.

Then his first instinct is to offer his strength. I don't need to add anything else, it is all he knows.Notice how the Boy lowers his fist.

The dialogue on the next page was also a headache. Tera absolutely couldn't sound like a creep going "I will watch you sleep" lol. And again, he couldn't be too direct with his affection. "Then I'll keep watch" was "I'll watch over you", but it was saying too much about him.Instead, he describes the posture of watching without explicitly revealing the feelings behind it.

I think I can talk about it now: I struggled to express what I wanted in the final page, at least not as beautifully visually as I hoped (I did two versions). But what I love about this scene is its double meaning. On the surface, for him and for the story, the Boy talks about the monster that will probably devour him someday (more about that in the next update), because that is the mental image he built around this vision.In reality, it is an expression of his trauma. You know those heavy, buried things that shape a person and threaten to consume them slowly over time. He is damaged by his past.One eye is hidden as a reference to the monster who covers his eyes when he sleeps! And that goddamn ray of light-I hope you liked it!Next time we’ll finally get a flashback about the origins of this horned monster HAH! STAY TUNED. I CAN'T WAIT.