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hi guys! (Patreon)

Published:
2024-04-25 15:36:35
Imported:
2026-06

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hi guys, Ben here! As some of you know I have Bipolar Disorder. Over the past few weeks I have been going through an episode that has not been great to say the least. The last time it was this bad was around December 2020 and it resulted in me not leaving the house or doing basically anything for a couple of months. That is the reason we haven’t been uploading recently or really saying anything. Bipolar Disorder sucks, it convinces you of certain things that aren’t necessarily true, even if that thing is feeling like you are better. I am very very sorry for the lack of uploads, the silence from my end, and if I am unable to get back to a normal schedule immediately. I am extremely mad and disappointed in myself. Anna has been super supportive and the best fiance, and best friend I could ever ask for over the past month.

It isn’t my fault for having Bipolar disorder but it is my responsibility to deal with it! I’m happy to say that over the past week we recorded a few videos (-: It was the highlight of the past month for me and I am excited to record more. I don’t feel comfortable setting a definite schedule just yet as I don't want to continue to let anyone down.

love you guys! ^^

PS: We aren’t able to post “The Boys” at the moment. We believe it is the cause of a lot of our other content being restricted and our working on figuring this out.

Comments

Shulman

Take your time man. Your health is much more important than any of this. People are here because we enjoy the content you guys make and who you are as people. Hope you get well soon.

Ishan

Just glad to hear you all are okay.

léna

it’s okay ben! please take your time 🤍 hope you’ll be better soon! thank you for telling us!!

Bill0g

You are getting better and that’s what matters. To you, to Anna and to us. 🙂

Slykou

Love you guys take care of yourself

Will

No need to explain Ben! We love you guys, and we want you back but more importantly we want you both to be feeling good and healthy. Take whatever time you need. Thank you!

Doodlegame

Don’t be so hard on yourself! Self-loathing can only make things worse. Everyone’s got problems, they don’t have to define you. When things going wrong, the best thing you can do for yourself is to treat yourself with the same kindness you would give to someone else who was struggling with a similar issue. That’s just my thoughts on the matter though. Hope you’re on the mend ❤️‍🩹

Flippnote

Always glad to hear about progress just take your time! No pressure here.

L.C.

Glad you guys are doing alright. I really figured that it was the bipolar disorder again but it still was something to be worried about when we don't get any kind of update and that just leaves confusion on our end. You have support and we understand what's been going on. If anything the comments were just about being worried for you guys more than anything else. Glad you are back. Don't blame yourself or anything like that. Glad to see you guys back!

MasterAries7

As others have said, dont be down on yourself about this. It isn't your fault. Glad you are feeling at least a bit better.

Kuro

Don't worry about it, Ben! Make your health a priority and we will patiently wait for any content you can post. Take care of yourselves first and foremost.

Jasmine Tea Enjoyer

Kanye and Ben… two genius’s of our time, both struggling but still WINNING! Prayers for your well being Ben. We love you.

Priam

Glad to hear you're feeling better, that you recognize it's not your fault and I hope you know we recognize that too

Flaccid Duck

Don’t feel the need to apologize or feel embarrassed about any of this. Take your time. You matter the most

Meow_Lin

We are SO BACK. There's no need to beat yourself up over things!

Wanderer

Welcome back guys, take your time and I think not putting out a schedule is the right move, the most fair choice for yourselves

Tim Zaum

We are all behind you Ben. Better times will be there very soon :)

Link

You have no idea how much this made my day. Don't worry about a definite schedule, take your time to be comfortable again. Love your content and hope everything works out in the end!

Jay

Just focus on getting better, we will be here to support you guys no matter what :) Don't be too hard on yourself, its not your fault! Amen.

Chikᶠⁱˡa

Extremely happy to hear you guys are doing alright. Im glad that you gave yourself some time off to prioritize yourself, and please don't force yourself if youre not feeling 100%. Myself and a lot more here care about yall well being and glad youre feeling a bit better Ben :D

Matter

Focus on yourself, no need to apologize for anything!

Whammadoodoo

Anna, Ben, we will all be here and supportive of you guys. Take your time.

John Spartan

Hi Ben, first let me say that sure, as viewes and patreons it sucks when suddendly there's no upload and the channel goes silent. That say, I'd like to think that most of us who are patreons know a bit about you two and your channel, we know that you have normal jobs outside of this and just that alone is a good reason to not to hold you on the same standarts as people who's only job is to react, or reactors that barely do any discussion. Juggling a job, personal life, health matters and a hobby/side job/community can't be easy. And then there's your BD which I won't comment much on about, I'm in healthcare, I know how much it can hinder people's lives, and I'm glad that you have been beetter enough to get through some recordings. Wish you the best on that front. So just let me reiterate that we understand, I want to congratule you both because you have been able to mantain a good schedule for a long time, much better than the first years of the channel, even at days where there's no video I know you probaly are going to upload it a few days later, and just like that one or two day later there it is. You guys are great reactors, and one of my personal favorites ever, and I say this as someone that somehow have been weatching reactors for 8 years. You approach everything with good faith, wanting to enjoy the experience while still being smart and analitical, also you understand the media you watch wich is a huge plus, I'm sure that for a lot of us your discussions are some of the best parts of your reactions. So yeah, it's good to hear from you, don't worry, keep it at a peace you're comfortable with for as long as you need to. Thank you and Anna for keeping up with this channel, wish you both the best. Pd. Damn that's a lot of notifications, my day just got a lot better, thank you!

