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Still alive. Not having good writing month obviously. Lots of news.

RE: Trailer Trash

Webtoon for RE: Trailer Trash is debuting in less than a month, on October 24th of this year. Was just informed recently. Webtoon did not reach out to me or Aethon for input or consultation throughout production, so I haven't seen any art or test pieces or sketches. No clue how it will be, but I want to hope it will be good.

All of the webfic sections I've attempted to write this month were garbage and are scrapped, additionally I'm going to remove the two Chapter 53 sections that are up and redo all of that fresh.

AnimeCon Harem

Royal Road is integrating their mobile app in the next month and stories with 18+ content will mostly be removed from general searches / basic discoverability. Not their fault really, it's policy that has to do with the play app store that adult content has to be gated in certain ways. As one of the last public fic sites I still have AnimeCon posted to, decided this was the best time to start pulling the fic everywhere and put it to Kindle Unlimited.

So, have signed AnimeCon Harem with Mango Media (new indie publisher set up by Selkie of BtDeM renown) as he offered much better terms than MoonQuill and, more importantly, Selkie has actually already read AnimeCon Harem and was very keen on publishing it.

A Volume 1 was submitted that encompasses the first 34 chapters (excluding the secret chapter arc material), so--from Before the Convention all the way to Fierce Maiden, so the alleyway scare is resolved and book one ends on Kelly and Stephanie determining that the girl who tried to fuck Steph over is likely Chloe, and that Chloe's stolen Brian's phone. The manuscript was already worked through by Mango's editor and sent back to me, I checked through it and approved it and sent it back.

Selkie wasn't thrilled with the Deryl covers I had been commissioning and insisted on contacting some of the previous artists we've tried as well as trying out things with his own BtDeM artist. As far as I know Phuthieu rejected him, Aslothbeing wasn't communicative, and so we're going with Selkie's artist. Test work was sent in early this morning:

WIP and all details subject to change. This does mean I'm shelving any future Deryl Arrazaq commissions for more AnimeCon Harem art, though I may contact him again in the future to try again for RE: Trailer Trash cover art.

AnimeCon Harem Visual Novel

September was one of our worst months for game asset progress, as Basem still had orders closed, Goorie had another large project that took up most of the month, and YeMcBear some small time off from back-to-back orders for her birthday. Likewise Tennessee submitted two tracks for Sep, but I only posted up one of them as she hadn't completed vocals for the second one. She assures me the vocals version is almost ready and that it won't delay the tracks we have ordered for October. Basem also is back now and we have a bg illustration order in (Atrium), and Goorie is back and working on a large animation for us for October rather than multiple smaller animated loop orders.

Personal Situation

Things haven't been good lately. I was perhaps overly optimistic about the sale of the new mobile home and reality had some harsh lessons for me. Offered $24.5k cash (all my savings) for the new place, seller accepted offer and the realtor he's using made up a sale agreement that we both signed. Well, problem is the seller did not / does not actually even own the mobile home, and he then supposedly had to scramble to try to purchase the title from the bank so that he could sell it to me.

The seller is the trailer park owner, owns all the lots and collects rent but (in practice usually) does not own the mobile homes. He is in some sort of program with the bank to get mobile homes sold and guarantee loans for that. Only problem is, while seller was very interested in $24.5k cash, bank was not. Bank prefers people take out long term loans so they can collect a ton of interest off of that. So, seller immediately tried to shut out the realtor he hired and have me just send him the money on a "trust me, bro" as he continues to try to buy the title from the bank, at which point he's fine with me starting to move in and will then hand me the title whenever that manages to go through with the bank finally selling it.

Since then I've just gotten variations of "yeah sale should go soon through, I'll def have the title for you in a few more days"... since the tail end of June. I insisted on keeping the realtor the seller hired involved, as he was the only one I trusted to make sure everything legit, we wound up having to make an extension of the sale agreement as the previous one expired... and now the extension is about to also expire, today. Seller still trying to stall, still saying "should have the title from them in a few weeks probably," I'm just increasingly skeptical the bank's ever going to sell him the title.

