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Channel relaunch starts this month! (Patreon)

Published:
2020-03-04 21:52:01
Imported:
2026-06

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Hiya! Nos Hyena here :)

So as many of you are aware, my YouTube channel in 2020 has had a slow start, with me only posting 2 videos in the first 2 months. As many of y'all are also aware, I haven't been posting as much on Patreon for a good 6 months or so.

I just want to check in with all of my wonderful patrons and let you know what has been going on with me, and what I see as the future direction of my YouTube channel. I am deeply grateful for all of your support, and I truly could not be living the life of my dreams without all of you.

Pic: TheEternalFloof

We're set to hit 100k sometime this year, and I am very excited to join that club of Furry YouTuber. But after doing Furry YouTube for 3 years, my life has changed a lot, and I want to share with you some of these changes.

When I first started this channel, I was fairly new to the fandom. YouTube was a way to meet new friends, break the ice, and collaborate with other furs, and connect with people. My social experience in furry has changed considerably since. I am acquainted with a lot of people now, and to be honest, I've been struggling with some of the social aspects of the furry fandom.

In 2017, I felt like I had time for everyone who wanted to get to know me. I made friends with fans, spent heaps of time chatting in messages, and would go out of my way to give everyone the time of day.

But as things have grown since, the attention has honestly been overwhelming. Some people thrive on it, and I enjoy it at times, but there are times where I wish I could give more to people who want to say hi/get to know me but I'm just so burned out I can't.

It's awesome to see how excited people are to meet me, especially the ones that know my content well. And 90-95% of these interactions are great. But unfortunately the small percentage of interaction where people get short with me or try and shame me for not giving them what they want has taken a toll on me.

I should really take the advice I would give to someone in a similar predicament, and brush it off, and be grateful for the overwhelmingly positive ones I have. But the rude ones and the uncomfortable ones happen to an extent at every convention I attend, and with 3 years' worth of cons being really "visible" in the fandom, it definitely takes its toll. My anxiety does spike up unfortunately.

Now on the flip side, many of y'all here contribute to this, the warm, empathetic, friendly interactions I love. I literally will rave to my partner and friends about how nice some of my supporters are after the in-person interactions we have. But unfortunately I feel like sometimes I can't give 100% of the energy I'd like to when I meet people for the first time because I've been on this attention treadmill since 2017.

Bleh, anyway that's my rant. I'm a very private person to be honest, but I also love entertaining and making people smile, and I think maybe my way of connecting with people is content. I don't have a ton of hobbies that other furries share, I'm not a hardcore gamer (Not to mention I don't have the time), so the way that I really feel like I relate to people is through my creativity.

But when I've been sugarcoating and ignoring the things that are negatively affecting my furry experience, and not really addressing them, I don't feel like I'm being as honest as I could be through my content. 

Oh yeah, not to mention I experience anxiety which makes me socially withdraw at times. One of the best ways to deal with issues is talk about them and process them with other people, and when I'm hiding them, it makes it harder to overcome. So it's not a fun thing to talk about, but it's what I've been living.

So that's the gist of what I've really been going through the last year and a bit... it's really hard to handle the attention at times... it's hard to deal with the people who snap at me when I don't message them back quick enough or trash talk me if I don't talk to them for long enough... and it just seems like hardcore 1st world problems, but it's also part of my lived experiences, and valid for me.

Pic: TheEternalFloof

So what does the future hold for Nos Hyena? I want to be a creator full-time, and this along with stream support is the bulk of my income, which means that I am living my dreams each day. Seriously.

But I know I can do more, and do better. I'm not setting unrealistic expectations for myself, but I know I can put out a video each week.

A big reason why I haven't been around as much is I've taken a step back this last stretch to work on myself. There's been health issues that I've addressed, I have better balance in my life now. I feel much, much happier than I was 2 years ago, and I'm very content with my life right now compared to where it was. I'm getting in the gym more. I'm eating healthier. My mental health is much better.

So I'm going to focus all of this new excited energy into making the most fun content for myself and everyone that supports me. And I'm going to not filter my ideas as much. Even if videos are more serious, or shorter, or silly, or I don't think they'll do well, I'm going to post them anyway and have more things to share with you all.

I'm really ready to take this channel to the next level. And I'm here where I am today because of each and every one of you, and now I'm going to take advantage of recent positive things that have happened to me and thrive.

I've got a silly video to edit today, I've got a deer and a hyena suit in my living space, I've got cameras and I've got a fresh approach to things. I have a very good feeling y'all are going to have a lot of good things to look forward to.

