Duty or Fear (Bad Rat? Song) (Patreon)

if you're just here for the TG, please feel free to disregard!

hey folks.  I'm beginning my transformation into a vampire to avoid the daytime temperatures in my non-air conditioned house, and I've become sufficiently deranged that I wrote, recorded, mixed and mastered an entire song in the last 3 or so hours, so uh... before I listen to it in another setting and decide I need to make 10000 tiny changes, please enjoy some raw grumpy boldly putting the bridge at the beginning of a song with no chorus 

lyrics:

when its so hard

to go outside

take a picture

when its only right to lie

cause it’s so hard

to go outside

take a brand new life

take a brand new lease on time

its getting harder to hear anything

its getting harder to feel anything

its getting harder to know which way I came from

if I ever should go back

its getting harder to find the right medicine

it’s getting harder to heel and so I’m digging in

dust flies from the mountainside

come cover me up come cover me up now

its getting harder to know which way to turn

its getting harder to know which bridge to burn

I haven’t set foot on one in years

it’s getting harder to sleep the more I’m sleeping in

its getting harder to write just how I’m feeling

when I haven’t heard a good word in weeks

(is it love?)

is it love that keeps me here?

is it trust, duty or fear?