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a mental health update (Patreon)

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2021-02-01 22:03:30
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hi friends! I feel like it wasn't too long ago that I posted a video like this, but it seems a lot of the same things are plaguing my brain. This is a video basically explaining that I hit a sort of breaking point this past weekend, and am gonna be keeping very quiet for a while to realign myself and establish a baseline. I'm still gonna be posting here for you guys, of course, but I'm probably not gonna be posting on Insta, Twitch, or YouTube. I'm in "crisis self care mode" as Connor calls it, and as silly as it feels, I know that if I don't do this now, this cycle will keep repeating for..probably my whole life, lol. 

Also, I did some retail therapy this morning at JOANN, so there's a little yarn haul in there too, hahah. I love y'all a lot, and am so thankful for you guys. You are the very best. <3 

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a mental health update + a surprise yarn haul

love you xxx

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RZD

sending you lots of love Cheyenne! take the time that u need.

Mariah Bolda

Haven’t watched the video yet because I’m in class, but I am sending you lots of virtual hugs! Your mental health is extremely important to us, so please take all the time you need to come back recharged!

Bucky

take as long as you need, your safety and wellbeing are most important 💛

Meeeeeeeeeeer

Hoping rest and sophie kisses can help you return to a comfortable headspace ♥️

Calico Fairy

Lots of love Cheyenne! Take the time that you need for healing 💕✨

Robyn L. Neal

Wishing you the best in your mental health and healing journey. It takes a brave person to slow down when they need it. To take care of the self when you are at this point. I have learned that the hard way too many times. I took the rest of the day off today when my digestion issues peaked and I’m so glad I did. Making things worse by not listening to your body is not helpful.

Nubia Gonzalez

Do what you need to do for your mental health !! I definitely had my breaking point last year and I had to disappear for a while but you know what, it’s helped me tremendously. So whenever you feel ready to come back we will welcome you back with open arms we care about you and your well being ❤️!

Chloe Yeoman

Sending love, you have to do what’s best for you. Take all the time you need. We’ll all still be here when you’re ready to come back! ❤️❤️❤️

Audie Briar Schultz

So glad to be able to help support you so that you are able to take the time you need to process and take care of yourself. That’s more important than pushing out content. Always. Rest up. 🖤

Tate Meredith

LOTS OF LOVE HUNNY BUNNY! 🍯🐰I hope you have a wonderful February to recharge and ground yourself. On a personal note, (because you’ve been so vulnerable with us, I feel the need to reassure you that you’re not alone in these feelings) I’ve been feeling quite the same lately and it really sucks to be at a high point for so long that you feel you’re getting better, only to then have a “reality check” and be right back at square one. I’m really happy that you have a support group to help you through this! It’s also really nice to actually see someone I look up to taking a break and prioritizing their mental health, because it’s something I’ve been struggling with for a long time. More recently, I’ve been doing some therapy and trying my best to keep myself in mind, but I can have bad days. It’s really reassuring to me that I’m not alone in that either. Anyway, sending you and your lil family lots of love and best wishes. I hope you get to give Sophie all the kisses! 💖 (That rhymed lol)

Abby Williams

take the time you need chey. we’ll wait for you and want you to feel your best. feel better!!

Jo Stockdale

you are so wonderful and loved chey, so glad you’re taking this time to do self care!! love you lots honey bun 🍯

Ebone Grayson

Take all the time you need Cheyenne you are an incredibly hard worker and deserve as much time as it takes to rest your mind. I run a small shop and haven't stopped sending preorders since December; sending good vibes and energy ♥♥♥

ErdbeerRei

Take care of yourself and take all the time you need. It's important to put yourself first for a while <3

Monica Pierce

Sending so much love your way Cheyenne, praying for a peaceful and healing rest for you this month!

bri 🪲

we love you chey! sending warm wishes and thoughts of healing. I hope this month is kind to you <33

Sara Pattschull

Take care of yourself. Being a human is so fucking hard. Thinking of you 🧡

Liz

Take care chey! We love and support your healing :) i hope your lovely bee turns out well! (if you need name recs i recommend Burbert)

Lindsay Attaway

Sending love! I can hear the distress in your voice. Take care of yourself! I had a similar experience when I was your age (lol that makes me feel so old - I'm almost 40 now!), and I SO wish I would have stopped and assessed my situation then because it would have lasted so much less time. You're doing the right thing! There is absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about - SO many people, at some point or another, find themselves in similar situations. <3

DonnaLeny Hansen

My love !! take all the time you need and never feel embarrassed, alone or blame yourself for pausing content. Times are crumby right now. I know I and all my friends have felt similarly all January and into Feb. taking time is important necessary, drink you favourite teas, play your favourite games, crochet a storm, watch comfort content and just do what you need to feel well and yourself. we will be here when you need us and are ready to come back. x

Ingrid

sending you lots of warm hugs!! i hope you will get through this somehow, i know it’s hard, but we’re here for you <3 take all the time you need and be kind and patient with yourself, love youu !!!