Dysrhythmia

Hope you're doing ok, we're just glad to hear from you!

Drake

Take care my dude, and keep on keeping on its all we can do :)

Aaron Griffin

Don't stress, my dude. We'll be here whenever you're ready

Ryuuji Gremory

Hoping you are doing ok, take as much time as you need. We'll be waiting for whenever you are ready.

Chelly

Maybe Anna could be the one to give an update next time there’s an extended period of silence. It’s just that some can get worried when there’s been a long time without anything being said, just makes it seem like something really bad happened. Ofc you’re not obligated to share information, but even just a “some stuff has been going on, so it’ll probably be a while” would be appreciated. Regardless, thanks for the update. Take your time, your health should always come first no matter what. Wish you the best 💜

Ami

I was just wondering how you guys were doing yesterday. While I don't have BP, I can relate to the mental health woes. I'm glad you have Anna's support. It definitely helps to have someone there for you in the rough times. Take care.

Jeroz Avlesair

Glad to be hearing from you again, was getting really worried

Joelle

Hey, take all the time you need love, we’d rather have you guys healthy than you forcing uploads and content, no need to feel like you’re letting us down💛 We’ll be right here

Alan

I have really enjoyed your guys reactions since I found your channel since I feel like you're one of the only that really focuses and gets emotionally impacted by the anime you watch. Don't worry about however long you have to take for a break. I work with people who sometimes have things like bpd, depression, anxiety, and understand the person it impacts most in the end is the one who has it so don't stress too much about missing uploads and taking time off for yourself. Hope you start feeling better soon :)

Sylphis Farheit

Ben, I'm glad you find ways to keep it up. If returning to recording helps you, it's fine. But I think it is fine to not exhaust yourself and rush things to compensate for the delays. Also, thank you Anna for supporting him as best as you can. I know it could take a toll on you, so I wish you courage too. If you need time to properly recover, please do so. It should be OK to not force yourself to stick to the schedule if your are not well. The quality of your videos is why I want to support you. I expect you to value your time and yourself so you can continue to do what you like to do in the best possible condition. I do not want to care about the details, IMHO it should be kept personal. But to me, your honesty is one more good reason to keep supporting you here.

nikum

Ben please take all the time you need, your health >>>>>> everything else. Hope you feel better soon!!!

Pmj13

Don't be disappointed in yourself - mental health > everything. You've got this.

Joshua

It's been repeated a lot, but your health comes first, Ben. I sincerely wish you and Anna and best.

Jailso m

Anna it's your sylphiette/Rem/Otto in your life. Take your time to upload videos and like others said i wish you the best!

Meg B

Also going through a phase right now and I really identified with some of the struggles you've mentioned. It's sometimes so hard to show ourselves the kindness we would show others without skipping a beat. It's commendable that you take responsability but it should be there to help you first and foremost get better, not out of any pressure because of us. We can wait. We want to see you okay above all! . I'm sure Anna is there to remind you of these little things every step of the way 🤍 you're both amazing people and that's why you've garnered such an amazing fanbase. We'll be here no matter what!

KenthalasAT

Hey, braddah, take care of yourself first, man. I love your content enough to wait for you to take care of yourself, ya hear?

Sparky Reynolds

No need to apologize, it’s one of those things you can’t do anything about except navigate the highs and the lows to the best of your ability… you have a strong character to overcome tough obstacles and a beautiful understanding fiancé to lean on when life gets tough…. It could be worse, try to stay positive and optimistic, and if it doesn’t always turn out as you’d like…. Try not to dwell or beat yourself up about it….

Dale Tucker

And I love you, pretty boy

pls_ultra

thanks for being honest, sending my love!

Shouto

Thank you so much for being open and honest with us in regards to the difficulties you are facing Ben! Please take as much time as you need to rest and recover. Your and Anna's reactions and breakdowns are definitely worth waiting for, and I think I can speak for all of us here that we would much rather you prioritize yourself and what you need over forcing yourself to keep a schedule.

TerminuS: Reactions / Let's Plays / Reviews

Left you a comment on Youtube as well. You take care of yourself and do whatever helps you right now.Don't worry about delays, you are more important. If you can and enjoy recording, record. If you don't, don't. And see you again soon.

Stonewielder

Ben, It takes courage to open up about something like that. I would encourage you not to let your reaction videos become a source of stress for you. Recording these videos should be something you enjoy. Don't force yourself to get back into a schedule, go at your own pace, record when you feel like recording, and by all means take care of yourself before you worry about your members and subscribers. Regardless of how long it may take, we will be here.

RePlay

Glad to hear from you! Take all the time you need, we're not going anywhere. Really hope you'll feel better soon! In case you guys are up to read it, I sent you a DM on Patreon. It would be really great if you could check it out before starting Monogatari, but no rush. I made very sure to not include any spoilers whatsoever.

RPSiege

Hope you both are holding up okay!