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Important [Read] (Patreon)

Published:
2023-12-24 12:43:08
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2026-06

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Sometimes I feel that its really difficult to make people understand that behind the art they see, there is a person. A person subject to life changes, problems, work, etc.

I could always be better and I'm really sorry I'm not that efficient, really, I do what I can and I always try my best.

This past year has been... difficult, I have gone through many changes that make you think that nothing is forever, and that your life can change in seconds.

But I'm glad I'm getting through it. I decided to open myself to my community, to be myself, to stop being afraid and start another way to be happy, a healthyone, with the help of people who loves me.

I know that it has not been a very professional decision, but it was necessary for my mental health.

Was that or stopping drawing bc nothing made sense to me at that moment. Absolutely nothing.

Even so I’m trying to keep everything, old and new stuff, the best way I physically and mentally can. I feel that Im working more than before but my results its not good for everyone so… I feel I must apologize for that bc you was here supporting me from the beginning, I’m really trying so hard.

Even if for me is sad and frustrating to keep doing what it's difficult for me… My life still changing rn, I’m dealingwth a move to another country this and next month, and more things. Right now I feel like I'm in the middle of a tornado waiting for everything to be stable again.

For me, Nixeu made sense, it was a lifesaver at a complicated time. I learned that style and I‘ve been working to reach my goals, many of you know that I practiced 11-12 hours a day every day, for years, getting sick several times. All to achieve my goals and get out of a bad situation. I‘m very grateful to you for helping me and supporting my work. Thanks to that I was able to get out of there but you have to know that I was never happy, it was a job for me that made me stop seeing my passion for drawing aside.

After what has happened to me this year I wanted to rescue the things that made me happy, and one of them was to return to drawing for passion, not just for work. I’m trying my best to keep both. You know, that I was drawing less in general, and now you know the reason… Even so I want to try to keep both, and its not like I'm not going to draw nixeu anymore, because drawing different stuff and learning is part of myself, so that's why I want to try. It will be difficult to adapt at first but I hope I can, and I hope to get the same level or better with Aluna, and the art I’m doing there. Maybe in the future I can enjoy my job.

So if you ever feel that I'm not worthy, it's ok, I understand your frustration and I tell you, please, stop supporting me. I really prefer that than seeing, reading or feeling that you are wasting your money. It hurts too much.


Thanks for reading 🤍

Comments

Signspace

Your art doesn't need to be in this one specific look for us to enjoy it, I'm happy with whatever you are creating 😊 have a great Christmas and New year.

shoe

Your experimentations with different styles is my most favorite thing about you. I love seeing what you come up with. You’re my biggest inspiration and I’ll always support you. Hope you don’t feel discouraged and continue to do what makes you happy. 💖💖

Stoia

Nix I feel like I have to bap you. You're amazing and you're an artist. You shouldn't give a fuck what we think, you should draw what makes you feel things. I know it's not that easy, and that saying 'just do what you like' is bullshit. But in the end I want to remind you that THAT is what makes me (and I'll be so bold and say many of us) enjoy your art this much. We see something behind your art that's so much more then just the style. If that was all it was we are here for, we can go to Wlop. They are also a great artist that does a similar style. But we don't, we're not here because of that. Were here because you put something in your artwork that only you do, no matter what style thst may be. Even if tomorrow you decide to try another new thing. And another new tomorrow. Maybe you get into sculpting in a week and we get scrappy iPhone pictures of a dusty atelier with half done sculptures every month, the thing you bring into it will remain there. Your signature will still remain exactly there. I wanted to write this to you in private at first because it's so long, but fuck it.

XonicAG_

Your art is definitely special to me, every time u put out a new work it somewhat calms me and makes me forget about stuff that bothers me irl. You’re doing great! Good-luck with moving and hope it all goes smoothly!

DannyBro

You do what you need to do to be happy. Especially with you moving so soon. I'm sure it must be a struggle with the expectations from us, and from yourself too. I'll always support you, whether it be on here, or on social media. Take care of yourself, and I look forward to seeing what else you create and experiment with in the future.

Thunder Storm

I really appreciate that you opened yourself up to explain a little more of what is happening on the other end of the art as well as yourself. Communication is really key as no one can truly understand your situation without you coming forward and saying something. I obviously do not see the whole situation but I can clearly see that you still care about your art and that means a lot. Just be careful with setting yourself to a standard to then later disappoint yourself to. I will continue to support your work regardless of what may becomes of your art. You will always be worth the money spent. I hope things will get better on your end in the coming month and please enjoy the festive holidays.