Catherine Zocco

Sending lots of gentle vibes! And bravo for listening to your mind and taking the time you need. I hope the yarn therapy helps and when you’re ready we’ll all be here for support! 💙

Sloane Sherman

Take your time Cheyenne!! <3 i feel you, there is so much that felt like it was just the pandemic, but really that existed beforehand... btw your last video inspired me to take up knitting for the first time in a decade!! i really appreciated what you had to say about making something only for yourself and your own enjoyment/use. :-)) good luck on your knitting journey as well!

Rocio R.

My sweet girl, please take care of your beautiful mind and soul. You’re so incredibly talented but that doesn’t mean you have to stop taking care of yourself for as long as you need to. I’m so grateful to have joined your Patreon as you’ve decided to take an extended break everywhere else. I’m sending you the tightest hug, and the biggest cup of tea. Much love to you, Chey.💜

Liz
>>52699632

thanks! my friends & I were deciding what tattoos we'd get for each other, and one of my friends looked @ me and immediately said "a bee with a cowboy hat." he was named burbert and that was that :)

Amy Palmer

Please take care of your brain, it's a pretty crucial bit. My brain also breaks and then goes "why are you reacting to the breaking, just get on with it". Brains are tricky things. If it helps, can you rephrase it as instead of you taking time off as recovery (so a reactive thing), you're taking time off in order to clarify your focus and direction for the year, and set yourself up, so it's pro-active. That doing those things helps your brain is a happy side effect. That way your brain can't tell you that you're overreacting or any of those other unhelpful nonsensical things brains like to say, because you're not doing any of that, you're recalibrating, as you said. Anyway, in amongst all that nonsense I just spewed because it's late here in the UK and I'm only half conscious still, what I wanted to say was even though the hole is dark and cold and horrid, we're there with you. I know we can't get you out, but we can at least be with you (and moan about the grotty conditions because the unwanted roommates in our brains are rubbish at housework/home-care). Sending so much love.

Michala Henderson

Please take care of yourself! You’re so strong, I know you’ll be able to overcome this!! Love you~ 💛💖💛

Olivia Cobb

Proud of you for putting yourself first! Take all the time and space you need, we will all be happily supporting <3

Anne-Sophie Caron

Sending you lots of love, Chey! I've also been in a not good brain place for a bit. And from having been there before, taking time for yourself and to rest is the most important thing you can do. Self-care is not always fun and cozy, it's sometimes hard. But it's necessary. And I'm proud of you for taking that time. Sending you a big great hug <3

Audrey M

I'm glad you're taking the month to take care of yourself! I hope it's super restorative. (and as a knitter, welcome! I support your ultimate cable sweater goal--cables are very fun)

Tessa Maye

Mental health is health, Chey. It is not shameful to take the time you need to rest and do some healing, and I know so many of your supporters believe that, too 💜

Kiara

You got this <3

samuel thibodeau

sending you lots of from montreal !!! take your time and don't feel stressed about us we here to stay !! <3

Kyrstin Avello

Sending you all the good vibes! I'm glad you and Connor recognized what was going on and you are taking time to look after yourself. Wishing you peace and lots of stress-free doodling, crocheting, and tea times. <3

Rosie Clow

Chey you wonderful little bumble bee 😭 you sit and crochet and watch twitch streams to your heart's content my girl. Also highly highly recommend knitting - takes some patience but nothing is more pleasing that knitting your own clothing. So much love xxx

tim_flower

Chey!! don't be embarassed about take your time and taking time off internet, it's completely okay and valid. we love you and we support in so many ways!! sending you so much love, take care <33

Iris

Take as much time and space as you need! Sending hugs <3

Nicole Suzanne Brown

Chey! I feel you girl! Woke feeling like the grief of the World was living inside my brain. My anxiety told me I had to fix it. On days like this I call it 'The Douchebag Brain Mindset' & understand (like you so eloquently put it), that I've been stuffing down the basic mental health stuff until it's all started bubbling up to the surface. Look after you. Take care of you. *squishy hugs* Nickib

Melissa Lai IG @melissazlai

Take care Cheyenne 💝💝 feel free to do whatever you feel you need to process and get thru it, we’ll still be here!

