Paint Me, Nikki. (Patreon)

I don't know if any of you have ever fallen in love with an artist, but it's...it's a special thing. I feel like I could justify any expense if it meant she would make something that I could only see through her eyes.I look at how she draws me, how every detail of my face is accounted for and I feel like I'm looking into the Magic Mirror. It's me, but just idealized enough to where I see the potential of my beauty without thinking that it's so far removed from reality that I have never—nor did, ever—look like that. Yes, I send her the absolute best pictures of myself that have ever existed of me in my prime, but still, I could stare at them for hours because her drawings make me happy. Not just the ones that are me, but all of them. I trust her with my image. I trust her with my brand.It's a very big number, but it's worth it to me. I love her work and I always will.And that's why... [okay, big reveal] I've been talking to her about drawing nudes. Like pin-ups. Something tasteful—not that you couldn't goon to them, but I would judge you very harshly if you did. I'm going to have them available at a higher tier than $3 because her work isn't cheap, but I also wouldn't feel comfortable selling something like that, and since I can't use them to promote my content anywhere, it's mostly something I've been wanting for me.All of the praise I've received from all of you about my music has done a lot for my self-esteem these last fews months and I want to celebrate myself in a way that pushes my comfort zone just enough to make me feel...like I'm a real artist who's worthy of whatever circumstances I suddenly have found myself in.So when you do see them, please be respectful. This isn't my OnlyFans; I'm a writer and musician, and that's all I will ever be. This is for me because I want to take ownership of my sexuality in a more visual way, as I've been doing it with my music for quite a while, now.When they do come, you're welcome to use them under the personal use license as defined at the bottom of my About Me page, but again, please be respectful because these are portraits of me, a real person, and not some anime wiafu.I love you all,Charli 🤍