STUFF (Patreon)

After seemingly 2 months (it felt like one fucking week...) of my mental and physical health declining, I decided enough was enough and have been trying to do something about it. I've been trying to exercise daily; my back gave out a few weeks ago, my sedentary lifestyle finally caught up to me I guess. I thought it may have been a herniated disc, but doing regular yoga stretches (my sister taught me some stuff since she also has back issues) seems to have fixed it. So every day from now on I'm going to just spend every morning hitting a tire with a hammer to try and not be a fat lazy piece of shit anymore.

Pictured above: Advanced exercise equipment.

I also think it's time to try and just block out people that objectively make my life worse; it has seriously ratfucked my ability to draw or do anything productive, since these people do nothing but demean me and ruin everything. Time to cut them loose. Hopefully if I clear them from my head I can actually draw fucking something instead of thinking about how they'll tell me to kill myself and tell me my life is worthless.  

For the past few days I think it's paid off, I've been able to draw and do commissions again, but it's possible that maybe I'm just having a manic episode and I'm just going to spiral into oblivion again.  

Also just in general I need to check this page daily; I'm not blaming anyone here, I would unsubscribe too if I saw the guy I was financially supporting wasn't doing jack shit, but it's really demotivating to check this website and just seem more and more people unsubbing, so I honestly dreaded checking this page, which meant I never upload anything, which means more unsubs. I guess they call that a viscous cycle.

Anyway I will post more and more art here. I'm going to draw what I want from now on. Starting Monday I want to do daily sketches (Monday specifically because my dumbass family decided "let's take you on a mountain vacation! it's what you need :)" like 2 days ago with no warning, even though that's the last fucking thing I need). Sorry if it seems like I'm trying to reenact the Spoony Grand Prix with this page, but 2022 was shit for me and I am trying to turn things around for myself here.