June Update + July Plans (Patreon)

Long time coming and late to the game! Been a very introspective month...

This is basically just a long blog post to say June is coming along, basically just need to figure out backgrounds. July I'll be skipping a poll to follow my instincts and draw what calls to me <3 If you're morbidly curious about what this depressed boy has been thinking of, read on~ (pics at the end)

Dear Patreon Diary,

I think I'm falling back into a lot of bad patterns I've been spending this year trying to shake. Constantly doubting myself and my choices, reworking my Patreon rewards again and again because I'm always in a state of "I want to justify my existence to these people who support me". I work myself into a tizzy throwing all these expectations on myself... Is this all because I wanted to draw Chris and Leon together for that Pride month poll but ended up deciding they work better as two separate pics after like a half dozen different iterations? at least 40% that, yes.But for real, I think the past couple of months I've been trying to mimic how I used to be back at my previous peak. I've even been watching some old favourites as BG sound and I realized I'm drawn to a particular kind of story. Drop Dead Diva and Samantha Who?, both shows about girls with forms of amnesia trying to become better versions of themselves with their second chance at life. I think I'm kinda in that place in my artistic growth. I can't keep leaning on my old crutches like running polls and asking people to just tell me what to draw. I need to just DRAW. Because maybe two/three years ago I worked best when fulfilling peoples desires but right now I need to just do what comes naturally to me, and figuring out what exactly that is for the Jim of 2026. 😅 So whatever comes out of my mind in the coming months I hope you'll enjoy <3 No promise it'll be any good but... maybe I should give myself permission to make some duds, as a treat

What's Next?

Anyhow I do actually really like how July's rewards are coming along (especially the Leon/Mr. X pic). Y'all will get some Redneck Rick in his updated Pride shirt

a Chris Redfield Pride pin-up based on his RE5 design (which, imho, was his hottest iteration)

Leon being paraded around by Mr. X

and for my $10+ patrons I'm doing some selfcest fun with Adam and He-Man which I can't post here because this is a SFW post and I need to do that variant for them still >:) Going into July since it's a real time crunch now I just gotta go dumb and goony, to use today's lingo, and draw some super muscular men doing slutty slutty things. My City actually does Pride events in July and is currently covered in wildfire smoke so... perhaps a perfect recipe for inspiration. Or perhaps just an example of pathetic fallacy 😅 I want to explore kinkier art though so... if it gets kinda weird blame all my art friends telling me it's okay to do nasty fetish art🤗🌈 And if it's still kinda vanilla blame my deep seeded Catholic shame (I'm not Catholic but I relate to their shame deeply). If you want proof of how repressed I am go peep the fact I'm too shy to post the F-slur on the Patreon versions of those Rick and Leon pics 🤣