Life update (and tech troubles) (Patreon)

Hi everyone,

I want to update you on what's been going on with me lately, since it affects what I do here.

This past week has been terrible. The last three days have been devastating.

I wish I could easily find the motivation to create when things are collapsing in my life, and without getting into too much detail, it has a lot to do with financial insecurity, but it is hard. And on top of that, I've had problems with my PC. The last Windows update broke my recording settings. After days of trying to fix it, the conclusion is that I can put bandaids on it (which I did, and I'll try recording something, but if it's too awful, I'll probably have worked on the video for nothing), but the setup I've been working with for so long doesn't work anymore. I tried everything, and it's just broken. I'm gonna have to invest in a new monitor because apparently what I have now just gets confused by what Windows changed. My games have trembling, lag, and stutter, and it shows on OBS recordings, obviously. I'm so depressed by this, since creating content has become an essential part of my life now, but I can't really afford to fix tech issues without sacrificing something else. And I hope getting a new monitor will finally solve all this, so send positive thoughts towards my PC.

Know that I will try to continue doing this for as long as I can, but if there are times when I share less, know that it has a lot to do with my current situation and job uncertainty (some of you might recall that I'm a freelancer and that what I do has been slowly replaced by AI, and we have now reached a point where I cannot find new work in my field).

I wanted to write this for transparency. I'm not a polished creator and never intend to be, I'm not a brand. I do this because it just makes sense to me. I just want to share what I do and the immense joy I get from seeing people enjoy my creations, whether it's builds, characters, or videos: it is life saving. I'm so lucky that you all are here, and on YouTube. I'm still a small creator, but I value this community more than you know. And to the people who decided to support me, here or on YouTube financially: there aren't a lot of you, but I don't have the words to say how much I appreciate you, and how much your support helps me, especially right now, in my daily life.

Enough yapping, though. Tomorrow will be a new day, and while we wait for it, here are a few screenshots of upcoming projects I've been working on for the past two months and hope to share in the future.

In moments like this, I go back to my notebooks where I write random stuff, including quotes from books I've read. I'll just leave this one from The Return of the King here, in case, like me, you need it in this exact moment in your life:

"There, peeping among the cloud-wrack above a dark tor high up in the mountains, Sam saw a white star twinkle for a while. The beauty of it smote his heart, as he looked up out of the forsaken land, and hope returned to him. For like a shaft, clear and cold, the thought pierced him that in the end the Shadow was only a small and passing thing: there was light and high beauty for ever beyond its reach."

Much love.