Update and Resolution (Patreon)

hey everybody, after the last 5 days I've come to make a decision on something going forward, a bit of information so if you are new and don't know what's happened you're gonna be fully informed

I have health issues, a procedure I was doing that helped with my pain a doctor decided it wasn't good enough and forced me to consider alternatives for my pain management in the long process of getting all that done in the hopes of getting my procedure as well. Then the insurance i have decided it will no longer cover this procedure/doctor so even though I put the work in I now can't even afford to have the procedure done. So my health struggles have become more real and far more unnecessary when I had a treatment that was having me more pain free and taking less pain medication but screw me i guess.

Last year around this time I was faced with a serious legal issue causing me to get lawyers do paperwork and basically deal with a lot of stress. In the middle of this process I was served and had to face other legal matters and the intimal lawyers I hired couldn't help me. So I had to open up a bunch of emergency commissions to get the ball rolling on the legal stuff to have everything handled. Of course just paying the money didn't end anything I had to fight and struggle and deal with a whole bunch of stuff for months everything ended in my favor but the fallout still happened and i've been struggling to catch up while dealing with more family issues.

I have done my best, I've fought with my family on the issues going on in this house my issues have been dismissed and ignored, but the weight of everything has slowly been crushing me and without the better treatment option my health issues have continued to be a problem. This with the growing stress and dealing with family I've hit the point where I can't continue like this anymore

Which brings us to the last couple of months, I put my family on notice that I couldn't live like this anymore I was getting overwhelmed and overly stressed about everything and getting no support in this house. I told them I would pause June payments if the backlog wasn't reduced significantly they ignored my warnings and then my health took a bad turn

for some of you who know, I had a mass, the scans saw it, I was told it could be a couple of things but the pain increase and stress hit me and threw a tail spin into my life. The mass was benign but I had to take special medicine to treat everything which made me extra sick for days. With my pain cranked up I had to take more pain medicine and do multiple treatments to try to get it down to manageable levels again. I hit a point where I thought I could turn things around but my family kept messing with me so I warned them that july would be paused as well, they panic'd and began to try and guilt trip me but I was done despite a couple of issues I hoped things would turn around so I kept july open and my family immediately made me regret trusting them and thinking they finally understood because the last 5 days have been a master class of stupidity on their part, on top of things that do just happen but with the amount of crap i'm dealing with I could not handle it anymore

my plan was to turn off august payments but I don't wanna have to keep doing this on again off again I need consistency in my life on something. and I refuse to go the nuclear option because I feel that isn't fair to anyone and everyone who have patiently waited while I've jumped through the burning hoops of shit that have become my life.

So I've come to the end of my options, if my family isn't gonna respect me or the money I bring into this house then I'm gonna give it back to the people who showed up and actually tried to help me during that difficult time. But I'm done apologizing, this isnt' what I wanted and I've tried to do the right thing but its felt like every choice i make is wrong. But this is something I feel is right.

Come August if things haven't improved I'll be issuing refunds to settle the writing backlog, and i'll be including a coupon/voucher as my last apology in the hopes there won't be bad blood between us and they'll consider commissioning me in the future once things have got a bit more in order. I never wanted this any of this from the time I got hurt I've felt trapped and without you guys I honestly wouldn't be here anymore. The cancer scare was a bit beyond my control, but other things have been choices forced on me by family and I'm done I want to grow my business I want to be able to do my patreon stuff and do commission work and have some spending money which will technically be used in helping grow my business so it is what it is. I had finally reached 500 dollars a month and even more but I can't blame anyone who walked away something has to give and while I plan to work my tails off trying to settle things properly if I can't and my family continues to play games I'll be starting the refund process and giving back