I Can’t, I Just Can’t - F4A - Emotional - Saying Nothing Is Breaking Me (Patreon)

I can’t sleep. Again. You’re in my head and I can’t get you out. I’ve tried everything... distractions, silence, even pretending you never meant that much. But you do. You do and you don’t even know. I stare at the ceiling and whisper your name like it might answer back. I trace your voice in my memory and pretend it’s real. I want to ask if you think of me too. I want to believe I matter to you. But if I ask, I ruin everything. So I stay here, quiet. Obsessing. Imagining. Loving you alone.

✧･ﾟ Meet the Players ･ﾟ✧

🧑‍🎤 Speaker Teaser

I’ve memorised the way your voice sounds in my head. I know it’s not healthy. But it’s all I have of you.

🎧 Listener Teaser

You don’t know how much space you take up inside me. Every thought, every silence, every aching breath… it’s you. Always you.

✧ Filed Under: This Is What You’re In For ✧

[F4A] I Can’t, I Just Can’t [Angst][Crushing on You][Confession][Adoration][Do You Think of Me?][Insomnia][You Take up All the Space in My Head][What if You Don’t Feel the Same?][Totally Normal Behaviour at 3AM][This Is Fine (It’s Not)][You’ve Ruined My Sleep Schedule][It’s Fine, I’m Fine, Everything’s Fine][I Could Say Something… but No][This Is a Problem and It’s You][I’m Literally Talking to My Ceiling][Please Be Thinking of Me Too][Yearning][Anxious][Lonely][Smitten][Overwhelmed][Tender][Bittersweet][Vulnerable][Restless][Infatuated][Gender Neutral][if I Knew You Weren’t Thinking of Me… I Think I’d Fall Apart]

⚠︎ Read Me Before You Regret It ⚠︎

Trigger Warnings: emotional instability, unreciprocated affection, obsessive thought patterns, insomnia

✧ Just One Question... ✧

If I started a conversation with “Hey, do you ever feel like someone’s living in your skull rent-free but also setting things on fire while they’re at it,” would you think I was mad... or would you answer honestly?