I had already spent my time packing up everything and preparing to move, because this shitheap I'm in currently will not weather another winter here. It has further deteriorated and everyone has continued to advise me not to bother putting any money into it, as it's an extremely neglected mobile home from 1972 that at best has had continuous jury-rigged repairs from the previous occupants. Two windows remain, rest are boarded up or band-aided over with insulation and tape. Very few working outlets remain. The ceiling in the back room collapsed, the ceilings in the middle and main room were torn out a few years ago when a pipe up there burst and flooded the ceiling. Extreme water damage throughout to roof, ceilings, walls, floors. Significant structural damage--you start to get the picture. I need the fuck out of here.

On top of that--

While I was very lucky to find a home for the recent new kitten that dropped into my life, the weeks he was here brought fleas inside. My mishmash of carpet atop padding atop patchwork particleboard and plywood fix floor means flea powder and vacuuming can't remove the infestation (although sustained sub zero winter temps usually will). I have Advantage Plus II on my indoor cats, they're due for their second dose in a few days... but it's pretty bad here. I haven't been letting them in my room so that I can maybe have less fleas in where I sleep and work, but the flea trap lamp in here is still showing fifteen or so more new catches every day.

/// TLDR; Extremely stressed, all of my belongings are packed up and with nowhere to go, very little sleep, I want to say I've been feeling depressed but it's probably more accurate that I'm just filled with incomprehensible rage at everything lately. When I try to write everything turns out like shit, and the longer I go without having posted up a writing section the more tense I feel about that.

Definitely don't blame anyone for unpledging when I have a bad writing month and nothing is getting posted. I do appreciate everyone's support for getting me this far. I'm very sorry and frustrated that I can't just get through the final bits of AnimeCon when we're so fucking close to just being able to wrap it, likewise seething that I'm not able to start off the "Tabitha back to school but this time things are different" bit I'd been looking forward to for ages for RE:TT.

Hope everyone is staying well through difficult times. I am not and have not been okay, but will survive and pull on through to better times.

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V01D

Every time I see someone say ‘I’m alive’ after a hiatus, I mentally Insert “I live” & “deceptiocons, I have returned” meme/video.

Jojiro

It sounds like you've had a time of it. I'm honestly impressed at the plates you've still got spinning, if I'm honest, rather than disappointed that this one plate I care about most (Trailer Trash) has stopped spinning. Hang in there!

Sean

Take your time. I'm moving now too and hating every second of it. That seller sounds like an idiot and you'd be better off looking for a new home. As for the chapters I might be a minority here but I don't mind waiting. When you put out a chapter it's usually long enough to draw me in and 'get my fix' for the story.

Bilfdoffle

Thanks for the update! Good luck

Mocherthrath

We're still here. Life is tough. Just take care of life. You're health physical, mental and spiritual are more important.

Tom Onderwater

Lots of love to you and the cats. Life can suck donkey balls sometimes. But RE:TT is the best thing I've read in a long time and, no matter how long it takes to get there, I'll be here to see the end of it.

Zach

Of people still giving him money every month, I don't think that's the minority. Of people who enjoyed any of his work? Yeah, that's a much larger group than us.

Toodles McGhee

Funny, you're anxious that you're not doing enough and I spent the first half reading all the different things going on and thinking maybe you needed to slow down a bit! On the house - don't give the guy any money. As a former realtor, I can also say that the realtor and their broker are in Big Trouble for not doing due diligence to make sure they really represented the owner. I would suggest buying from the bank, even with interest - but check for prepayment penalty. Then, after closing, you can pay it off as fast as you like/are comfortable with. But cut out the middle man: even if the 1% chance he's not a crook is real, he's just costing you money - he's paying the bank less than you're paying him, and the realtor gets something too. But Realtor and Seller have both already committed fraud, even if things were to work out from here.

pyropyro

Glad that you're still around, I hope things get better for ya

Smartjedi

Damn, Forty, hang in there man. Life sounds real rough now. Your transparency and personal updates are always appreciated and I hope you pull through soon.

Smartjedi

Regarding the AnimeCon Harem cover - I think Selkie's artist is putting in great work here. I commented on a prior art commission for what would have been volume 4(?) and mentioned that I didn't quite jive with the artsyle. This new one is probably my favorite from any of the covers across your works. That said, I'm just one data point, so keep in mind how you feel. And if you are going for market appeal then what would sell best rather than just the vocal Patreon minority.

