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Plight of the Artist (Patreon)

Published:
2024-07-30 09:45:21
Edited:
2024-07-30 10:11:21
Imported:
2026-06
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I'm an artistOf sortsLeast I tryBut latelyI've had troubleGetting byThe song is my head doesn'tFit on the pageAnd my best efforts yetLeave me in a blind rageAnd I don'tWantToContinue beating myHead against a wallThe harder I tryThe more I see flaws and allAnd I don't want to cry orSleep any less than I doBut I want to please youMy adoring fansWho praise and delightIn the things that I makeThough I don't think it's rightBecause sometimes I'll goTwo three weeks with nothingOh nothing oh nothingOh nothing to showFor itI am an artistAnd I try my bestBut these words in my headAre some sort of testAnd try as I mightIt won't come out rightAnd I am an artistWho stays up late at nightAnd I don'tWantToContinue beating myHead against a wallThe harder I tryThe more I see flaws and allAnd I don't want to cry orSleep any less than I doBut I want to please youThe plight of the artistIs not quite a scienceAnd try as we mightThere is no right or wrongJust better or worseThis gift is a curseAnd the music in my heartWon't sing, I can't startAnd I want to do betterMuch better for youMy adoring fans coming out of the blueSo please now be patientThe muses are shyAnd push and I push forNo matter I tryThey'll hide and they'll screamWhen I'm begging for me‘Cause try as I mightTheir lips oh their lipsHave been sealed so tightAnd I don'tWantToContinue beating myHead against a wallThe harder I tryThe more I see flaws and allAnd I don't want to cry orSleep any less than I doBut I want to please you

Comments

apmoore94

Thank you for sharing this! This was some really good insight into the mind of an artist.

Charli Morgan

I just want to make myself happy with what I make. 🥲 The funny thing is that there are so many things wrong with Orbital Artillery, but it's still one of my best performing songs. And I...I don't get it. Are people not noticing everything wrong with it? From a technical perspective, it is the absolute bottom of everything I have on YouTube, but it's loved. What does that mean? Why can't I love my own things as much as everyone else does? Is this what it is to create things that have no inherent value? Why are we here? Just to suffer?

V

I may be an adoring fan, but art takes time! You make music so often and so much of it is really good! I'm very proud of you for everything you do!

Charli Morgan

Why is everyone so nice? 😭❤️❤️❤️

apmoore94

I think, to put it simply, as an artist, you will always be your own worst critic. You alone know what goes on behind the scenes, so you alone see the percieved flaws. And I think people love it because, despite it's flaws, it's an absolute BANGER. As far as making yourself happy with what you've created, we can't help you too much, that's up to you. I've been to some very dark places before, being a prior 911 Dispatcher and Firefighter, and found my own methods to make me happy with what I do. But everyone is different. And I would beg to differ on saying your creations have no inherent value, as I'm sure many others in here would agree. ❤️

Charli Morgan

You were a dispatcher? Oh my god, are you okay? That sounds rough, and I'm saying that as a former social worker who's seen some shiiiiiiiiit

V

Because we love you

V

Of course 🫂

apmoore94

Lol yeah. Police/Fire/EMS, all of that I dispatched for. And yeah, between that and being a Volunteer Firefighter at the same time, it was rough. 😅

apmoore94

Nah, I started doing it because I found more happiness in helping others when I couldn't make myself happy. Sure, it was rough, but I still have that attitude through today. I love giving people a little bit of kindness when they're down and need it! ❤️

apmoore94

Thank you! I try to be, but it's not up to me to decide if I am or not. Just know you're a damn good artist, and we love your creations!

Ian Rencsak
>>145065930

Right there with you on that, I work in a field to help others too, that light I feel doing what I do makes that difference. Man's right btw Charli, you are a damn good artist, and I'm fairly certain we're all here because we love what you make. 🤘

Boxlord Chester

Can't say I understand the pressure of song writing but I do understand how tough it is to create somthing so have a coffee and a tasty muffin and know that everyone here is rooting for you! ❤️

La Vida Awesome (edited)

Comment edits

2026-09-06 06:00 Without getting too far into the weeds, I still struggle with complications from multiple TBIs. It seems to manifest itself very similar to adult ADHD, and for whatever reason, your music is the best source of dopamine I’ve found to help with mood regulation. I’m humbled, grateful, and honored to be able to give back a little to a very talented young lady who does so much for so many people. You are special, whether you believe it or not
2024-07-30 14:10

apmoore94

I'm with you on that one. Everything I've listened to, even White Noise, is an immense source of dopamine for me lately. Helping to give back, even just a tiny bit, is worth it.

La Vida Awesome
>>145080718

Amen, Brother! Charli is a very special breed of artist! White Noise and Klendath/Lunabella have a very special place in my heart…

Aruganis

So I'm going to tell you what I tell my partner every time she struggles with her sketches: It's okay to take your time. The more you hyper focus on it, the more you force yourself, the more issues you will find and the more you will hate it. If it's not working, take a break and try something different. But also remember, just like many others have said, you will always be the one judging what you make the harshest, since you will be able to see every little thing going on with it. Most of us won't. So it is okay if there are issues and if something isn't perfect. All that matters if that you are happy with it and having fun making it. I'm pretty sure the vast majority of your fans will enjoy just about anything you put out, because we enjoy your style, we enjoy the themes. So like it's been said many times, don't beat yourself up over it. Do what makes you happy, and do it at your own pace. We'll be here, waiting eagerly, but patiently for every release. And now that my half-asleep rambling of support is over, I'm going back to bed. Don't forget to have fun and pet your cats. Especially Empress Zelda.