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Thank you so much for continuing to support me despite everything. I know I'm not giving you the content I should in exchange for the money you're so kindly giving me. Never in my life did I think my family would go through something like this. My mood isn't good, and I don't have the time I need to create more content. I don't mean to dump my problems on you, but so you can understand I have to tell you that I'm working very long hours, which leaves me exhausted at the end of my shift.
I have mixed feelings about this Patreon and my other networks. Theyhave my brother's story. I don't want to post anything else there. In fact, if it were up to me, I'd delete everything except the posts about my brother. The most logical thing would be to create another account and try to follow trends to build a following again; but I feel like if I stop doing SheRa stuff, I'd be disrespecting the people who helped me. I know it's going to sound absurd, but I think if I hadn't jumped on the SheRa bandwagon when I did, I wouldn't have achieved the reach that allowed me to receive so much help.
The compulsion to draw that I was born with helps me keep drawing, even if it's just a little. I have to be honest with you: I've done other simple black and white things and commissions, but since they're not SheRa, I haven't published them here. I don't know if my idea that if I stop doing SheRa things, everyone will leave is distorted. I haven't slept much this past year, and I think that's keeping me from thinking.
My mom isn't doing well at all. I've gotten permission from my jobs to take her to the mountains for a few days to spend time with her siblings. My house has become a miserable and sad place. In August, I'll be completely offline for a week, away from everything with her.
Please tell me what do you think, I really need some perspective in anything.