ehm (Patreon)

Hi. it’s been some time since I started making films and taking photos. I have to say, it’s something I truly enjoy and genuinely love. For a long time, I couldn’t find any videos showing a live-action woman in a city, destroying it, crushing people, and similar scenes. And when I did find them, something was always missing. Everything felt cringe, and I literally had to skip through to the interesting scenes I actually wanted to see. So I decided to try it my own way and started making my own films. At first, they weren’t anything special, but over time, they gradually improved and became what they are today. I think when someone sees “Noon Giantess,” they know exactly what to expect: a big girl, destruction, and no cringe lines — which I personally have never liked in videos. Now, to the point. You may have noticed that I’ve been taking longer and longer breaks recently. There are two reasons for this: mainly the quality of the videos — which are no longer just 30% VFX, but more like 80% VFX — and my own desire to continue. I love what I do, and it truly brings me joy — and I don’t mean just happiness; I’m genuinely filled with excitement when I see people enjoying my work. I literally create something, and people appreciate it; it’s an amazing feeling. But then, a few days later, all that work appears on a site, posted by someone whose only “achievement” in his miserable life is stealing someone else’s work. And even worse, they literally sell it and take money for someone else’s labor. That gives me zero motivation and an absolute reluctance to continue. Over time, this accumulates, and with each month, I feel less and less like working. There are times when I don’t work for days, not because I don’t want to, but simply because I have no desire. I don’t mind if someone gets my content and keeps it for themselves. What I do mind is when it’s shared with people who won’t support me — people who then never contribute. That's what is pissing me off. My work is online within a week, everyone can see it, and here I am with almost no interaction. If it weren’t for the two people who managed to leave even a small comment under a video, it would be completely empty. So thanks to the two people who had the balls to leave me a comment — even if I don’t reply, I always read them, and those little interactions let me know that people enjoy my work. So here’s my suggestion: if you want to share my content, reduce the quality to 480p. That way, anyone who genuinely wants to support me will still have a reason to see my work in full quality directly from me. So I’d like to ask you one thing: please don’t take away my desire to do what I love, and don’t destroy my motivation to keep going. PS: I want to take this moment to thank everyone who has ever supported me, because I'm doing this for you and would not waste my time destroying my ears with screaming and explosion for "fun" ..and also ChatGPT, which helped me translate this long text — something that would have taken me about six months to do on my own. It might have tweaked it a bit during the translation, but it’s still way better than reading my English, which probably would have made your eyes bleed.