Arga 王FRNDO

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. You seem like a great person (from what I see in your streams) and I really love your art. You're one of my favorite artists and I really respect how much effort you've put into becoming as good as you are now. I look forward to every months packs. You don't have to feel obligated to do anything or to anyone but I really appreciate the openness. That must not have been easy. I hope you don't push yourself too hard, that everything goes well and that you rest when you need to.💙

GZ

Thank you for sharing, always do what’s best for you first! I’ll always love your art whatever shape it takes :)

Asinjuasflora_art

I love watching your stream and it has been one of my must-do/ favorite thing every day since you started streaming. It just so fun and give me lots of inspiration for my own art, which I truly appreciate it. So don’t let those negative comments affect you, we are here not just for your work but to support you as a person too. I’m happy to see and collect whatever you do, either in Aluna or Nixeu style. They are all so precious to me ✨🌷 So pls keep doing what you enjoy, we are always here to support. Im looking forward your returning stream next year!! Have fun and enjoy your holiday 🌹

Serku

If i wouldnt like it i wouldnt support you but espescially because i feel like i can relate to you in some way i really wanna continue and ofc because i damn enjoy your art. In the end the only important thing is you and your health. I think nothing is worse than loosing yourself in a passion that you dont enjoy anymore. ♥️

SupremeVoid

I'll leave this here as a token of gratitude and support for what you do as an artist. There are many people that love what you do, no matter what you do and I feel the same way still since the very first post. Personally, I love your art and what you do, ofc I have my personal reasons too, but you know me, so you know I will always be by your side and back you up. Time changes almost everyone, and so it changes their craft. Your art is truly ever evolving. I know you like changing it up and not being stuck, so keep at it. Evolve. Putting it more metaphorically: You are a butterfly, with wings that always strive for more, changing their colors as you go, ever evoling into a new beautiful form. On the more professional side. Striking the balance between a sustainable and enjoyable style (financially and mentally) is harder than most people think to know. You have great opportunities ahead. I will end it here though, everything more we will discuss in private.

Makudo333

Your heartfelt message truly resonates with me, and I'm sure with many others in your community. Please remember that your journey as an artist and as a person is uniquely your own, and it's completely normal to experience changes, challenges, and growth. The fact that you've been open about your struggles and changes is not unprofessional; it's brave and human. Your decision to prioritize your mental health is not only admirable but absolutely necessary. Remember, your well-being always comes first. Your dedication to your art, even during tough times, is commendable. It's okay if every piece doesn't resonate with everyone; what's important is that you're creating art that is meaningful to you. Your passion and hard work are evident, and your willingness to adapt and explore new styles and avenues is inspiring. Life is indeed full of changes, and moving to a new country is a significant step. This transition might be challenging, but it also holds the promise of new beginnings and experiences. The feeling of being in a "tornado" is understandable, but remember, after every storm, there is calm. It's clear that your art, whether it's Nixeu or Aluna, is more than just work for you. It's a part of who you are, and returning to draw for passion is a beautiful way to reconnect with your art. It's okay to evolve and change your focus – that's the beauty of being an artist. Please don't feel the need to apologize for doing what's best for you. Your true supporters will understand and continue to appreciate your work, no matter the direction it takes. Remember, it's okay to take a step back, to change, and to grow. Your journey, both in art and life, is valid, and your efforts are appreciated. Keep embracing your passion, and remember that your worth is not defined by anyone's expectations but your own. Stay strong, and keep creating from the heart.

SirElnath

I love your different styles, and i like to see you experiment and seeing this new style develop! Please take as much time as you need and don't overwork yourself! The most important thing is that you're happy, so put yourself first! Good luck with your move, and I wish you a Merry Christmas!

Doctor Dean

Nixeu, I've been a patron of yours for several years now, and that's not gonna change anytime soon. You are a truly wonderful artist that doesn't get nearly as much love as they deserve. We're here for you, and as long as I'm alive, you'll always have at least one fan cheering you on all the way <3

Booofus Mo

Take a step back from your art and any other distractions. this mental discomfort comes from a need to change and balance your life. Spend time with yourself and know that no matter what doubts you have through meditation and acceptance of your own thoughts everything will return to a baseline of peace and mental clarity. Don’t try to use logic to figure it all out because it’s an endless maze of comparing positive and negative possibilities with no real anchor of reference to what should actually be. Your true soul energy should be your guide and it will be revealed once you give your mind enough time to recharge and heal.

