oh my, there be some feels in here... (Patreon)

A common question I get asked is what do I do for fun, one of my hobbies, what I do in my off time or... some variation of that. And obviously anyone that knows me knows I don't really have a good answer for that because being incapacitated by illness for majority of the time any ounce of functionality I do have I very much put into work. 

Because that is where my passion lies these days, but also yes I have a lot of guilt issues  surrounding not working basically every second I am functional and that's a whole other ball of Wax (but I am working on that in terms of prioritizing self care during functional time as well). Anyhoodles the point I'm working up to is that it's you guys. My fun time, my hobby, my relaxation... is patreon land work (obviously I have other more stressful work avenues haha, but patreon is hella special)

When I am having horrible anxiety and I've been laying in bed for 3 hours with my brain spiraling and I need to think about something that calms me and something that makes me happy... I start planning my next shoot, or my next makeup look, or my next cosplay, or the next thing I want to make. I daydream about art I get to make, because of you guys. 

Obviously I'm not an idiot it's never without stress since it is tied to work and people's expectations and all that jazz but in the level of stresses that are in my life this is the most relaxing thing I get to think about. And without patreon there would be so much more limitations on my creative process inside of business constraints to the point where this planning and creating would be 90% stress. 

So thank you guys I appreciate you so so much.  Thank you for letting me feel so fulfilled creatively, whilst growing my community, and being able to support myself with an "incapacitating" disability, in a world that makes that almost impossible.

xoxo

PS content related, hatter peek coming later todaaaaay!