Thank you so much.
Nos Hyena

Also P.S. everyone who's come up to me on here at a recent con has been nothing but wonderful. I've enjoyed meeting y'all at MP, ACFI, MFF, FC, and TFF :D

Comments

Tacofen

Bro, no matter how first world our problems are, they’re still ours to deal with. Self-care is super important and I’d rather have a Nos that is mentally and emotionally in the right headspace over a stressed out and downtrodden one trying to overdo himself. We love you fam; if in the future you ever need to take another break, be it a day or week or longer, we’ll be here with open arms to welcome you back! Can’t wait to see what the future brings for you as a content creator and as a person 👏🏻💕

Anonymous

This was a very upfront and honest post and it serves as a welcome reminder that like the rest of us, you're human. You have a life to live, with its ups and its downs, and I'd like to say must of us understand you've been doing what you need to do to keep everything in check on your end. Glad to hear from you again buddy, hopefully this ends up being a great year!

Siber

Yes! Great to hear you're doing so well. And I am 2000% supportive of you pushing out short funny skits at shorter intervals. I don't care too much what's it about, I just enjoy seeing your fluffy nose having fun. Thanks for being so upfront about it. I can imagine it being hard. Here's to a wonderful 2020! ❤️❤️

Anonymous

Hey, Nos. We're here for you my man, we've got you. Don't stress about the haters so much, they are everywhere, you just have to ignore them or do something to alleviate the tension. Trust me, though, I know it's hard. Just because I'm in a brotherhood known as the U.S Army, does not mean we're completely supportive of each other. Take my old roommates for example, they were complete shit heads, assholes to the core. However, I didn't kill them as I often wished to, instead I brought the issue up to my sergeant and changed rooms. I took actions to alleviate the issue. Now, i realize this is not always possible, so just remember that there is always someone there to support you and help you through the hard spots in life, like your family or your significant other, a friend that you've known for a while, or if you're religious go talk to a pastor/priest/etc or God. In the end, there are people who can help. On the brighter side, I'm glad that you are getting better and have a new energy to carry you, that can take you far. P.S Sorry for missing your streams, work has kept me away, but I should have more time on my hands now, can't wait for the next steam. 😁

Rennon the Shaved

Dude, mental health is more important than most people give it credit. The fact that you can acknowledge your issues and work towards helping them is a tremendous step to take. I know, I deal with anxiety and mental stresses, too. Be thankful for the good and try to ignore the bad. It's not worth it to dwell on it. It will only eat you up inside. Your wellbeing comes first, not the channel. Don't feel like you have to make content just because. You should do it because you want to. It's the same for me with art and writing. You always bring a smile to my face, Nos. I'm thankful for what you do.

EmeraldTheDingo

Don't worry about it man, I think i speak for 99% of us when i say that we get that mental health is a big thing. One of the best reasons to take a break is to work on yourself. I remember having social anxiety when I first got into highschool, I understand and feel for most of what you're going through. As for the hate, just try to remember that no matter what you do, you can't please everybody. Even if you cured cancer there'd be someone who complains, it's not you, it's just human nature to be the 1% who hates people no matter what. Thank you so much for what you do for us. Also I'm sorry that I haven't been to many streams lately, I too am working on my mental health and am unable to give them high quality dingo memes

Anonymous

This is why I love content creators like you. You’ve always been so humble. You’ve helped a lot of people whether you know it or not. You’ve helped ME definitely, I mean your content only saved me from years of depression! You were talking about your mental health and I totally get the struggle. I’ve also seen your name pop up in other people’s patreons. I know how helpful you are in this fandom. When people are reaching out, you’re there for them, and yet now you wonder why people are there for you too. It only makes sense. You treat your fans like your friends, and as friends we’ve got each others backs. I also find it really irritating how you still have a percentage of fans who follow you that demand your attention 24/7. Like, no that’s impossible. There’s no way you’re gonna be able to chat with all of your thousands of followers at once. That’s why I never take it personally if you don’t reply to my Instagram dm’s right away. I understand you’re a busy guy. I can’t imagine the stress of having such a following. I commend you Nos. Anxiety and other mental health topics are never easy to talk about, and I think you’re incredibly brave for being so open and honest with us. When it comes to mental health of any kind, the best way to heal a troubled soul is with a lot of love. And we want you to know that you have a lot of love and support (in case you haven’t noticed by now in your live-streams and streamlabs donations, holy crap man)! All those haters and fake fans that insist you’re ignoring them need to understand one thing, THEY’RE NOT YOU! they don’t know what you have to deal with everyday. hell I don’t either, but I could imagine you have a lot on your plate. You may never even read this message I’m writing right now, but I couldn’t care less, and I’d completely understand why. But if you do read this Nos, just know that we all love you... because we know you love all of us too. You’re a true role model not just as a furry, not just as a content creator, but as a person.

Anonymous

Nos Most of us are just like you. Average people with all the same social issues in our lives. You have no need to explain yourself to any of us, and if anyone stopped being a fan or hated you because you don't give them attention. Or you didn't put out some content as often as they wanted. I'd say they are selfish. I only noticed this post because I randomly checked my email because of personal business I'm keeping track of. I rarely watch your videos for lack of time. I support you on patreon because I see a bit of myself in you, a younger more open me. I want you to be doing what makes you happy whatever that may be. Now get back out there and be the best version of yourself.