Here Again (Patreon)

This has been a lot on me/for me/against me for a very long time, more than some of you may be able to comprehend maybe. But I'll likely be taking time to myself properly after this because I never truly actually have. Absence doesn't always mean healing or growth for me and I'm trying to change that. I need it and I hope you can understand. I expect retaliation among other things after speaking about all of this, as it would not be the first time, so I may try to come online to tend to things at some point/s but I do have loved ones in place to do that for me as I have since this happened last year. Please don't be offended if I don't respond to comments or private messages, I haven't in general for the last year (responded to any private messages) or all that many comments because of all this trauma. It doesn't mean I'm any less appreciative or aware, it just means I've been trying to protect my mental and emotional health with newfound boundaries while still trying to show up here and work as best as I could. I'm still not sure how to marry the two but I've tried. I can't continue to perform and pretend through the pain, at this time. I'd rather just actually heal it.

Also, I'm not doing a 10 part series of something I hate revisiting that still affects me. I know not everyone was here for that long or knows of this situation, but if I have to deal with another smear campaign or anything of that nature it'll be pursued through legal action. I've already endured defamation, being cyber bullied, harassment, emotional distress and a smear campaign with my own two hands without it. Moving forward I'm not willing to do a back and forth online. I've had enough and I have enough. A court of law can handle it if need be.

Take care of yourselves, I really mean that, and thank you for everything.