Doodles 166 (Pitfall p4 + Bonus chat) (Patreon)

Silly little punchline page XD Was planning on having the bonus page ready for this week too but I ended up having plans that knocked out my whole weekend I'll see if I can get it done while working in a more freeform doodle page next week.

Life Stuff + Real Talk

Sorry animation stuff has been slow lately. Been chipping away some of the longer sequences but the depresso has been hitting pretty hard, it's been a lot 50% kinda days recently but I just gotta keep my head up and keep trying. If you haven't seen on twitter already I mentioned taking a bit of a break but I'll keep posting stuff here as I work on things.

Part of the goal of the break is to figure out what really makes my heart tick lately and what gets me excited to create. I picked up some art books this weekend while out and about and its gotten me a bit inspired to draw again. I want to try doing a little more illustration again too. I love animation but I feel like my skills have been stagnating recently as I rush to meet my own arbitrary deadlines and man I just want to draw pretty women. I feel stuck and I want to practice other skills and techniques and break myself out of the same old routine. I definitely want to keep making nsfw stuff but I also kinda hate that it feels like some of my characters are defined by it. I hate that it feels like I have to make things about sex because I'm a nsfw creator.

I love people, I love personalities, I love stories, I love the dynamics between characters but it feels so difficult to portray everything because animation takes so much time. I have so many characters and ideas and things I want to share with the world but I can't possibly share them all and its so hard to have to pick and choose sometimes. Part of that just comes down to practice though, I want to improve my workflow and planning and writing. I want to get faster with my drawing skills and be more economical with my lines to be able to capture my ideas with less strokes. I want to get over my stubbornness and just let some shots be simple or find ways to make those simple shots still feel alive. At the end of the day I'm realizing that I just need to give myself time. Time to study, time to change, time to experiment, time to practice. Time to stop worrying about what others think and to let myself iterate and explore what I want most out of my art. Its my self-expression, so it should express me and I think that's what's been kinda kicking me lately. I may be the one making the art and drawing characters that I've created, but lately my art hasn't really felt like me, and I want to fix that. I love the process but I also want to love the results too.

So thank you all for sticking with me, hoping to wrap up the Zoey project this month and probably aim to make more progress or try to finish the Cynthia one by end of year or at the very least in time for Cynthia's birthday in march XD but hopefully it'll be done well before that