Bourdet Emilie

It is a sign of maturity to be able to say stop before loosing it. I am so happy that you are in a situation that you can stop and "enjoy" some quiet time and to find your baseline. Take your time honey and indeed your future will be better. LOVE

Savannah Perico

We are all so proud of you for honoring what you need during this time! We'll still be here to support you!

noga walder

Sending lots of love💕

Sawyer Jillian

When I watch a video like this from a creator I adore and care about obv I feel sad I can’t get content but then I’m proud and so excited for them to get the time they need to be their own person and learn to love what they do again. I’m so proud of you Cheyenne! Youre doing great and just know while we are strangers on the internet we care very much about yoy

Allie Mollie

so so so SO glad you’re doing this for your mental health; we’ll be here for you 💖

Becca Johnson

“can I get that icon in cornflower blue?” Chey I love you and please don’t feel pressured to draw or sketch or do anything that makes your brain sizzle. Please that the time you need. We are here for you. We love you.

Vee Bee

Take care sweet Cheyenne! So proud of you for prioritizing your mental health! You are amazing and brilliant- always, even when you’re not feeling your best. I also have a lot to figure out with routine & burnout- it’s a constant learning process for me. I hope you can take this time for yourself to heal ❤️ sending lots of love!!

Becca Johnson

Just going to throw this out there, I would love a full granny square tutorial. Zoomed in and you explaining and taking it really slow. That way it doesn’t have to be editing intensive, you don’t have to do a chatty/personal voice over, and you get to share something with us while crocheting still? Just an idea. 🧶

Ann Desrochers

I originally subscribed to your youtube channel because the way you talked honestly about mental health was so amazing & comforting to me. Enjoy your break - thank you for taking care of yourself! :))

Taz

So happy to see you prioritizing yourself <3 take all the time you need! x

Sydney Kim

i hope your break gives you the well deserved rest and recuperation that you need. sending lots of good vibes your way <3

Radhia Rahman

(gonna copy and paste the same comment for this and the post on patreon) but I want you to know that you're doing all the things to protect your mental and physical health! you're an amazing person and also a HUMAN so don't forget that people have limitations and we should always familiarize ourselves with what works/what doesn't. im very glad that my patronage (our patronage, I think other patrons will agree on this) helps you decline the extra work because you deserve to just live and relax too! the people that truly care about you will prioritize your functionality and healing over content being pumped out~ love you very much and im hoping today is better than yesterday 💞

Jessica Rosa

I’m glad you feel safe enough to open up and share with us. I can sympathize with how you feel Cheyenne. I’ve started therapy and started taking medication myself a few months ago. I understand. Take all the time you need. ☺️I hope that things start feeling better for you soon.

Marissa Carroll Wright

my personal goal for 2021 is to slow down for all of the same reasons. take care of yourself + make your well being your #1 priority. we are all here to cheer you on!!! be well <3

Evi Michailidou

I admire you so much Chayenne! You're so sweet and positive person, you've accomplished so much! You practically live my dream life and that's not to call you ungrateful - au contraire! Please take care, whatever care you need.

Stacey McEvoy-Caunt

Take all the break you need, and don't feel silly/guilty about taking a whole month off. I've only just re-opened my shop and got back into things after taking 2 months off. We live in this weird world where we are made to think we HAVE to work all the time/full time and be productive all the time, and we don't. It's all made up. You do whats best for you lovely :) xx

Marlee

I’m so sorry Cheyenne- please know that we love you and of course you should take all the time you need. I can relate to the mental health struggle- I’m sending you an air hug and gentle sprinkle of confetti- you got this. 💖

Kayleigh

You are not alone ❤️ it's so easy to feel like we're the only ones failing to be functional people though. But you're not. Being a person isn't easy. Getting better is a process and realising when you're not doing so well is a good sign of progress. DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP OVER THIS. Find what feels good. Stay safe and comfy ❤️❤️❤️

Abbey

Be safe and well, dear heart! And be careful of the shame spiral 🥺 I know it all too well..... some of my worst mental health moments have come on the crest of that upswing in mood. The “OMGGGG I’m doing it! I’m doing great! I love life! I love being in control of my life!” And the crash thereafter when you suddenly just feel... Wrong. And awful.. well that crash can be so discouraging. So take all the time you need. Healing isn’t linear. You are so worthy of rest! And we will all be here to support you afterwards.

Candice Luth

Sending you so much love!!! I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Thank you for sharing with us. I know it helps me feel much less alone in my mental health struggles!! Take all the time you need. 💕💕💕💕

Antonia Gaviria

Sending you so much love and support. Take all the time you need, we’ll be here when you get back.

