Not a child anymore (Patreon)

Various new feelings that touch my life now. Today Ukrainians celebrate St. Nicholas Day, a holiday when parents treat their obedient children with gifts. The first year that I am without a greeting from my mom. The first year that I no longer feel like a child.

It would seem that these feelings should be so natural. I didn’t have a normal childhood. The severity of events in life forced me to take responsibility for far from childish decisions too quickly. It would seem that nothing new for me.

But this feeling is now constantly with me. With the death of parents, I no longer have a space to be a child.. There is no longer this place in the world where I have permission for this.

It is not easy to understand and accept. To accept life as it is and to get to know it anew.