August Life Update (Patreon)

So what have I been doing? Well, I learned how to build a stone & mortar wall in my backyard over the last 4 months.

I still have about 2 hours of work left in the back (where you can't see) but, wow, that was a massive undertaking! It's something I wanted to learn to do for the last 5 years but never had the time or motivation. But since this year turned into a year of waiting, teeter-tottering back and forth between anxiety and boredom, I suddenly found myself with all the time I needed. And this rock-wall project definitely helped me take my mind off things, not to mention it will increase the value of my house that I need to sell soon. 

I hear that PTSD symptoms include "A sense of anxiety or apprehension of 'waiting for the other shoe to drop.'" And yeah, I can definitely say I have been feeling that as I wait to be able to move on with my life. We finally have a court date for the divorce and it is exactly one year from the date we separated. So basically I still have another 4 months of waiting and feeling stuck in the mud before I can make any new decisions or plans for my new life. (Sarcastic sounding Yay!)

I don't want this post to come across as a downer though. I have actually been in very good spirits most of the time. I feel free. The future looks bright. It feels like a new lease on life. So many burdens have been lifted that I can't even count them anymore. 

I've also been writing about this whole experience almost every day this month in the form of a novel--one that I will never release, sorry. I'm currently over 90,000 words and I think I'll probably wrap it up at around 120,000. It's been quite rewarding because not only has it helped me see many things in my relationship that were "not as good as I thought" and writing about it all has really helped me clarify and get the swirling thoughts out of my head so I can finally just move on, but it has also been a good exercise in writing--which I'm really enjoying.

Needless to say, I think once this sabbatical year and divorce is finally over, I will be "leaping like a gazelle from the hand of the hunter, like a bird from the snare of the fowler."

I can't wait! 

But I must. 

Anyway, did you see the new link I just posted for Phobos #3? Here it is again if you missed it in the announcement post: https://indyplanet.com/rfufwwyle3outp6vek2t

I wish I had more cool new comic-related news to share with you but I don't. There are amazing things happening in the background but I can't share any of it just yet. But you will be the first ones to know! :)

Thanks again for your support this year! See you in the next update!

Jason