True Stories: My Lovely GF (Patreon)

Hey! So, I wasn’t able to find time to write today, but I’ll have time this week so, don’t worry, I’ll hit my wordcount without a doubt. In the meantime, I thought I’d give a 1,900-word update on my GF since it’s been almost two-three months since I mentioned how things were going. In short, things are going well, but a lot has happened.

For those of you who might be new here and could use a quick recap on my relationship with my GF, here you go:

RECAP

My GF and I have been dating for 2 years. She isn't a feedee, and she isn't really into the WG fetish, but she loves that it excites me and isn't shy about bringing elements of what I love about feedism into the bedroom. In other words, she does not enjoy gaining weight, but she does love to use any weight she gains (her weight tends to yo-yo a bit) to drive me crazy (in a good way).

In terms of what she looks like: She’s about 5’5, her normal weight (since I’ve known her) usually hovers around 150lbs, and she is a former cheerleader. She’s my type, as I’ve said before, imagine Mia's sister from "Mia's Junior Year".  That's pretty damn close to what she looks like.

My gf has made it clear that she doesn't want to gain weight, but she has admitted it is a real comfort to her that she knows I'll like her if she ever lets herself go a little bit.  Regardless of her weight, I really love this girl and couldn't imagine being with anyone else.  I find her really beautiful whether she's heavier or skinnier.

I mentioned two months ago that I noticed a pair of my GF’s scrubs in the trash. I asked her why she wanted to throw them away and she replied, “They’re old. I’d have to lose like 15 pounds if I ever wanted to fit into them again.”

My GF’s normally pretty diet conscious and will take steps to lose weight if she feels she is getting heavy, but she hasn’t done that this time.

Recap over, time for the new stuff.

Binge-Eating Disorder

So, my GF’s therapist diagnosed her with binge-eating disorder a few weeks ago. It’s apparently a problem she’s been dealing with since high school but hadn’t been diagnosed until now (I was worried I had contributed to the problem, but it appears that is not the case). This disorder probably explains my GF’s tendency to yo-yo in weight.

This is a pretty serious thing, and I am glad she shared it with me. I’m trying to support her in every way I can. I’ve told her I’m okay if she wants to stop doing the feedism stuff in the bedroom, her health is more important than my fetish, but she’s told me that’s not what she wants. We tend to bring healthy foods like strawberries into the bedroom, and I rarely stuff her silly outside of my Birthday and a few holidays like Thanksgiving (which I am really excited about this week, it’s almost all I can think about. Almost.). Since she doesn’t think the feedism stuff is problematic for her, she mainly wants me to support her with her exposure therapy.

If you are like me, you will have no idea what exposure therapy is, so I’ll explain with some help from good old google.

Binge eating disorder (BED) is one of the most common eating disorder subtypes in the United States. According to the National Eating Disorder Association, BED is three times more common than anorexia or bulimia nervosa combined. Characterized by an uncontrollable tendency to eat to a point that it is physically uncomfortable during binge episodes, these disorders can be severe, and that means binge eating disorder treatment often involves multiple types of therapy.

An effective treatment option for binge eating disorder recovery is daily exposure therapy.

What Is Daily Exposure Therapy? In general terms, exposure therapy is a form of cognitive behavioral therapy. Exposure therapy is commonly part of treatment for varying types of disorders relative to anxiety, such as phobias and obsessive-compulsive disorder.

During exposure therapy, individuals are exposed to things that provoke anxiety, but exposure takes place in a controlled environment. For example, someone who has anxiety relative to spiders would be exposed to things like spiders in a jar, in a picture, or in the hand of another person. The principles behind daily exposure therapy make it logical for use in binge eating disorder treatment.

How Does Daily Exposure Therapy Help with Binge Eating Disorder Recovery?

Daily exposure can help people during binge eating disorder therapy because it addresses one of the driving factors behind the disorder: anxiety. Those with BED tend to have anxious feelings associated with eating or even eating in the presence of others. Through daily exposure therapy, individuals are exposed to the things and situations that would normally drive their behaviors. For example, someone who binged specifically on a certain type of food may be exposed to that food regularly in a controlled situation and would talk through what they were feeling throughout the exposure.

Food is not the only thing used in exposure therapy during treatment at a binge eating disorder treatment center. Exposure therapy can be used to help with other anxiety-driven behaviors, such as eating alone, practicing certain eating-related rituals, and more.

What Is Graded Exposure Therapy and How Does It Work for BED?

