Dec 21th (Life) Update (Patreon)

Hey everyone!

It's me again. I want to say once again that the billing cycle is still paused for December and it will resume next year and the Lien-da animation i teased a while ago is about to be completed.

I'm making this post public because it's been a very difficult time for me for what concerns my IRL duties and so on...

You could tell from my lack of posts for the prvious months that i had been really busy with duties outside my life as a digital creator... And from that i'm feeling very burned out and depressed as a person, as a human being. I poured all my heart, soul, time and energies for something that wasn't worthwhile at all. I feel miserable, used and all my efforts didn't make any difference at all. I overworked my ass for nothing and i feel like i wasted my time in vain. What i thought was solid ground is all gone now and i dealt for months with a toxic environment that tried all it could to make me fail and it did eventually. It should have been a second chance to take my life back and i failed once again for reasons above me and my comprehension. I loved the activities i used to do there and i was so happy and grateful at first, only realizing later i was just a number, i was worthless, just a cog in a twisted machine that screws lots of people every year while trying to save face with bright colours, a false friend-like behaviour and cheerful tunes. It took me in, chewed and spit me out and i feel like there's no place for me in this world. I feel sorry for venting, but i hope you could understand what i'm going through at the moment, since it still hurts so bad and i feel so much anger and frustration at the thought alone.

What i'm really thankful for is my family, friends and you people who always gave me support and somehow made me feel alive and not just breathing. I had to make though decisions as a creator this year and, despite it's not enough for me to make a living off that, it still paid off from a creative standpoint. I don't want to be labelled as a Sonic or a MLP creator anymore and this was my chance to revitalize my creative force. And next year i'll try to expand my boundaries even more. As long as i have people appreciating my work for my vision, it will always feel worthwhile in spite of any income it may derive from it. It's been probably one of the best years so far since i started and i have lots of new content in the works. I can't wait for them to be released.

I'll finish this post wishing you a Merry Christmas and a Happy new year, hoping everything will be alright.

Virtual Hugs and Love you all on behalf of NecessaryEvilProductions.