Fucking hell. How am I supposed to look him in the eye now? (Patreon)

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“You what?”

Yeah, he expected this reaction. 

“You dated Jeongguk and you never bothered to tell me? Or anyone?”

“I.. just.. didn’t think it mattered. When I moved away I thought I’d never see him again.”

Taehyung blinks a few times, jaw on the floor. 

Jimin sighs, leans against the doorframe of Taehyung’s room, runs his hands over his face.

“It wasnt like we.. date— dated. I mean— it was just a month of.. like.. crushing hard, and then my family found out.”

“Still, we were all friends then— I mean I even talk to Jeongguk every now and then, yet you nevermentioned it, neither of you.”

“Well yeah because I broke his heart and crushed it.” 

It’s hard even now, that day. Jeongguk’s big brown eyes welling up with tears, his lip trembling a bit. 

He slides down the doorframe and sits down on the floor, pulls his knees up to rest his forehead on them.

“I can’t believe it. That’s why you were so awkward tonight? That’s why you basically dragged me home?”

“Yeah..”

He bites the inside of his cheek, lifts his head to look at Tae, who just sighs and shakes his head, leans back on his bed.

“So you can’t make up with him?”

“I mean.. I broke his heart, and then started dating this girl to set things right with my parents..” 

It’s all so stupid in hindsight, none of it had to happen if he’d just had a backbone. 

“I mean.. fucking hell. How am I supposed to look him in the eye now?”

It’s already been done. Irreversible. 

Nothing can bring back starry eyed, rosy-cheeked Jeongguk. 

And he doesn’t think he has the heart to face him again.

“But you two.. talked?”

“Barely. He told me to say hi to my girlfriend.. and asked if I was happy in Seoul. I didn’t even have the decency to say sorry, or that I don’t have a girlfriend anymore.”

“But do you think you could make up, or maybe.. like, be civil? Cause I kind of asked everyone at the bar to come to the beach this weekend, including Jeongguk.”

Oh.

He looks at Taehyung, practically feels the blood drain from his face. 

“Really?”

“Yeah, I was just so happy to see everyone again, and I.. thought you’d like a trip down memory lane, go to the beach in Busan.. but if you don’t wanna go..”

Oh.. fuck.

Not the beach.. 

“And— Jeongguk agreed?”

“Yeah, like, even after he saw you..”

That’s even worse.

Jeongguk agreed to go to the beach with him? What is his plan? To just ignore each other all day? Doesn’t he remember the memories they made there?

He runs a hand through his hair, sighs then.

Not going means he’s gonna have to hang out in Taehyung’s parents house, and it’s not like there aren’t any memories in this place either.. so

“Fine.. I’ll come..”

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