Christine

I'm so happy to hear you're taking a break, Cheyenne! Take care of you! And you reasoning for staving off something worse in the future is so insightful! Wishing for you lots of cozy times over the next few weeks.

Abi McGlone

My god I am so proud of you for taking a break, even if you don't feel like you deserve it. You do deserve it. Take the break and wewill all still be here when you come back. We promise xx

Alicia V.

Sending little virtual hugs your way.

Sami Kerwin

im so happy that you can take a break, it’s really difficult to sit down and allow yourself to be still and care for yourself and feel okay about it. sending many caring thoughts that your brain can rest for a little bit

LaRaye Rushing

So much love coming your way from all of us. Take the time. We’ll be here when you’re ready. ❤️❤️

Melody Klaffke

Hi Cheyenne, It looks like everyone agrees that you should take the time you need! I just wanted to reiterate I guess that that means more than a month or two or three! I let myself get in a pretty bad headspace once and kept wanting to get help but then kept chickening out and saying “no I can still do this, I can still fulfill everyone's expectations of me.” Eventually it just really got to be too much and I had to go to an inpatient facility for a little while. After some time and I was feeling better and had a plan for taking care of myself, I got out and started an outpatient program. I really don't want you to keep telling yourself what I was telling myself if you are! I'm happy that you are smarter than I was and are taking care of yourself now. My outpatient program meant I was on disability for three months because I still couldn't work and was going to therapy groups for three hours a day, three days a week. I took all that time to do little things that I liked and just try to keep focused on taking care of myself. It helped me tremendously 😭 I haven't had SI in over a year!! Really giving yourself the time for healing and care even though it feels like an overreaction will be so beneficial. I'm not sure the details and stuff but maybe an outpatient program (virtual?) could be an option? I was lucky to find one with other people my age with some similar struggles. Or not totally too! You will know what you need :) anyway sending love and I'm happy you are taking this time for yourself

Hayley North

I’m glad you’re taking time to rest! I know it’s so hard , especially when you are your own boss, to give yourself time to relax and recharge. But take all the time you need, we’ll still be here when you’re ready. Sending all the good vibes and love. 🧡

Dana Cecile

please take all the time you need! mental health is so important, it trickles over into every other aspect of your life. Do what you need to do to feel better and more in control, and we will be here to support you along the way. <3

ducksauce1996

going through something similar myself so it was actually really nice (?) to hear someone i admire talk about it too. love you, proud of you, and wishing you all the best, cheyenne ❤️ take as long of a break as you need. be patient with yourself. pet sophie every single day. give connor lots of hugs. you got this! ✨🎉

Khadija

Sending you LOTS of love and a BIG hug! Take all the time you want ❤️ you’re human and have limits and it’s okay ❤️❤️❤️ this time shall pass! I LOVE YOU!!! 💕

anita

i hope you have a good break and figure out what you need to, and get shit done that you want to! take care of yourself cheyenne <3

Nova

Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this part of you. Wishing you healing and softness in the months to come 💕

Bridget

Take however long a break you need! We will still be here 🙆🏻‍♀️💕

Azureism

Appreciate everything you said! Currently going thru this myself. Take care girl 🥺

Inny

I hope your break helps! The routine thing really resonated with me. My dog went to stay with my parents for a week while there were some mandatory renovations being done in my flat and just... my routine went out the window and I felt awful. I always joke how the dog is my office manager because I'm a freelancer, but apparently he's also my life coach who reminds me to eat at normal times and go to bed at a reasonable hour.

Jamie Suterland

Sending all the love and take all the time you need! https://youtu.be/KCr3SN6vWFQ some of what you said reminded me of the end of this video, basically saying we need to treat our mental health just as serious as are physical health we need to unlearn that selfishness is a bad word a good extreme example of this is when on an airplane we are told to put on are own oxygen masks first before helping others to do the same. In a video game sometimes you need to use your turn to heal yourself and that will help everyone in the long run but we shouldn’t need to get to breaking point to do these things it’s okay to take care of yourself

Katie Kerns

Honestly I relate to this a lot. I guess all I could say is that I'm really glad you are and get to take this time off. I run a business too and I really benefit from the kindness of my clients, which feels difficult because I want to be a fully with it professional. So from that perspective I hope you feel how genuinely at least I am happy to get to support you while you take time off.

Luna Robinson

lots of love being sent to you babe oxox

Luna Robinson

take you brake for as long as you need! we will be waiting here for you ! oxoxox