It's been a long time. (Patreon)

Hello everyone, it has been a very long time. This is Kanbutsu Hinomono. ......

As the HIMONO-CHANNEL office announced on Fanbox, YouTube, X (Twitter), etc. the other day, I am currently taking a break from public activities due to treatment for an adjustment disorder.

Once again, I sincerely apologize for any worry or inconvenience this may have caused.

I would also like to express my heartfelt thanks to all of you who have supported Patreon in spite of the long absence of updates. Thank you so much 😭

I'm sorry I can't give you any details, but to put it bluntly, it's because “the slander and harassment has continued for a long time, and I endured it for a while, but then I had an event that tore me to pieces, and my heart snapped! It's a sad common internet thing ......🥲.

There were so many things that really, really happened. To give you an idea of how many things happened, I could have used up 50 minutes of the initial consultation with the counselor just explaining the background. (Maybe my explanation is just too long and inept.)

I don't think I will be able to tell you the details of the “many things” this time or in the future.

I have thought over and over again, “I wish I could just let it all out and be at ease 😭,” and even this sentence, which is written in a broken style to avoid giving a dark impression, is something that I have been rewriting for several months now, finally being able to show it to others.

I just wanted to write a status report, but if I'm not careful, it turns into an exposé detailing everything, or conversely, I got too scared to write anything at all. ......

But such a revealing story gives me an ease at first, but it becomes a topic of conversation in a bad way, and it becomes painful again, and it also becomes an opportunity to give birth to new ill will.

So I chose the path of “don't talk about any details outwardly” and “but if I don't mention anything, My feeling can't move forward in the middle, so I just talk about the cause roughly”! (Of course, I have consulted a lawyer regarding the legally compromised aspects of the damage I have suffered, and I've been doing what I can behind the scenes.)

I am deeply impressed by the fact that I am now able to deliver my words directly to everyone in this way, as cheerfully and calmly as possible, and that I am recovering from my mental breakdown.

I may have startled you with the ostentatious words “adjustment disorder,” “slander,” “counselor,” “exposure,” and “lawyer” from the beginning, but I am basically fine now! I had to reschedule my work for a while to recuperate, and now I'm working hard on Live2D to make up for it!

However, I feel that I need some more time before I can return to activity. I am ashamed to say that I have been unable to go inside a soundproof room due to the trauma since my adjustment disorder ......🫠, so I can't do any video or distribution type work. Likewise, I'm still too scared to send out messages in public.

I can't wait to get well soon and do some lecture videos and PR activities for my hometown, Fukui! (The most frustrating thing about coming down with an adjustment disorder this time was that I couldn't do my PR activities in Fukui on March 16, the day of the super happy celebration party for the opening of the Hokuriku Shinkansen Tsuruga Line, which allows direct Shinkansen travel from my home prefecture of Fukui to Tokyo. It was the ultimate in frustration.) 

But there is no use in being impatient, so I am determined to recover step by step.

By the way, I am working on my laptop in the living room right now because I can't use the soundproof room. Thank goodness I have a laptop! I have a very expensive and comfortable chair in the soundproof room, but I'm working on a cheap chair, so my shoulders, back, and hips are all aching!

I have been writing cheerfully about my recent situation.Lastly, I would like to tell you about the future of articles that I will be posting on Patreon.

As for my YouTube membership, I have been able to post my stock of making videos, but as for Patreon, I really don't have any stock.

And I have been saying that I want to write an article about hand tracking.

However,I don't think I will be able to write about hand-tracking for a while until my emotional scar is completely healed.

(Sadly, one of the targets of the slander was about my hand-tracking 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹I posted a video of my hand tracking and my business partner received a slanderous email about me. 

(I know I said I wouldn't write the details, but forgive me.🥹🥹)

I will be posting various articles on Patreon in the members-only articles from now on, as well as reporting on my current situation.

Since I can't just talk about myself like this, I'd like to write about some techniques I've noticed in the recent production process.

While I've been sick, Live2D seems to have added some amazing features, but I haven't been able to touch on all of them yet! I'd like to touch on them when I have more time and give my impressions of them.

I hope everyone has been well over the past few months. I know that not only I but also you have been through a lot of hardships, sadness, and so on. It's been a tough time, but let's try to get through it together!

Well, that's all for now!