Update: Life happenings getting in the way of properly finishing more 3d stuff (Patreon)

i firstly would like to apologize for basically radio silence on patreon the past few weeks. im not very good at managing communication in general though i know i have to let my patreons know what is going on.

firstly, the non-personal stuff: 

about a day after my last update, the middle fan on my gpu is dead, so it does not clock up at all. this is the THIRD time this has happened to this gpu. right this very moment i am 3d printing a bracket to attach some 120mm fans to it. this makes working in blender a genuine slog as i have to use cpu rendering for everything. even workbench rendering runs at ~1fps with bigger projects open. so ive relegated myself to simple modeling and turntables and such, no big projects with lots of lighting/cum physics/variants and such.

now for the personal situation:

i almost lost my house at the end of last month due to some changes in the legal structure around living trusts and homesteading where i live in the state of florida. it took me the entirety of a week working practically nonstop away from home to get everything put together for submittal at the county clerk a few towns over. i had to travel across the state a few times to meet with old family lawyers, get records from family, and get original records from county archives. managed to get that squared away, paid our tax, and applied for homesteading again. 

i got home after that deal to a full time work week (i work full time beyond patreon and art). so i decided to take a bit of a break on big projects that require a lot of time to work on. doing a single change in any blade wolf blend project takes a good 2-3min to process on my end. with this progress remains slow but on days where i get to work the entire day i can get things done relatively efficiently. 

fast forward a week from there, my decade's now estranged father found out where i lived and showed up at my door unannounced. scared the shit out of me and has been making me fear for my life and life stability. this happened a week ago and im still processing everything about it and where to move on from here. the last time i saw him was when i came out and the dude is a total mental case.

im not giving up on art, i will continue doing art and will finish this next blade wolf piece. tomorrow ill actually have the entire day to continue working on it. i hope to get it done tomorrow but i cant make any guarantees if my father just decides to show up again.

everything is piling on right now but im not gonna let it keep me down, i need to make more stuff, i want to make more stuff. i WILL make more stuff.