Zach

Fleas in the walls is really such a thing on top of everything else, wow. Not to give unsolicited advice, but I hope you're finding time & energy do centering activities like having a picnic in a park or something.

benjamin shropshire

Yeah, this. At a minimum, I'd want to make sure the seller is *actually* talking to the bank (i.e. ask the bank, not the seller or their agent). You might also want to at least price out what it would cost to get a realtor who's working for you. Lastly, if the the seller is going to be your landlord, this isn't going to be your last interaction. If they are messing with you now, don't expect them to change their spots. (Also, don't piss them off if you are still going through with buying.)

Tempest

I wouldn't stress about not being able to write too much. Don't know about everyone else but I support you cause I want RE: Trailer Trash to exist and eventually, one day be finished. As long as you're around and doing alright doesn't matter much to me if you have an off month or two. Just take care of yourself first and foremost, everything else can come in time. Hope thing get better for you.

Mark Adkins

I feel it is part of my duty and a patron to support the artist when things are tough. I wish I had the resources to do so at a higher level or could commit to the long haul, but Re: is one of my favorite stores so I am going I can see it through.

Karl W Justice

I wish I could help with everything, but I can at least offer some advice on how to deal with the fleas. We had a problem with them a few years back, and what seemed to do the most to help is getting a big bag of Diatomaceous Earth, and making a mixture of mostly that with some salt (I think finer grade salt works better but it shouldn't matter), and sprinkling that liberally on carpets, under furniture, and in apholstry crevasses. It's completely pet safe, but it is scratches the exoskeleton of bugs and makes them dehydrate to death. Especially the tiny baby ones you cant see. Might feel a bit dusty to start, but we found it worked it's way into cracks and slowly works away at any kind of bug infestation. Hope everything turns around for you soon. And I'm looking forward to the webtoon (though why on earth wouldn't they involve you??). I'll be ordering whatever Animecon books you put out too.

Thomas Pruckner

Oh dang. I hope things get better Forty! Take the time you need to figure all those problems out - it's sad that you have to worry about so many things at once. Take care of yourself too man, your mind & soul When everything has calmed down and you feel secure in all those things again, just take some more time off for yourself. Only write if you really need to. The people who love your series will stay and wait for your stories and those who leave will come back because we all love what you do. Focus on the most important thing: yourself Without you and your joy for writing we would not get any more of these stories. So, egotistically speaking: Take all the time you need to figure things out and to get to your "writing Best" - because we want to know and read and experience more of what you do! Love and support for you in these hard times! Stay strong and take care of yourself!

Mazoyer

I didn’t even think a second about unpledging. I really hope your home situation will turn out ok soon and that you will be able to move in quickly. That’s the more important things. That vendor doesn’t seem correct. Why isn’t he taking a loan to buy the title from the bank ? And reimburse it (or not). That would get you out of that mess with the title and let him deal with the bank. Anyway, hold on bro’ and don’t give up. I can wait :-)

Chad L.

I realize that people can have lots of 'feelings' about Patreon tiers, so maybe you truly don't want to do this.... But it would be nice to have some higher tiers available. Its not uncommon to for other authors to have higher tiers that don't offer more content - maybe some intangibles like a named character or a cameo. Or maybe just a big ThankYou! I'm looking for an easier way to contribute to an author whose work I enjoy....

Marcus Cassin

Anybody who unsubscribes from you better be in the middle of their own life shaking crisis. If you like someone enough to support them on patreon, I would hope you would continue to support them while they're getting their feet under them. I really hope things go well working with Selkie, they seem pretty respected in the community. You deserve to make huge sums of money for what you've already written, and then to get somewhere more comfortable so you can continue to write more, so it can bring you even more money. Best of luck!

Frederick Michael Carl Frederickson

I second what Benjamin said, definitely don't piss off the guy who is going to be your landlord. Given everything he's done so far, I would be searching for alternatives.

Myob Myob

‘Yeah. Trust me, bro.’ Famous words that have caused me to run away — very fast — from any number of people intent on using me up. This ‘bro’ sounds terminally skeezy.

Maxime Teppe

I've joined after reaching the end of the trailer trash chapters on RR. While the advance chapters are nice, it's reading about your living conditions, in endnotes and between the lines of the chapter that pushed me to support you. Hope you'll fall on your feet. BTW, haven't read Animecon, however, the new art looks promising compared to what little I've seen of the previous artists. the construction and posing are good. I think it would benefit from a bit more color overall. Nothing garish but making the reds pop, maybe trading the beige background for soft purples or blues would help skin tones stand out from the background...

