TNG Blue Uniform (mini photoshoot #41) (Patreon)

All 24 photos are available in the 3rd tier or for purchase in the store!Hello everyone! Storytime.I got all ready to do a photoshoot late December, but was dreading it all day and it put me in a depressive mood. When I went to put on the outfit I planned to wear, there was an issue with it. I couldn't bring myself to do the photoshoot and spent hours prepping only for that time to be wasted.Several days ago, I once again spent hours to prepare for a photoshoot, only to feel really cruddy in anticipation of doing it. I put on the blue TNG costume and it was too big. Frustrated, I went to husbando saying I was thinking about not continuing to do photoshoots. He asked why and I didn't know the answer myself. I didn't know why I was dreading to do the photoshoots for the past 5+ months. I thought hard about it and came to a couple conclusions.1. I'm not happy with where I am with my weight. It may only be 10 pounds more, but I just don't feel confident. No matter how many people tell me otherwise, if I don't believe it myself it can never be true in my mind. Human brains are silly that way.2. Husbando has been helping me take the pictures, and that's been a big help to not have to do it by myself like I was for a long time. The issue is that I can't see myself in the preview when he's taking them because he obviously needs to see it. I don't know how to pose this way, and we both get frustrated by this. Also, husbando often takes pictures from unflattering angles, leaving a lot of the photos unusable and making me feel pretty cruddy. My solution is to get a mirror where I can see what my poses are looking like.3. I have a large backstock of outfits that were purchased for me by community members on my Throne. I've been trying to use them all but as I use the ones that I like and feel the best in, I am slowly being left with a pile of outfits that don't fit me quite right leaving me feeling very unenthusiastic about the whole thing.Husbando is very supportive and has made it clear that he's more than willing to spend as much time as needed to help me with this. We have decided to spend some time going through the remaining outfits and seeing if we can make them work in some way. We'll do this ahead of time, instead of the day of. Those that can't be made to work will not be used. As bad as I feel about it, some of them will just have to be shelved. Going forward I will be purchasing more things for myself, and being more selective when it comes to fan suggested outfits. I have to really think hard if something will actually work with my body type before deciding to purchase or allow others to purchase it. If I decline your suggestion, most likely it's because I don't think it will fit me correctly.I will do my best to go back to being more consistent with the frequency of the photoshoots from here on out.