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“No—“ He quickly gets off of Jimin, can’t believe he got so lost in the kiss he just pushed him down on his mattress. “I’m— I’m not hard.”

He’s actually semi-hard, but lucky for him it’s not showing in his sweatpants. Jimin’s eyes run over his crotch anyway, suspicion clear in his eyes.

“I— I felt it twitch.”

“It can twitch when it brushes against something— but I’m not hard, I swear.”

He holds his hands up in defence, still dazed from the kiss. 

Jimin looks up at him, then lowers his guard a little.

“Oh— well, you can’t just push me down like that. I thought you were supposed to teach me.”

“You’re right.” Jeongguk nods, tries to keep his eyes from dragging to Jimin’s lips. “I forgot to instruct— sometimes things just come naturally so..”

He hopes it’s a good enough excuse, looks at Jimin who just looks down at his own lap, fidgets with his hands like he always does.

“you keep saying that.. but I don’t have any feeling of what comes naturally.” 

Oh..

“Really? But you’re doing really good— I mean— just now.”

“I didn’t do anything, you just kissed me, I tried not to be bad at it.”

Jeongguk blinks, can’t really remember, his brain shuts off when he enjoys something, maybe that’s the difference.

“You’re probably thinking too much.” He says, “about what to do with your lips, with your hands, right?”

Jimin looks at him, gives a slow nod.

right, that’s what he thought.

“I think because I’m not your girlfriend—“

“She’s not my—“

“Whatever. Since it’s me, you’re not really into it right?”

He feels a little down just saying it, but he knows it’s true. Jimin isn’t into him whatsoever. He’s been talking about this girl for weeks.

“I mean.. yes, but, I’m not sure if I’d be able to stop thinking with her either.”

“Mm..” He nods, lets a few seconds pass as he mulls over how to bring the next point kindly. “sounds like you’re thinking about yourself too much.”

“About myself?” 

“Yeah, you’re worried that you’re bad at it, you’re worried you can’t stop thinking, what to do with your hands. All about you.” He explains, gives a gentle knock on Jimin’s head. “You should be thinking about her. About how soft her lips would feel, how you could make her moan.”

Jimin blinks once, cheeks dusting pink before he averts his gaze.

“Isn’t that.. too.. vulgar?”

Ah.. such a virgin.

Jeongguk bites the inside of his cheek to stop himself from calling Jimin cute.

“Sorry, I mean, just start thinking about what she would like, and allow yourself to want her. Right now you’re not doing either. You’ve been afraid of doing it wrong, but you’ve never told me what you’d like to do with her.”

He leans back on his bed, rests on his underarms. Jimin’s face gradually gets even more red, and then he casts him a glance.

“You mean.. like— physically?”

“Mm.” He nods, “like, you said you want to get her attention, that you want to kiss her, but you never really tell why you want her in that way, or what you think she tastes like.”

“Tastes like?”Jimin’s eyes widen, and he seems to get even more shy. “Isn’t that— isn’t that too much?”

Why is it fun to see Jimin so flustered?

“Hey, I’m just trying to help you, I think you should get a little more in touch with the primal part of your brain instead of the part that does statistics.”

He sits back up slowly, sees Jimin mull it over really hard, he can practically hear him think. 

A soft chuckle falls from his lips, it’s inevitable.

Jimin huffs softly, pushes his arm. But then after a few seconds he looks at him.

“And you think.. talking about those things will work?”

“Yeah, it’s a good start.” He shrugs, tries not to sound too eager with the next sentence. “And then.. maybe we could try again?”

He doesn’t even dare to look at Jimin.

“You mean.. kissing?”

“Yeah?” 

His voice sounds an octave higher, can’t even play it off. He looks up this time, sees how Jimin’s face is practically a tomato by now.

“Okay.. yeah. Let’s try.”

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