Stuart T

Record EVERY conversation you have with this guy. You want as big of a safety net as you can get when dealing with 'trust me with all your cash because we shook hands' people. What's worse is he runs the park you're trying to move to. I don't know what kind of authority that gives him but it'll be more than you have as a potential resident.

Jeanie6754

*hugs* I hope things turn around for you soon. Hoping for better days for you soon. Try to keep your head up in the meantime. I know you will bound to have a big breakthrough soon and lots of success.

qxvw198

I've been here a good long while and plan to continue despite your difficult month.

MVFast

Don’t worry about me un-pledging!

Dashinhi

How did you do that? I went looking for that option, but it won't let me enter in anything - the only option is the default. I even dropped down a tier, hoping to get the option to pledge a custom amount, but no dice, even when I went back up.

Stuart

Hang in there. Great writing amid trying times. YeMcBear’s work is great… nicely rendered and so consistent. Will continue to support… just nice to make a small contribution.

McGddson

Hang in there, friend!! You're a frickin genius and you'll find the way out of the woods. Wouldn't dream of unpledging over a very understandable life distraction like this. Also, if we're thinking about your writing and not your well-being in general, the best you could do for your long-term writing is to get a comfortable, predictable and safe living situation. I'd understand very well even if you had to take a significant amount of time off to get things sorted and ground yourself again. Glad to hear you've got the sound judgement and negotionary runway (that's not a word) to not fall for this guy's empty promises. Hope you've got some solid people in your life to digest and develop these plans with. You've definitely got the savings to find temporary solutions for avoiding a rough winter, but I understand extremely well that a solid long-term solution is preferable. Big hugs from Norway and crossing my fingers for you finding a good solution to this!

Khuri

You keep doing you 40. Focus on yourself man. You need a stable living spot so you can keep up the excellent writing man. We are here to support you however you need.

Jostikas

On the app, under "Membership options" for 464 (which you presumably found) in the top right corner is a menu (three dots) that has the option to "Edit $5 pledge". That takes you to a separate page where you can enter a custom value.

Morfi Morfiaczny

Let's be real, I'm a little peeved about the Trailer Trash but can understand that there can be days, weeks, months and even years when things keep you down. I'm no fairweather donor and hope that the bad days will end for you and you will go back with energy and zeal to writing it. I hope that when you do, you will shower us with new chapters.

Dashinhi

Thank you, Jostikas. I would not have found that, as I did not have the app installed, and my initial reaction was, "Oh, FFS, yet ANOTHER app that needs to be installed and managed?!?!" I remember when it was possible to select a custom pledge value on the website, but I guess Patreon is getting prepared to follow the Way of Enshittification. At least from my persepective.

rhs2042

Sending positive thoughts, vibes, and prayers for you.

Team Armored Heart

I know what it feels like to hit a slump, and my reasons for it are way less severe than yours! I'm sticking around, you are good people and a damn good writer. Best of luck and hope things turn around for you soon!

McGddson

Is there a way to up my pledge for some months by the way? Someone in the comments know a fancy trick for this? 😊♥️

Dashinhi

You have to use the app to do that. Tip o' the hat ta Jostikas, who explained it to me in an earlier comment response. You have to go into Membership Options in the app, then you can edit your pledge tier contribution using the more options-type tray. Looks like three dots or lines - I don’t recall exactly which, but that's how you get a custom pledge amount. Should process the additional right then, so you don't have to wait and wonder if you did it right!

McGddson

Good stuff, thanks!! Let’s get our good friend and literary benefactor some extra dinaros to comfortably afford some pleasant winter living!! 😊♥️

MTGamer

We all have hard times bro. Keep trucking along, I'll be here waiting :3

Chiarob317

In terms of the real estate I would say do not but from that guy. Once he has your money he doesn’t have to do anything. Rule of thumb always be willing to walk away. See if your Realtor knows anything about rural construction loans. There’s a lot of plans about helping out first time home buyers.

Delta

Seconding this - timing is important but it might be better to crash at a hotel for a bit than get screwed out of down payments and such. People can be shady!