i almost had a mental breakdown earlier today, so i made this as a result (Patreon)

So, today was a really bad day for me mentally because I was dissociating a lot. A lot of thoughts circulating in my head that had me detaching from reality. Some topics include obviously the pandemic, future job ideas and how to implement them. Lack of socialization, bitterness about my past, finances, relationships with the people I’m with, etc. I’m still trying to see if I want put this into a blog format, but I’m very proud of what I did thus far. I’m quite surprised that I took an idea that I had originally made in 2017 and constructed a FULL song idea from it. Usually, I would take whatever I record in my voice memo app and try to re-create in music software, but 9.9 times out of 10 it will be left by the wayside never to see the light of day again. So for the fact that this is actually a fully constructed song that’s a ROUGH DRAFT and BARE BONES, is great for me on a personal level...

So far, I was thinking of calling this “claustrophobic.isolation”.

The song is going to detail how this pandemic has really rocked me mentally and that I earned it just to hang with my friends and family again without the enormous looming fear of catching the virus. How the powers that be are more concerned about ratings, power, and money presence that they’re not realizing the damage that it’s doing to this country as a whole. Emotionally driven, this is the result.