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almost got shot (2022) (Patreon)

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2023-09-05 17:52:38
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2026-08
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I have alluded to the time I got followed home and threatened for shooting photos at night, which ended my photography habits for a few months and still has kept me from shooting more night photos ever since. This is the shot, from my small town in Idaho.

The odd part is that looking at it now I can't tell you if it was worth it or not; is it good, or is it just unusual, a night photo in a small town? I can't tell you if anything I've done with photography is worth it or not, it seems. It's been a very weird-feeling morning. 

Broadly, I think I feel incredibly strange since I officially quit Twitter and ended what was my biggest positive-reinforcement feedback loop for my photography. It was a horrible website, but it was also a continual source of dopamine to know just how many people liked my shots; whether or not it was a valid metric didn't matter. That shouldn't have been how I was evaluating my work, but it seems like I was leaning on it more than I realized, judging by how increasingly weird I've felt about my own work since quitting it.

So now I have to figure out how to judge my work a little more objectively, and with a little bit less "number go up". This has always been difficult for me, but I suppose I will try my best. I don't know if this photo was worth getting almost murdered for, but it is, at least, pretty. I hope I can find satisfaction in that. 

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Amalgamated Fiction - Detroit

Yeah, but now, not only do you know we like it but we're paying you for the privilege of seeing your work. Double dopamine hit.

Tran Girlismo (& Victoria Scott)

It’s true and it should be helping and yet somehow it just hasn’t sunk in! I worry people will finally realize my pictures are terrible any day now, lol

Ariadne L

The best way to defeat imposter syndrome is to assign the doubting voice to your ex No Kseniya, YOU’RE in over your head on calls and YOU’RE pretending to be good at things

Ariadne L

Oh I only have a small number of them, but I picked the meanest one. We went out for like four months ten years ago, and then broke up at Disney world. Which made the drive back to Atlanta… awkward.

Josh J

How has Patreon been to help fill that gap? I know the numbers are smaller, but there is also probably less negativity?

Tran Girlismo (& Victoria Scott)

It’s helped some, but yeah, the numbers are a lot smaller and it’s a necessarily limited ecosystem - there’s no chance things blow up and get super popular with people outside of my following.

Chiaki Mitama

Smaller crowd of folks probably willing to actually subscribe (which will always happen) but I'm sure folks here all appreciate the work you do. I often get backlogged going through these posts, but I do appreciate looking and reading through each of them. Was it worth getting almost shot though? I dunno, that really is up to you to decide, but at least there's a story to attach to it now.

Tran Girlismo (& Victoria Scott)

Honestly my conversion rates have always been fairly good, considering that I really only had 10-15K followers on twitter at my most popular. I appreciate how willing people are to support me, for sure, I just hope that they like the things I make, and I worry that silence is the same as disapproval. That is probably just cPTSD talking though lol

John Neff

Congratulations for leaving Twitter. I think it was the right move, for your spirit and conscience certainly, if not for your self-esteem and wallet. You’ll build that following back up somewhere else, wherever that may be. There’s a whole new opportunity in front of you somewhere.

Tran Girlismo (& Victoria Scott)

Thank you, I definitely feel a bit better to not be on such a hateful site anymore! I just don't know what social media will replace it, or if one even will, and I needed an audience.