Kevin J-Side

As a new and sadly short-term Patreon I should probaly Shut my mouth now but still: Your Art is amazing, I followed it now for Quite some time, I just couldn't afford Supporting you and I'm kinda sorry for that. In my Eyes Artist do not deserve to be handled like that. Noone should attack an Artist for not posting Work! Being a Patron means being a Supporter for either the Project behind it or like in your Case, the Artist behind it. Recieving Art, Brushes or even Mentioning is in my Eyes (and actually per Patreons definition) just a bonus or better said "Thank You" from the Artists side. I definately didn't follow your education Process but trust me, with that amazing quality of Art, you deserve the Support and no damn Anger at all. PS. Thank you so much for Re-Gifting the Animated Backgrounds this month <3 I really struggled with myself when you posted the Raiden one the first time if I could somehow Afford it, and this month I finally can

Anthaliel

Your. Art. Matters. It makes this ever growing dishonest, frantic and dark world a little more bright and beautiful, never forget that, Nixeu. Count with my support, as low as it is, it won't stop, because I love your illustrations! That said, you can stop and rest and take the time that you need to deal with life problems. We, your patrons, live it with you and that means throughout the good and the bad times! Don't doubt the whole tree, for just a couple wormy apples! :/ Talking about trees, have you put up yours 🎄?^^ Merry Winter festivities! :D

Daedric

We understand Nix, the most important thing here is that you feel good and comfortable with your work, your art is amazing and beautiful, literally this is the only Patreon that I have. And I hope that you have a merry Christmas and a happy new year :)

Gallatheus

Your mental health and happiness should always be your numero uno priority, and for that, its always nice to sometimes take a breather and look back at everything you had to go through, all the hardships you conquered and everything you managed to achieve. I understand that dividing your passion for art between a job and a hobby can be one of the most stressful things to reconcile, so analyse your current situation and make changes if you deem it absolutely necessary. I just hope you realize we'll always be there cheering for your success, through the bad and the good.

Duality Fox

I love your artwork, and I know art can be difficult to draw, let alone getting used to streaming. I'll make sure to continue to support you as much as I can. 🫶

Lilisionnach

I love your art! I love your streams! I love how welcoming and fun your streams are, even if I can only make it to a few of them. I wouldn’t be subscribed at the tier that I am if I didn’t think you were worth it. But thank you for opening up to us, I know that can’t have been easy to do. Have a merry Christmas and a happy New Year!

Pedro

We will be here with you always, much love and keep being you 💙

Jounzey

Thank you for sharing, Nixeu. I love your art, and your style, and I’ll keep supporting you for as long as you go for. You’re doing such a fantastic job, despite the things you’re fighting in life. Happy holidays, and all the best wishes 💚

Dave Coleman

Life is hard. Your art is a highlight of my day when it arrives. I don't require normalcy or consistency. Just want to see what you create when you create it. I've also followed a number of artists through their gaps, and my pledge will still be there. If you don't produce something for a year, maybe I will reconsider, but a couple of months while you deal with life? No problem. Please don't stress it, and focus on being in the moment of your move. It's a big step and a big change and it deserves your undivided attention

Desv

I love your art. Every month is like getting a really cool gift that sits on my background until next month.

Siglinde Palmfelt

I find it difficult to understand why some people are supporting and complaining at the same time. Literally no one forced them to support, even if they paid annually, it is their own decision that they take this risk when the next year's art could always possibly be not to their liking. Please take care of yourself in the difficult life situation first, it is not worth it to stress yourself over some entitled people.

Bach in a Minuet

You have one of the most distinctive art style on here and it's great you don't feel like you have to do pure 18+ art. I find that most people who post negative commentary or are 'abusive' are simply reflecting their own experiences and not aware that others are not them, and that they aren't in control of anyone else. If they're so butt-hurt, they need to go elsewhere, but they want to feel like they have power somewhere and resort to the internet flaming. Haters gonna hate 'cuz they don't like their own situations.

Red Treant

I'm always looking forward to the beginning of next month when you share your art. You can see your huge dedication for them! I wouldn't have it in me to do so much outside of my work. And some people will just complain no matter what.

Lancelot

It's always a pleasure seeing new art from you! There are definitely tough times in life, but there are good times as well! As the old saying goes, "this too shall pass."

Christian

Hello Nixeu, Because of you, I started supporting people on Patrone and have been supporting you for 3 years. When people write that you're a waste of money, I think that's a bit exaggerated. But you also raised expectations that you didn't fulfill. You compared yourself to WLOP or made references - I don't want to pick that out. The fact is that WLOP (which I also support) is constantly evolving. If you go through his pictures from the beginning, you can see huge progress over time. You started very strong - stronger than WLOP. Unfortunately you deleted your first works from Patron. You held this level for a long time and then the crash came. I still don't believe that all the pictures from that time are of you. But you still haven't reached the level from 3 years ago. I don't mean the type or motifs of your pictures. I mean the attention to detail. The current pictures come close to your old achievements, but again and again you can see areas that are not neatly worked out. Personally, I always ask myself, is it due to time pressure or is it just sloppiness? You can do better, I know that and you've already shown that! The Aluna Akkount is the same. I like the motifs, I just don't think they're complete. I apologize if these are too strong words, but they reflect an honest and accurate assessment. Personally, I would prefer you to concentrate on a few but 1A pictures, like from your early days. Leave out the live whale paper too. Less is more.