Exposure therapy can take place in multiple ways because there are several variations of the treatment. One of those variations is graded exposure therapy.

Graded exposure therapy requires the client to make a list of the things they fear in an orderly fashion from what they least fear to what they are most afraid of. During graded exposure therapy, the therapist will start out with exposure to the things that would be easiest to work through according to the list the client made.

For someone who has BED, their list may look something like this:

1. Fear of eating in the presence of others.

2. Fear of foods that contain high-fat content.

3. Fear of not being able to stop eating when more food is present.

During graded exposure therapy for BED in a binge eating disorder treatment setting, the therapist will start with the least feared item by possibly having the client eat in the presence of one person and then maybe a few more people will be present during the next session. Once the client is comfortable eating in the presence of others, the therapist will work on providing those triggering foods in with the meal, and so on.

Overall, exposure therapy can be a highly effective way to help people during binge eating disorder therapy. There are many different types of therapy used in binge eating disorder treatments programs.

My GF is taking this graded approach and has a list of foods (and situations) that trigger her. So, every week she’s been exposing herself to one of the things on that list (and in the process eating more problem foods than usual, which is part of the therapy). For example, if ‘Pizza’ was on the list, she’d eat as much pizza as she wanted for a week to signal to herself that it’s not a rare delicacy that she feels she needs to binge when she eats it.

I’m sure I’m not explaining this treatment program perfectly, and maybe some of my examples aren’t the best, but hopefully you get the idea. She’s working diligently with her therapist to address her disorder, and I’m supporting her as best I can. Which means getting her all the food she wants, when she wants, and as much as she wants.

Honestly, it is kind of a fat-fetishists dream come true. I’m trying to be sensitive to her struggles, but she knows what I’m into and is well aware that this treatment she is doing is just about everything I could ever want in a fantasy, but this is real life.

So, even though this is a difficult time for her, we are having some fun with it as she continues with her treatment.

I often feel a little guilty for my enjoyment, after all, as a result of this therapy, she has gained some weight, and it’s a lot for her (She doesn’t like gaining any weight, unless the weight goes to her butt, in which case, she’s more okay with it). At the moment she’s at her heaviest weight since I’ve known her, and I can’t stop thinking about it. Sex with her has always been incredible, the best I’ve ever had with anyone I’ve ever been with, she’s always checked all of my boxes, but now she’s checking the WG fantasy boxes a bit more noticeably.

She’s aware of this too, and she’s been using this to her advantage yet again.

Exaggerated Enjoyment

To an extent, since I’ve shared my fetish with her, she’s done this to get me going. Let’s talk examples:

If I am eating something, occasionally she’ll ask for a bite, hum loudly with pleasure and then eat the whole thing. She’s done this with fruit, she’s done this with candy, she even did this with a whole taco once. I don’t know why, but it strikes me right to my core. I can’t resist this woman. Everything she does warms my heart.

Talking about her Weight

As I’ve explained, my GF is not personally a fan of any weight she might gain. She naturally complains about it, but she’s also learned that I love listening to her complain about it, because for some reason that turns me on too. Here is how my GF has been talking about her weight recently in my presence (usually with a wink for me at the end):

“Are you sure I don’t look like a fat mom in this?” My GF said while trying on a tight pair of black jeans and a new midriff showing turtleneck top.

I reply, “No, you look amazing!”

“I look good until I eat an ounce of anything… Then I might just burst out of these jeans.” She replies.

There is some real insecurity in her voice sometimes she says stuff like this, but honestly it just makes me love her and want to comfort her even more.

After shopping she commented to me in better spirits, “Buying new clothes is the one good part of getting fat.”

A statement that obviously got the results she wanted.

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One last example:

Today, someone spilled something on her pants at work (she had some replacement scrubs, but not extra undies). I was meeting her for lunch, so after she explained what happened, she texts, “Maybe you could get me some underwear on your way, if that’s not asking too much. It can be a cheap pair.”

I reply, “Sure, no problem”

She replies, “Thank you so much”

After heading inside the nearest Target and walking into the women’s underwear section, I text her, “What size?”

She replies, “XL. Big booty.”

“I didn’t know you had an XL booty.” I responded.

“I do now.” She teases, as I grab her a pair to change into and rush to meet her a few minutes later.

I definitely feel a certain way when hearing my GF talk about her booty like that. Enamored is probably the right word. She’s got a beautiful XL butt.

So, that’s where we are right now. That’s all for now, have a great day!

-Polaris