peacock, mayurasana (Patreon)

i remember this posture wouldn’t unlock. one teacher told me that it correlates to “the lightness of one’s past”. i felt ashamed and thought my past must be pretty heavy. one day, later on, the asana emerged, under the guidance of another Teacher. i floated and gasped. this time there were no stories. she actually said it doesn’t matter. now it is one of my favorites. it was a narrative that was made up about the past. and i believed it. maybe that’s why i felt so heavy. chicken or egg? either way, the relationship with the posture has changed. this has happened with multiple asanas. i have aversion to them in the beginning, and then grow fond of them over time, with consistent looking and patience. letting go of what i thought. and meeting them like a baby, for the very first time. the practice mirrors life. it is amazing. i was talking to friends and we agreed we would be dead without this practice. when there is that sinking feeling in the belly, a heaviness and falling falling, the postures, the breath, the inner stillness is there. if we dare to look…it is not as dark inside. look. a star in the chest. some ground to stand on, for a moment. moment is everything. practice. practice. thank god for this gift of a healthy body. thank god for the ancient ones, the stars which guide us to restore truth. shed stories like the snake.