🎵 Orbital Artillery: Black Rum (Patreon)

Edit: I need some name suggestions for the song. Be creative. No idea is bad (and if it is, I promise not to tell you).Expect to see very different versions of this(ish) set of lyrics in the next month while I try to figure out which one is my favorite.And sorry, ya'll, but I think I hate my slow/acoustic songs, and that might never change. Love me anyway?[Intro]I don’t even need to feel anythingI don’t even need to feel anythingI don’t even need to feel anythingI don’t even need to feel anything[Verse 1]Hella scared of sleepPressed my lips to the breachI chew the wires neatTasted metal in my speechHealthy habits all gone boomKicked my meds across the roomWould you be mad if I hit send?Would you be mad if I played pretend?Called in fire just to feel the noiseSaid “I’m fine” in a different voiceFlirted with a guided roundDidn’t like it, but I wrote it downSaid “I’m done,” I meant “delay”Stole my feelings, gave ‘em away[Verse 2]Sticky teeth, dry tongueCalled for backup, got no oneDroning buzz that fills my brainMight be God, might be the rainNeeded help, but I just blinkedLaid my head against the sinkTried to stop, then pushed againLied and said it was pretendKinda miss the screaming partKinda miss the button artPainted red all on my screenGuess I’m slipping in betweenI (woo) can’t stop (can’t stop), won’t try to (won’t try to)Can’t stop this, won’t try to (won’t)Don’t mind (don’t mind) if it breaks me (if it breaks me)Don’t ask me why I like it when it takes me (woo)[Chorus]I don’t even need to feel anythingI don’t even need to feel anythingI don’t even need to feel anythingI don’t even need to feel anything[Bridge]Bit the filter, swallowed glassLet the moments clump and passDreamed in colors, woke up grayPiled my clothes and looked awayWould you care if I unplugged?Would you blink if I debugged?Checked my pulse against the sinkCounted backwards, didn’t thinkLeft the message in the draftPressed delete and then I laughedWrote my name inside a cupSpilled it out, watched it fill up[Verse 3]Scratched a pattern in my skinLost the plot, reset againSmiled big, lost my placeChased my thoughts around a faceWould you call it "moving on?"Would you call it "something gone?"Rolled the curtains and unlockedWished for Her and watched the clockTurned the lights off just to seeIf I liked who I could beSwapped the faces, swapped the keysSank beneath the "used to be"[Outro](I don’t even need to feel anything)Turned the lights off just to seeIf I liked who I could be(I don’t even need to feel anything)Why the hell I'm scared of sleep(I don’t even need to think)(I don’t even need to feel anything)Swapped the faces, swapped the keysSwapped the metal in my teeth(I don’t even need to feel anything)Turned the lights off just to seeIf I liked who I could be(I don’t even need to feel anything)Dreamed in colors, woke up grayMight be God, might be the rain(I don’t even need to feel) anything_For my notes: OA_Black Rum, Draft 2, M_01