OA: Black Rum (Patreon)

Originally, this was a Dessy spin-off and it still sort of is, but adding photography references is helping the develop the metaphor... idk what the metaphor is exactly but im liking how this is looking.

[Chorus]I don’t even need to feel anythingI don’t even need to feel anythingI don’t even need to feel anythingI don’t even need to feel anything

[Verse 1]Hella scared of sleepPressed my lips to the breachI chew the wires neatTasted petals in my speechFuck my chill and fuck you tooThrow my meds across the roomWould you be mad if I amend?How about I play pretend?

Called in fire just to feel the noiseSaid "I'm fine" in a different voiceFlirted with the upside downLiked it, so I stuck aroundAm I "done?" I meant "delay"Stole my feelings, best this way

[Verse 2]Look at me, dry tongueCalled for backup, got no oneDroning buzz that fills my brainMight be God, might be the rain

Needed help, but I won't blinkDash my head against the sinkTried to stop, then once againSmash and say it's all pretend

Kinda miss the screaming partKinda miss the button artPainted red all on my screenGuess I’m slipping in between, I

I can’t stop (can’t stop), won’t try to (won’t try to)Can’t stop this, won’t try to (won’t)Don’t mind (don’t mind) if it breaks me (if it breaks me)Don’t ask me why I like it when it takes me!

[Chorus]I don’t even need to feel anythingI don’t even need to feel anything! (I don’t even need to feel anything!)I don’t even need to feel anythingI don’t even need to feel anything

[Bridge]Borrowed someone else’s laughNever kept the photographThe negative is all I saved

Would you care if I unplug?What of face down in the tub?Checked my pulse against the sinkCounted backwards, didn’t think

Left the message in a draftPressed delete so please don't laughWrote my name inside a cupSpilled it out to fill it up

[Breakdown]Wretched pattern in my skinLost the plot, what's new againSmiled till the shutter clickedCouldn’t tell which face I’d pickedWould you call it "moving on?"Would you call it "something gone?"Rolled the curtains, checked the clocksMissed her mouth and missed his cockTurned the lights off just to seeIf I liked who I could beSwapped the faces, swapped the keysSank beneath what used to be

[Final Chorus](I don’t even need to feel anything)Turned the lights off just to seeIf I liked who I could be(I don’t even need to feel anything)Why the hell I'm scared of sleep(I don’t even need to be)(I don’t even need to feel anything)Swapped the faces, swapped the keysSwapped the violence (I can't breath)(I don’t even need to feel anything)Turned the lights off just to seeIf I like who I could be

[Outro](I don’t even need to feel anything)Dream in Ultra, wake up grayMight be God, might be the rain(I don’t even need to feel anything)Droning buzz that fills my brainMight be God, might be the rain

(I don’t even need to feel anything)Might be God, might be the rain(I don’t even need to feel anything)Might be God, might be the rainI don’t even need to feel anythingMight be God, might be the rain!